I've been meditating on the question of reversed pentigrams, LBRP, and taking everyones comments into consideration. What you said is probably closer to the mark, in my case, than the other comments.
I don't think the problem is my job, or the rampant dark energy -which is basically the modern world structure-, I think the problem for me is in trying to work with western magick! Not an easy conclusion to come to after god knows how many dollars and years I've invested in tools, study, books and rituals. It might be a right fit for some people but not for myself.
What I did find in meditating on this situation is that I am, and have always been, deeply drawn to anything Egyptian. Any profound experience I have had has in some way included an Egyptian aspect. So, I've spent the last few days studying Egyptian language... to my only minor suprise, I recognize some of the Bohairic dialect (native to the Memphis area) and some hieroglyphics relating to the temple work of that area. Then I pulled out some materials left to me by one of my grand aunts on coptic temple (not church) teachings. Bingo!
The Egyptians worked with a 10 day week and had a planetary hour system different from the western version. From the time of the proto-cannanic period the Egyptians viewed the magic of what is now Israel as snake-charming... left hand path. If I've got Egyptian practice etched into my inner being then of course my world would revolt at being subjected to practicing western magick. The True Self wants what it wants and wont accept substitutions.
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