College of Thelema: Thelemic Education

thanks everyone. I'm sure I'll manage to figure it all out.
I did find that some things in Majcik Without Tears was a bit hard to understand so I just narrowed down what I couldn't get and started reading some other things.
There's so much information and I just love it all.

thank you

Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.

Thank you so much for your response.
As to what I've been reading... everything I can find. Right now I'm reading Magick Without Tears. I've been reading so much that at first it was boggling but now it's kinda just seeping in.
And I know two days isn't long but I have been constantly reading stuff from the moment i open my eyes till i fall asleep and just absorbing the information. this is day number 3. I read fast and I am smart so to tell you exactly what I've read I'd have to check my history on the computer lol
I did look up Liber E vel Exercitiorvm earlier today but haven't finished Magick without Tears yet. I also found 8 Lectures on Yoga and will read that as well.

I also read further into the Black Brothers and I am not afraid of that anymore. I feel that I am in a good place and won't lead myself astray. I had a moment about 20 minutes ago which made my uneasiness go away. Your comment was also helpful with easing my mind of that.

I'm going to start up a magick diary as I feel this will be a good place to start for me.
I am going to study the tree of life more as well.
Thank you.

Love is the law, love under will.

Hello everyone, my name is Lisa. I am 23 and I live in Newfoundland Canada. I honestly discovered Thelema about 2 days ago and have been reading and reading ever since. I agree with everything and I can feel a change in how I think already and how I feel. Let me really introduce myself!
I live with my boyfriend and our 3 cats and our dog. They are my best friends and my loves. I've been questioning religion and all that jazz since I was about 13. I grew up in a strict Roman Catholic household and was an alter server as well. One day I asked my priest about dinosaurs and I found that his answer led me to trail off, I have been roaming ever since, until I found Thelema. My boyfriend is a BMXer (the guys who ride the tiny bikes and do ridiculous tricks) and he seems to have found what he truly loves, he's sponsored and nothing stands in his way when it comes to riding. This has made me kinda jealous as I wish I knew my place like he does. When I told him about Thelema he didn't really catch on at first but he finally got it today and is totally on board with me talking about it and telling him what I learn which makes it easy for me lol Anyways I decided to post.

But I do want some help. I've been reading and reading but I don't know where to start when it comes to practicing it in my daily life and what I should do. I am afraid to try to do anything that may push me in the wrong direction. I have read about the Black Brothers and I can say it does make me uneasy and I guess its because I don't understand but what if i mess up? Am I thinking wrongly about this? I'm just afraid to hurt my path by jumping into things too soon or doing something I shouldn't. Can I go the wrong way before I have seen my guardian angel? I have an easy time clearing my mind of thoughts and have found saying "Peace be still" very useful when I need peace n quiet in my brain. I would like to try the yoga side to it as well but i don't know what i should do.

I am a very lost newbie trying to figure it all out. Some help would be appreciated so much!

oh! also it says that at the end of the book of law that i shouldn't read it again. Can I? I've taken this very seriously haven't looked at it again.
Also I'm having a hard time figuring out the numerology and the Qabalah. I have a copy of 777 and was wondering is this what I need to read about Qabalah or is there more? Will this help me to understand the Qabalah?

Thanks for reading!