Prayer.
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I have always sought to have a connection to the divine. As a child I would pray often, and drag my parents to church.
Christianity, never felt right for me. Before reading the Book of the Law, I knew instinctively "All words are sacred and all prophets true; save only that they understand a little". So as an adult I decided to maintain a connection to the divine through prayer and meditation. I basically made up my own concept of god and would pray to that, through out the day, not just in the morning or at night. A lot of the time more as a friend or father figure, my prayers would be like "dude that was awesome" or "are you kidding me? You want me to deal with this bullshit?", like a conversation.
This is a habit for me now, and but I feel weird now after delving into Thelema, learning about so many "gods", god forms, elements, demons. Who am I talking to? Is it safe to say that even though I have not attained knowledge and conversation with my HGA, that this dialog can be directed at my HGA? And that while meditating I should be open to possibly hearing something back? Or observing signs in my life, intuition, etc, that might be my HGA trying to get through to me?
Or am I just talking to myself?
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Maybe...
I'm inclined to avoid an answer, though. This is a true matter of faith for you, and too much analysis stands a risk of "breaking" it.
I'm inclined to suggest that you look at it as a spiritual practice in the strictest sense, i.e., a thing to be done, recorded, witnessed, without needing to interpret it or build a logical bubble around it.
I abide with the general guidance that, when encountering the name or image or idea of any particular god, don't presume it's any god at all except that it's the God particularly known to you. (That p.o.v. has kept a lot of people out of trouble!)