June 24 (Water) Liber LXV, Cap. III, v. 31-32
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**31. I turned me about thrice in every way; and always I came at the last unto Thee.
32. Many things I beheld mediate and immediate; but, beholding them no more, I beheld Thee.
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My first thought was humorous, to me, like "hey baby, I've been around the block, but it's always been about you" <<in my best sleazy come hither voice>>
However, this doesn't strike me as that, rather, it feels to me that it speaks to human nature and our limitations that require transcendence. Nuit is everything and nothing and each verse seems to speak to one aspect of that. He's done everything, 3 times over, and each time he came to the presence of his angel "at the last". Part of human nature may be that we need to exhaust ourselves, travail the pathways, look under ever rock, and overwhelm our senses to find the presence of our inmost center which in the end was always there.
Also- he beholds all things "mediate and immediate" when "beholding them no more" he beheld "Thee". Once polarity was transcended, a unity in which nothing is beheld occurred, and in this state the presence of the angel could be perceived. That's my theory anyway.
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