Thoughts from Recent Days
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Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
Yesterday was a curious day for me.
I have been getting B.O.T.A. lessons in the mail for the last couple of months, and Lesson 4 really drove something home that I had been taking for granted throughout the whole of my classical studies, and even before that, as an adolescent with a Christian upbringing.
As they are, my streams of income are barely enough to pay for the overhead on my one-bedroom apartment and feed myself. A few days ago, I had some expensive music equipment fail on me, and yesterday introduced another complication involving my bank and my rent payment.
And that's only the half of it.
Anyway, after some mental toil over the most recent financial setback, my mind turned to something I had read before in the Gospel of Mark:
@Mark 4:25 said
For he that hath, to him shall be given: and he that hath not, from him shall be taken, even that which he hath.
I have also been giving some time recently to the study of the Parable of the Prodigal Son. After some meditation, I was able to see this passage in Mark along similar lines as the said parable in Luke.
I feel inclined to point out here that I in no way hold that Christianity, or the expressing one's self in a Christian framework, is in any way superior to any other religion. I've chosen to do so recently simply because it is what's most familiar to me personally, and therefore most readily accessible and convenient as a means of personal expression. That being said, I'm not going to apologize for using words like "God" nor "Lord," nor for referring to the Bible as my chief reference.
So to return back: when something like one of the instances I mentioned above happens, it usually ruins the rest of my day, sticks with me until I go to bed, and serves as a source of anxiety throughout the following days until its resolved.
However, yesterday, (and I attribute this largely in-part to what I had gleaned from my B.O.T.A. readings) I was able to face what would normally be a problem instead as another manifestation of God. To put it more simply, I could see God where I would normally be overwhelmed by certain (usually negative) particulars of the manifestation. But even here, I seem to be tricking myself into thinking I'm neglecting God when those negative particulars are just as much expressions of God as anything else.
To tie this back into Mark 4:25 and the Prodigal Son, I'm starting to believe that God is the only one who truly possesses anything, since all things are His manifestations.
All this to say, I think its possible (and worthwhile) to see the Creator behind His created in every instance. I could use some unwavering peace in my life.
Love is the law, love under will.
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It is in one's best interests to understand that the bible, though originally written a certain way with certain lines of divinity, has been changed, altered, and in no lesser words completely bastardized throughout the past two thousand years.
And as such, the lines of divinity no longer run from the actual words, but qabalistically, from hidden meaning from certain word patterns, certain patterns of the parables, psalms, proverbs, drunken kings of old who wished to be able to marry children at the age of three, etc... If you do not recognize that last one, pay more attention to your old testament.
The only book in the bible not completely twisted in meaning is probably the Revelations of St. John the divine. It was too bizarre to begin with, which made it nearly impossible to alter, plus St. John added that little bit at the end that probably scared the $hit out of most people of the old aeon, about if they alter a single letter or word that they shall never enter the kingdom of heaven.
Aleister Crowley quoted the bible very often, but not with blatant, obvious references, but with hidden meaning. One might tune oneself into this divine line of knowledge before asserting to use, Jehovah Himself forbid, the god-forsaken bible as their one serious
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I had a similar experience during the summer of 11'. I was becoming extremely fed up with some people i was working with at our local dominoes. It was like being in a room full of people that really had no idea (or didnt care) that their world was not the entire world. I watched the Baba Ram Dass documentary called "stroked by Grace" and i was able to see that me being in the position to have to deal with these people was "god" giving me an opportunity to grow. I had to learn to realize that god was acting through those people to help bring me to a better place.
This makes me think of an idea i had recently. On my drive to work I drive through the medical district of our city which happens to be across the the highway from the projects, the northern side of our inner city is really pretty rough. Any who, almost everyday i see a homeless person at this intersection and i believe it is only natural to have an emotional (not overly emotional) reaction to seeing a person who needs help. And i cant help but to flash back to what my father did for me as a child (4th grade), he found out i wasnt making good grades do he made me dig a ditch in the back yard at night in the rain (lol). The next day he took me out of school and took me to work with him around the city, and spent the whole day pointing out homeless people and asking me if I wanted to grow up to be a bum like them. So needless to say for most of my adolescence i really judged homeless people because i figured that they F*ed their life up why feel sorry for them? Well i see things a little differently now, i see more of god in the homeless man than I see in the successful man in his mercedes. So i ask you (collective) what do you see when you look at a homeless person?
Love is the Law Love under Will