Frater Isa Gold
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Do What Thou Wilt Shall Be the Whole of the Law!
[What started out as a short introduction turned into a short essay on how I arrived at Thelema and my current state. I totally understand if you go ahead and skip to the last paragraph
All jokes aside if you do read the whole thing I am looking forward to any words of wisdom you can provide.]Greetings everyone, I am a new student to the Law of Thelema. Roughly a few months, I can't place my finger on the exact timing but it feels like forever when it comes to the writings of Crowley. Any how I renounced the Christian religion about 2 years ago after much soul searching and personal experiences. Shortly after I became interested in the occult at which point I felt like a child at the candy store. That's when I became aware that there were many paths and spiritual systems and mystery schools but that I must choose one as man could not master all teachings at the same time unless he was a genius of sorts.
I knew I felt drawn to Magick and spent some time looking into Wicca but at the end of the day I just wasn't into it 100%. I then stumbled across a PDF of the Satanic Bible and figured hey, why not read what the so called "other-side" of the religion I had grew up with had to say on the subject of life. I will say it was a good read, however not what I was looking for. I was always fascinated with Crowley as a man but I had never looked much into his writings or the book of the law. I purchased a copy of little Book 4(Parts 1 & 2 Only) during a trip to my local occult store but shortly after put it down as I could not make sense of, or retain what I was reading.
Time passed as it usually does and I had still not found my "path". One day while at my local occult shop picking up some crystals and incense I was drawn to a glass case that showcased a variety of tarot decks. I was not familiar with the tarot at all beyond that it was used for "fortune telling" or divination. However I felt the need to buy one and that's when I purchased the Thoth deck. I thought to myself Crowley was a bad a** in his time, so his tarot deck must be bad a** as well and indeed it was. I took it straight home from the store, and did a reading straight out the box for my friend. I immediately felt the energy I knew I was on to something. I returned to the store a week or two after and purchased The Book of Thoth. After reading the introductory concepts of the Thoth book I decided I was going to start my journey in Thelema.
I have since then purchased a copy of The Book of the Law from my local occult shop, as well as printed a copy of a PDF I found of the Book of the Law w/ Crowley's comments. I also just purchased Liber 777 along with Understanding Aleister Crowley's Thoth Tarot & Chicken Qabalah by Lon Milo Duquette from Amazon. They should arrive in the mail Monday after the Christmas weekend and I am super excited. I have accepted the Law of Thelema as my new religion (for lack of a better word) and hope that it will be the one constant as my life continues to move forward.
Since deciding to commit to the study of Thelema I have started a daily regiment of Resh, I am trying to begin saying will before every meal as of today but I seem to remember at the point I have finished stuffing my face. Oh and I am also 6 days without nicotine or cigarettes. If you have read this far thank you, and any feedback would be greatly appreciated.
Love is the Law, Love Under Will
-Frater Isa Gold
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93 and welcome, Frater!
I read you post, thank you for sharing! I lost it in the middle because I could relate so much to your experiences:) I also began with Wicca, also read the Satanic Bible and wasn't satisfied with either, even though they both seemed to have 'bits' of truth...
I consider purchasing the Thoth deck to be my first truly Magickal act
anyway, I'm falling asleep right now but wanted to reply.Congratulations on accepting the Law of Thelema!
Wishing you luck on your Path!
93s!
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Thank you for your kind words, and I would agree, oh how I love my Thoth deck!
I read your introduction thread as well and saw you mentioned you recently began your probationary degree in the OTO and I have a simple question if you will.
At what point, or what triggered your decision to go from being a solo practitioner to becoming an initiate of the OTO?
Thanks again.
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93,
My experience as far as when to do and what to do magickally has been "when you know, you know". Following my intuition has yet to let me down. I love OTO! If you have a body near you I highly recommend attending their public events, especially the Gnostic Mass.
93s!
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93,
Indeed I do have a local body extremely close to my home. I just sent them a message today about possibility of membership and to plan a visit. I will update you when and if that happens.
93/93
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Cool beans
Good luck!
93's!