Thank you both for trying to help me.
Blythe: again thank you for trying to help me. but I think you misunderstood me.
you write:
"when you speak so highly of marijuana intoxication. Indeed, it certainly feels like you've made contact with another plane of existence. However, I'm sure you're aware that the human mind is naturally imperfect, and that's why marijuana on its own isn't always a direct cause of a spiritual experience."
I ask you now: wich part did you not understand? I quote myself from first post:
"And No, I am not smoking myself to get hallucination. cause it does not depend on how much weed I use, it depends on how I accept it with my body and my mind. I can experience this by smoking only 0.3g.(that is 1/3 of 1 gram.)"
this is not high school, the effect of cannabis is not needed to be discussed.
And how you experience cannabis is not relevant to me,my mind, nor my body.
And since you are not me, you cannot speak about my spiritual experiences.
does not matter If I smoke or not before a ritual. you have no knowledge of my mind.
the rituals you mentioned are for beginners.
in your fairness, you mentioned you only done this 1 year, but let me enlighten you.
Magick is not about following the words of aleister crowley or anyone else, it is about understanding the orders of nature and use them in harmony.
How you do it, is up to you.
You can start by following guides written by people like aleister crowley, but at a later point it is highly expected that you can perform these rituals with your own knowledge.
Cause it is the meaning behind every word you choose to say that contains the power.
Does not matter If you say it in chinese or arabic. as long as you try to reach the right "forces".
reason we use old hewbrew words etc, is because the paths are already laid down. therefore it is also important to prounounce the words correctly. Unless you managed to understand how it works, then you have no need for words anymore. your mind will make it there.
Hence my question on the first post:
"I am curious how other people in the world perform their own rituals."
pasting books to me or telling me to read something is like when a priest tells the people in the village to read the bible without explaining them why.
clearly most of you are still on the "do what the master says" level.
It is not about man, it is about the almighty. and he does not speak chinese or arabic. he speaks the langauge of understanding, and that is what you have to do If you want to make it all the way.
Understand, don't repeat whatever you think you "must" repeat.
think of aleister crowley like a carl sagan, only in spirtism.
Carl sagan brought astronomy to the "everyday people", but astronomy is not carl sagan. he just made you understand it better. that's all.
and just like carl sagan would want you to study the universe on your own, aleister would want you to study spiritism with your own self-experience. he only wants to guide you, not tell you what to do.
Ciao, and good luck.