Uni_Verse
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I suppose it is about time I introduce myself... as I have already made a few posts
Ever since I was young, the world has seemed fake to me. Even to this day, there are moments where I sit back and think: "This is not real." Now, I can sit back and have a good laugh about it. But during my younger days (not that I am old!) it was the root of many of my problems.
Ha! Had a lot of problems back then, starting with the fact that I was born with two names. My mother calls me Marc, my father Antonio, with my friends having their own slew of nicknames ranging from odd sounds to whispered reverence (<- last part is a bit disconcerting).
But you can call me Marcus.
My interaction as a child with the hypocritical denizens of Christianity that occupy the island I live on lead to an early disendowment of all religion. Despite that I could never shake off the feeling of unreality, and the more philosophy and science books I read, the more it seemed they were just skating around the real questions.
Everything started to change when I got my hands on some books about Quantum theory. It had been a long time since something invoked so much passion inside me, I could not ignore it. Any book I could get my hands on I read, until one day I stumbled upon a conversation about Magick.
Some "thought experiments" were already taking place in my mind, and with a sudden conviction I said to myself : "I am going to study some magick." After all, thoughts have power over reality. Maybe there was something to it... Worse case scenario, nothing happened.
It was Sunday. I went to order Initiation Into Hermetics by Franz Bardon. Typing in all the information, click pay - and what does it say? Two months to receive it! That was not going to do it, so I checked some of the books that other people were interested in that bought Initiation. One of them was The Book of the Law by one Mr Crowley. I laughed!
Mr Crowley is my favorite Ozzy Osbourne song
The next day I received the Law. Before then, there had books I read that made me stop and think. Some even inspired me to make great life changes (Thus Spoke Zarathustra). Nothing ever hit me as hard as the Law (not even LSD) - it was like bucket of cold water, waking me up from a deep sleep.
At that point, I went about getting my hands upon more of Crowley's work as well as learning a bit about the man himself. Immediately I felt a kinship for the fellow. He reminded me alot of myself, in the way that both of us were people no one really understood. Filled with contradiction, that was the result of not knowing the full picture.
His writing, amazed me. At times it feels as if he took thoughts right out of my head - the only difference is that he gave them a semblance of order. Not that I believe I am his reincarnation or somehow knew him in another life. I see it as birds of a feather flocking together
Since then, I have dedicated my life to Magick. Though not always in action, my spirit carries the flame in all I do. At first, I was all about "returning home" but now my only desire is to discover my True Will. Even so, it is the journey that matters. The destination is only a post sign, when I get there is when I get there!
Sit back and enjoy the ride!
As for how I got here specifically...
It was through the good people of the Aiwass Study Group. They recommended this wonderful forum.