@Frater LR said
" There's just this continual sense of disbelief.... Really? Really....!? And on top of that... The real answer is the Bogeyman?
shit. lol...
I'm just giving it all time to settle out... I guess we'll see..."
It may be because the Christian symbolism is so ingrained in your consciousness that integrating the diametrically opposed symbolism may be necessary for you. However the Holy Books themselves possess varied symbolism, & do not necessarily have the same level of Anti-Christian symbolism as Crowley's personal inclinations. I think this is a point worthy of consideration. However what is interesting in light of the above quote from Liber XC; One might say that Crowley was naturally attracted to the "Demon" so maybe you are right that his symbolism was incomplete, I believe Crowley did struggle with his ego and there is still a question mark ❓ over how he died, regardless of what anyone says. That is why personally I always make a distinction between the man and the message, I suppose Crowley himself was aware of possible oversights and shortcomings, and hence he was particular about assigning his works to different classes.