Dark Matter
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Greetings to you all, last night, I registered and logged on, and wrote what I thought was one of my best intro's I have ever done. Then I previewed my work, looked good, and as it was 1;45 am, and i was soggy as hell from a long day I decided to shut down for the night. today, I logged on to see if I had eny replies saying Hi back. Look like hell and could not find what I wrote, then thanks Dear Dawn Bringer for alerting me to this- i did not hit Send- and off into the either and oblivion it goes.
Funny in a way.
So tonight I am just gonna say hi and ramble abit. I do have some concerns I am hoping someone here can help me with. I am a Probationer under a differant Line. Somehow- it just is not quite working; I am not 'feeling a connect'.
About a year ago I saw James Eshelmans book the mystical Magical system of A:.A:., seriously wanted to buy it, but being kinda broke and daily working in "Home Emergency Mgt." just ain't got it yet. Even tried to get it through interlibrary loan- no luck. I have been involved with with site only 48 hrs. I think I have gotten more answers than ever from my line( of which I also feel abit of disinterest from) and wowwee feel a whole lot more CONNECT. So popping out a question right off, is it possible to work also under this line and sign The Oath of a Probationer; or do I have to drop the other line. Because really if I have to drop it I am sure it will matter none to them, I just kinda enjoy haveing some of their reading recouses which i am sure you have and much more.Alittle about me, I am 5 aaaahhh 2. whitey. married 29 years 5 chillins and 9 g-chillins. I will talk about them all at some point because in a very real way they each are a Ritual part of my life. 3 daughters 2 sons- who are both masons like me; though one is wanting to chuck it for some pretty sad reasons, especially since as a career combat soldier with 3 tours of Afghaniland he has contact with lots of masons and I am sure he could get some good PTSD TBI fellowship. The other is so so, but I think my current work is going to bring him Food he has been missing in the dying craft of Missouri---aka misery. Masonicly, this state is all but being lowered into the ground- frankly I think it deserves it. I will discuss my daughters later, my oldest is on her way to witchcraft when she isn't being hung by her toes by her 5 (squared)kids ages 10-3. She just left 2 years ago with her twin sis, as they were both "married" to a man in a fundementalist mormon cult, a hidious protoneandrathal of a brute beast; who thankfully has just been sentanced to 7 years for forcible sexual assault and rape- ( and there are a whole slew of other charges sitting and stewing for the future- I am hoping for not only life in the end- but the entire cult, which lives near Stockton misery, has crimes and evils in it fingernails which I am sure writing them down will look more like some sort of sick novel written by some psychiatrically impaired sexual sociopath. So anyway- I am busy in that dept, and I will discuss more when needed.
I am an excommunicant of the (Moron Church), for "Apostacy and Being a severe threat to the church". I insissted on teaching the doctrines of the founders- not a good thing so they "Freed me", in someways I held on abit, but the nearly 20 years which passed put me through several "Disc Cleanings" "Anti-virus scans" and for the most part a complete rebuilding and new software which made me able to understand experiances in my earliest youth (as well as several live before that >> which former dogma told me does not in anyway exsist and is clearly a satanic spirit deception ad nauseum. I will also say during those years I was "spiritually disturbed" weak in many ways which I woulld think should be easy; although very spiritually blest through instructive dreams, OOBE's Sirit and Angelic manifestation; Life saving intervention- as well as "Cross over to the other side and 'swimming back'" events. With me allowing the "Yoke" of the church in my life for the most part I was barely more than a dumb cattle being led to their slaughter. BTW- the collar on mormon temple garment are called "Yokes of the Priesthood" a very apt term. But thankfully through a near physical death event from a simple surgury and at the same time Another (probably #4 this time) Spiritual Death, I came backi indeed "Born Again" and empowered with the most amazing Gifts Powers and Mental accuity I could never imagine to a living mortal. i remember how so alone I was- like all the other times; but how great the struggle was and full and profound and I wish I could somehow take a slice of my brain tissue and plant it in each of my family's brain- in hopes they would look at me "and finally get it". But then I understand that for them to fully 'get it'; they would have to walk swim drag climb fall etc as I did to get here-- No, could not would not do that to someone I love. But now, I am a happy Warlock; but before i n my life where I was teaching people in priesthood classes 40 years my senior and of High Ranks reaching to the Church's "General Authorities" even had a dream one night, where the next day i told Council of the 70 member by the last name of Hales, he was going to be called as an Apostle of the church and he should really prepare for that. he laughed me away, but his wife was respectful at least. We see where he is now. but I was one talking and teaching machine. Now, happy to sit- shut me yap, and open my eyes ears all my sences, and soak in whatever drop no matter how lowly and discarded like a starving spong with a Black Hole within it. So; if oyu have something to say, there is nothing silly to say to me, say it, it may well be the welcome crumb from a table which will complete the most important feeding I will have.
Well, I hath yammered enough on this topic. Oh, I also love animals. currently have 5 doggies and 2 kitties- usually more., But to me they are deep spiritual and angelic beings in furry suits masquarading as my ever beloved children.
My whole life I have openly annd without shame "Worshipped the severest Thunder and lightening Storms; rejoicing as "My Loving Gods and Goddesses are Singing To Me!" and happy am I to love Lord Baal Hadad.
i love and worship all the gods, ('cept for the judeo xtian muslim ones- I have left them behind as 'slave minor deities) Yes they gave me alot in the way; but the systems which they use as vehicles for the masses can't pprove to be truthful or trusted. All of the "False Gods, "Demons" Devils, many of which are now feigned glory in the blind mad rush of the ignorant under the banner of "Demonology" are actually the best Well Intentioned Self Sacrificial Loving and indeed HOLY- of all the beings Annunaki or otherwise to work upon this globe.Well, done for now. Blessings Frater, Warlock Dark Matter
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Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
Welcome!
@Dark Matter said
"I am a Probationer under a differant Line. Somehow- it just is not quite working; I am not 'feeling a connect'. "
It's there, whether you feel it or not.
"So popping out a question right off, is it possible to work also under this line and sign The Oath of a Probationer; or do I have to drop the other line. Because really if I have to drop it I am sure it will matter none to them, I just kinda enjoy haveing some of their reading recouses which i am sure you have and much more."
Confusing. If by "this line" you mean the Soror Estai lineage, J.A.E. will have to answer that. However, I must say, if you have already taken an Oath (and if you're a Probationer as you said, you have): Do. Not. Break. It.
Love is the law, love under will.