2 January (Hadit) Liber CCXX, 2:61-63
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(v. 127) 61. There is a light before thine eyes, o prophet, a light undesired, most desirable.
(v. 128) 62. I am uplifted in thine heart; and the kisses of the stars rain hard upon thy body.
(v. 129) 63. Thou art exhaust in the voluptuous fullness of the inspiration; the expiration is sweeter than death, more rapid and laughterful than a caress of Hell's own worm. -
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"(v. 127) 61. There is a light before thine eyes, o prophet, a light undesired, most desirable."
This is a Netzach verse that, most interestingly, expresses itself in terms of desire.
Much error has been set aside. The essential truth of the splendid Light at the center of our being has been made plain. Truth is intrinsic to each being, and its disclosure affirms, brightens, unveils, and makes plainer the Reality of that being.
This verse could not begin to have this meaning so clearly unless we rightly understood the verse preceding. The “hiding of Hadit” is approaching its climax - and we can now see that “hiding” means the right recognition of Him to be within “Hell” (literally, “the hidden place”), at the center of our Khabs.
This light is “most desirable.” This is beautiful and subtle wording, worthy of our devoted worship. Desire is the magnetic menstruum of the Will. (It is both centripetal and centrifugal, and thus a nonlinear “field” of movement.) It therefore arises naturally from who one is, from one’s Nature. To be “most desirable” is to deeply satisfy one's essential nature (the inmost, not the outermost). Yet, at this juncture, the light is “undesired.” Much truth is resisted for a time, even when it is that which most fulfills. Crowley’s HGA, Aiwass, is employing the voice of Hadit to say, “You don’t know you want this yet, but you do. The light unleashed, the joy set free by this Word, will fulfill all that you are, while you, little one, remain yet blind to it. In time... In time.... ”
"(v. 128) 62. I am uplifted in thine heart; and the kisses of the stars rain hard upon thy body."
A strong manifestation of kundalini to the heart level. This is the exact state of worship described in Cap. I, v. 61: the consequence, or result, is the intense impact of the stellar reality of Nuit upon the merely human flesh of AC. This verse is very descriptive of such a powerful kundalini raising to Anahatta and the extreme awakening thereof.
"(v. 129) 63. Thou art exhaust in the voluptuous fullness of the inspiration; the expiration is sweeter than death, more rapid and laughterful than a caress of Hell's own worm."
The use of respiratory language focuses this verse. In the state described, the sensuality of the breath becomes rapturous, and is well described here.
Such words as “voluptuous” paint a very sensual picture, and I believe this is the primary level at which these phenomena are best described. It grounds the absurd and almost fanatical language that one would otherwise be tempted to use to describe the immaterial. (Perhaps needless to say, “Hell’s own worm” is not that of the corpse, but of Hadit as kundalini.)