One's True Will (with a wife and kids)
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I have been lurking on this site for 2+ years now, almost completely as an observer, soaking up the knowledge, advice, etc from everyone who posts here. I posted early on and asked for some advice for a newbie, in which I received a ton of helpful answers. Since then, I have dabbled in (or you can say, "arm-chaired" in) different paradigms, including Ceremonial Magick and Chaos Magick, which at the very least gave me some practical experience with certain techniques, etc. In the end, however, I have been pulled back to Thelema, which is where my occult interests began (specifically, reading Diary of a Drug Fiend). Earlier this year, I realized that it's time to get serious about the Great Work; I purchased Jim's Book "The Mystical and Magical System of the A .'. A .'.", and have obtained (and am working through) almost all of the Student Reading Curriculum at the current time. It's been the best thing that I have done in regards to my spiritual growth, and I am beginning to "connect the dots" if you will, a lot clearer than I have in the past.
I am a bit older (33 to be precise), am married, tied down to a job, and have one 2 year old with TWINS on the way. I am a musician, and know that deep down, music in one form or another must be connected to my True Will. My current job is in the musical field, but what I do (clerical/ logistical BS) could very well be done just as well if I worked for an elevator installation company. While I understand that anything can be worked on to be changed, improved, or let go of completely (like a job, a smoking habit, etc) in order to work towards one True Will, there is also the reality that certain things, like it or not, are tied to you for good on this plane of existence. First and foremost, my wife and kids. If I find that it’s my True Will, let’s say, to do something musically related, yet pull me away from my family for a long period of time, that will greatly impact them, for better or worse. Perhaps positives would include financial gain/ stability, and the ability for me to fulfill MY True Will. However, would this be interfering on my wife and kids True Will, and possibly be detrimental to them? Meaning, my wife is left alone for possibly months at a time to raise our kids without a Father figure present?
What I am getting at is this: Is the finding of one’s True Will always possible (or more so, possible to completely fulfill), if you’re tied to people that will always be connected to/ influence you in some way or another? I have already committed to my wife and children, and they aren’t obviously some job or habit that I can work to change or omit completely. I am sure some of you on this forum are in the same boat, so any advice? Sure, family can be supportive, encouraging, etc, but in the end (and what scares me the most), if one finds that part of their True Will was never to have married that person, or have those children to begin with, than are they treated the same way as anything else detrimental to the Great Work (i.e., discarded, modified, etc)? I love them to death and could not even imagine uprooting myself if that happened to be part of my True Will. I just honestly see it as selfish. I also don’t see it working any other way though, as I don’t imagine one’s True Will is “flexible” by any means. Or is it?
@Mephis said
"Do you have many of these kinds of pictures, Takamba? I can put you in touch with a counseling hotline if you feel you need help.
I'll pray for you.
"I did not ask for your prayers. That's a stock photo I found. One's Will may indeed to be a soldier, one's Will may indeed to be a nurse, one's Will is not to be judged by your standards or the standards of the one who calls himself/herself her "fool." If one discovers their Will, it is no ugly phantasm. The man so pictured is someone who may in fact be doing his Will, who are you to judge?
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I have been lurking on this site for 2+ years now, almost completely as an observer, soaking up the knowledge, advice, etc from everyone who posts here. I posted early on and asked for some advice for a newbie, in which I received a ton of helpful answers. Since then, I have dabbled in (or you can say, "arm-chaired" in) different paradigms, including Ceremonial Magick and Chaos Magick, which at the very least gave me some practical experience with certain techniques, etc. In the end, however, I have been pulled back to Thelema, which is where my occult interests began (specifically, reading Diary of a Drug Fiend). Earlier this year, I realized that it's time to get serious about the Great Work; I purchased Jim's Book "The Mystical and Magical System of the A .'. A .'.", and have obtained (and am working through) almost all of the Student Reading Curriculum at the current time. It's been the best thing that I have done in regards to my spiritual growth, and I am beginning to "connect the dots" if you will, a lot clearer than I have in the past.
I am a bit older (33 to be precise), am married, tied down to a job, and have one 2 year old with TWINS on the way. I am a musician, and know that deep down, music in one form or another must be connected to my True Will. My current job is in the musical field, but what I do (clerical/ logistical BS) could very well be done just as well if I worked for an elevator installation company. While I understand that anything can be worked on to be changed, improved, or let go of completely (like a job, a smoking habit, etc) in order to work towards one True Will, there is also the reality that certain things, like it or not, are tied to you for good on this plane of existence. First and foremost, my wife and kids. If I find that it’s my True Will, let’s say, to do something musically related, yet pull me away from my family for a long period of time, that will greatly impact them, for better or worse. Perhaps positives would include financial gain/ stability, and the ability for me to fulfill MY True Will. However, would this be interfering on my wife and kids True Will, and possibly be detrimental to them? Meaning, my wife is left alone for possibly months at a time to raise our kids without a Father figure present?
What I am getting at is this: Is the finding of one’s True Will always possible (or more so, possible to completely fulfill), if you’re tied to people that will always be connected to/ influence you in some way or another? I have already committed to my wife and children, and they aren’t obviously some job or habit that I can work to change or omit completely. I am sure some of you on this forum are in the same boat, so any advice? Sure, family can be supportive, encouraging, etc, but in the end (and what scares me the most), if one finds that part of their True Will was never to have married that person, or have those children to begin with, than are they treated the same way as anything else detrimental to the Great Work (i.e., discarded, modified, etc)? I love them to death and could not even imagine uprooting myself if that happened to be part of my True Will. I just honestly see it as selfish. I also don’t see it working any other way though, as I don’t imagine one’s True Will is “flexible” by any means. Or is it?
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I have been lurking on this site for 2+ years now, almost completely as an observer, soaking up the knowledge, advice, etc from everyone who posts here. I posted early on and asked for some advice for a newbie, in which I received a ton of helpful answers. Since then, I have dabbled in (or you can say, "arm-chaired" in) different paradigms, including Ceremonial Magick and Chaos Magick, which at the very least gave me some practical experience with certain techniques, etc. In the end, however, I have been pulled back to Thelema, which is where my occult interests began (specifically, reading Diary of a Drug Fiend). Earlier this year, I realized that it's time to get serious about the Great Work; I purchased Jim's Book "The Mystical and Magical System of the A .'. A .'.", and have obtained (and am working through) almost all of the Student Reading Curriculum at the current time. It's been the best thing that I have done in regards to my spiritual growth, and I am beginning to "connect the dots" if you will, a lot clearer than I have in the past.
I am a bit older (33 to be precise), am married, tied down to a job, and have one 2 year old with TWINS on the way. I am a musician, and know that deep down, music in one form or another must be connected to my True Will. My current job is in the musical field, but what I do (clerical/ logistical BS) could very well be done just as well if I worked for an elevator installation company. While I understand that anything can be worked on to be changed, improved, or let go of completely (like a job, a smoking habit, etc) in order to work towards one True Will, there is also the reality that certain things, like it or not, are tied to you for good on this plane of existence. First and foremost, my wife and kids. If I find that it’s my True Will, let’s say, to do something musically related, yet pull me away from my family for a long period of time, that will greatly impact them, for better or worse. Perhaps positives would include financial gain/ stability, and the ability for me to fulfill MY True Will. However, would this be interfering on my wife and kids True Will, and possibly be detrimental to them? Meaning, my wife is left alone for possibly months at a time to raise our kids without a Father figure present?
What I am getting at is this: Is the finding of one’s True Will always possible (or more so, possible to completely fulfill), if you’re tied to people that will always be connected to/ influence you in some way or another? I have already committed to my wife and children, and they aren’t obviously some job or habit that I can work to change or omit completely. I am sure some of you on this forum are in the same boat, so any advice? Sure, family can be supportive, encouraging, etc, but in the end (and what scares me the most), if one finds that part of their True Will was never to have married that person, or have those children to begin with, than are they treated the same way as anything else detrimental to the Great Work (i.e., discarded, modified, etc)? I love them to death and could not even imagine uprooting myself if that happened to be part of my True Will. I just honestly see it as selfish. I also don’t see it working any other way though, as I don’t imagine one’s True Will is “flexible” by any means. Or is it?
@Aegis said
"For me, my "hypotheticals" always fall silent in the face of present reality and practical necessity."
+1.
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I have been lurking on this site for 2+ years now, almost completely as an observer, soaking up the knowledge, advice, etc from everyone who posts here. I posted early on and asked for some advice for a newbie, in which I received a ton of helpful answers. Since then, I have dabbled in (or you can say, "arm-chaired" in) different paradigms, including Ceremonial Magick and Chaos Magick, which at the very least gave me some practical experience with certain techniques, etc. In the end, however, I have been pulled back to Thelema, which is where my occult interests began (specifically, reading Diary of a Drug Fiend). Earlier this year, I realized that it's time to get serious about the Great Work; I purchased Jim's Book "The Mystical and Magical System of the A .'. A .'.", and have obtained (and am working through) almost all of the Student Reading Curriculum at the current time. It's been the best thing that I have done in regards to my spiritual growth, and I am beginning to "connect the dots" if you will, a lot clearer than I have in the past.
I am a bit older (33 to be precise), am married, tied down to a job, and have one 2 year old with TWINS on the way. I am a musician, and know that deep down, music in one form or another must be connected to my True Will. My current job is in the musical field, but what I do (clerical/ logistical BS) could very well be done just as well if I worked for an elevator installation company. While I understand that anything can be worked on to be changed, improved, or let go of completely (like a job, a smoking habit, etc) in order to work towards one True Will, there is also the reality that certain things, like it or not, are tied to you for good on this plane of existence. First and foremost, my wife and kids. If I find that it’s my True Will, let’s say, to do something musically related, yet pull me away from my family for a long period of time, that will greatly impact them, for better or worse. Perhaps positives would include financial gain/ stability, and the ability for me to fulfill MY True Will. However, would this be interfering on my wife and kids True Will, and possibly be detrimental to them? Meaning, my wife is left alone for possibly months at a time to raise our kids without a Father figure present?
What I am getting at is this: Is the finding of one’s True Will always possible (or more so, possible to completely fulfill), if you’re tied to people that will always be connected to/ influence you in some way or another? I have already committed to my wife and children, and they aren’t obviously some job or habit that I can work to change or omit completely. I am sure some of you on this forum are in the same boat, so any advice? Sure, family can be supportive, encouraging, etc, but in the end (and what scares me the most), if one finds that part of their True Will was never to have married that person, or have those children to begin with, than are they treated the same way as anything else detrimental to the Great Work (i.e., discarded, modified, etc)? I love them to death and could not even imagine uprooting myself if that happened to be part of my True Will. I just honestly see it as selfish. I also don’t see it working any other way though, as I don’t imagine one’s True Will is “flexible” by any means. Or is it?
"Aegis wrote:
For me, my "hypotheticals" always fall silent in the face of present reality and practical necessity."ha! that's my fb status tonight (by chance!):
"let's be practical and realistic shall we?"
my motto for sun in virgo! though yours sums it up better (i was talking to myself in that status and stated so...
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I have been lurking on this site for 2+ years now, almost completely as an observer, soaking up the knowledge, advice, etc from everyone who posts here. I posted early on and asked for some advice for a newbie, in which I received a ton of helpful answers. Since then, I have dabbled in (or you can say, "arm-chaired" in) different paradigms, including Ceremonial Magick and Chaos Magick, which at the very least gave me some practical experience with certain techniques, etc. In the end, however, I have been pulled back to Thelema, which is where my occult interests began (specifically, reading Diary of a Drug Fiend). Earlier this year, I realized that it's time to get serious about the Great Work; I purchased Jim's Book "The Mystical and Magical System of the A .'. A .'.", and have obtained (and am working through) almost all of the Student Reading Curriculum at the current time. It's been the best thing that I have done in regards to my spiritual growth, and I am beginning to "connect the dots" if you will, a lot clearer than I have in the past.
I am a bit older (33 to be precise), am married, tied down to a job, and have one 2 year old with TWINS on the way. I am a musician, and know that deep down, music in one form or another must be connected to my True Will. My current job is in the musical field, but what I do (clerical/ logistical BS) could very well be done just as well if I worked for an elevator installation company. While I understand that anything can be worked on to be changed, improved, or let go of completely (like a job, a smoking habit, etc) in order to work towards one True Will, there is also the reality that certain things, like it or not, are tied to you for good on this plane of existence. First and foremost, my wife and kids. If I find that it’s my True Will, let’s say, to do something musically related, yet pull me away from my family for a long period of time, that will greatly impact them, for better or worse. Perhaps positives would include financial gain/ stability, and the ability for me to fulfill MY True Will. However, would this be interfering on my wife and kids True Will, and possibly be detrimental to them? Meaning, my wife is left alone for possibly months at a time to raise our kids without a Father figure present?
What I am getting at is this: Is the finding of one’s True Will always possible (or more so, possible to completely fulfill), if you’re tied to people that will always be connected to/ influence you in some way or another? I have already committed to my wife and children, and they aren’t obviously some job or habit that I can work to change or omit completely. I am sure some of you on this forum are in the same boat, so any advice? Sure, family can be supportive, encouraging, etc, but in the end (and what scares me the most), if one finds that part of their True Will was never to have married that person, or have those children to begin with, than are they treated the same way as anything else detrimental to the Great Work (i.e., discarded, modified, etc)? I love them to death and could not even imagine uprooting myself if that happened to be part of my True Will. I just honestly see it as selfish. I also don’t see it working any other way though, as I don’t imagine one’s True Will is “flexible” by any means. Or is it?
@Takamba said
"I did not ask for your prayers. That's a stock photo I found. One's Will may indeed to be a soldier, one's Will may indeed to be a nurse, one's Will is not to be judged by your standards or the standards of the one who calls himself/herself her "fool." If one discovers their Will, it is no ugly phantasm. The man so pictured is someone who may in fact be doing his Will, who are you to judge?"
Testy, are we Takamba?
Edit: You know, some might see denial as a symptom of guilt, but I'm just going to leave it at that.
Do I really need to start putting "Mercury 18 deg. Gemini" in my sig.?
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I have been lurking on this site for 2+ years now, almost completely as an observer, soaking up the knowledge, advice, etc from everyone who posts here. I posted early on and asked for some advice for a newbie, in which I received a ton of helpful answers. Since then, I have dabbled in (or you can say, "arm-chaired" in) different paradigms, including Ceremonial Magick and Chaos Magick, which at the very least gave me some practical experience with certain techniques, etc. In the end, however, I have been pulled back to Thelema, which is where my occult interests began (specifically, reading Diary of a Drug Fiend). Earlier this year, I realized that it's time to get serious about the Great Work; I purchased Jim's Book "The Mystical and Magical System of the A .'. A .'.", and have obtained (and am working through) almost all of the Student Reading Curriculum at the current time. It's been the best thing that I have done in regards to my spiritual growth, and I am beginning to "connect the dots" if you will, a lot clearer than I have in the past.
I am a bit older (33 to be precise), am married, tied down to a job, and have one 2 year old with TWINS on the way. I am a musician, and know that deep down, music in one form or another must be connected to my True Will. My current job is in the musical field, but what I do (clerical/ logistical BS) could very well be done just as well if I worked for an elevator installation company. While I understand that anything can be worked on to be changed, improved, or let go of completely (like a job, a smoking habit, etc) in order to work towards one True Will, there is also the reality that certain things, like it or not, are tied to you for good on this plane of existence. First and foremost, my wife and kids. If I find that it’s my True Will, let’s say, to do something musically related, yet pull me away from my family for a long period of time, that will greatly impact them, for better or worse. Perhaps positives would include financial gain/ stability, and the ability for me to fulfill MY True Will. However, would this be interfering on my wife and kids True Will, and possibly be detrimental to them? Meaning, my wife is left alone for possibly months at a time to raise our kids without a Father figure present?
What I am getting at is this: Is the finding of one’s True Will always possible (or more so, possible to completely fulfill), if you’re tied to people that will always be connected to/ influence you in some way or another? I have already committed to my wife and children, and they aren’t obviously some job or habit that I can work to change or omit completely. I am sure some of you on this forum are in the same boat, so any advice? Sure, family can be supportive, encouraging, etc, but in the end (and what scares me the most), if one finds that part of their True Will was never to have married that person, or have those children to begin with, than are they treated the same way as anything else detrimental to the Great Work (i.e., discarded, modified, etc)? I love them to death and could not even imagine uprooting myself if that happened to be part of my True Will. I just honestly see it as selfish. I also don’t see it working any other way though, as I don’t imagine one’s True Will is “flexible” by any means. Or is it?
Calm down, friends. Be
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I have been lurking on this site for 2+ years now, almost completely as an observer, soaking up the knowledge, advice, etc from everyone who posts here. I posted early on and asked for some advice for a newbie, in which I received a ton of helpful answers. Since then, I have dabbled in (or you can say, "arm-chaired" in) different paradigms, including Ceremonial Magick and Chaos Magick, which at the very least gave me some practical experience with certain techniques, etc. In the end, however, I have been pulled back to Thelema, which is where my occult interests began (specifically, reading Diary of a Drug Fiend). Earlier this year, I realized that it's time to get serious about the Great Work; I purchased Jim's Book "The Mystical and Magical System of the A .'. A .'.", and have obtained (and am working through) almost all of the Student Reading Curriculum at the current time. It's been the best thing that I have done in regards to my spiritual growth, and I am beginning to "connect the dots" if you will, a lot clearer than I have in the past.
I am a bit older (33 to be precise), am married, tied down to a job, and have one 2 year old with TWINS on the way. I am a musician, and know that deep down, music in one form or another must be connected to my True Will. My current job is in the musical field, but what I do (clerical/ logistical BS) could very well be done just as well if I worked for an elevator installation company. While I understand that anything can be worked on to be changed, improved, or let go of completely (like a job, a smoking habit, etc) in order to work towards one True Will, there is also the reality that certain things, like it or not, are tied to you for good on this plane of existence. First and foremost, my wife and kids. If I find that it’s my True Will, let’s say, to do something musically related, yet pull me away from my family for a long period of time, that will greatly impact them, for better or worse. Perhaps positives would include financial gain/ stability, and the ability for me to fulfill MY True Will. However, would this be interfering on my wife and kids True Will, and possibly be detrimental to them? Meaning, my wife is left alone for possibly months at a time to raise our kids without a Father figure present?
What I am getting at is this: Is the finding of one’s True Will always possible (or more so, possible to completely fulfill), if you’re tied to people that will always be connected to/ influence you in some way or another? I have already committed to my wife and children, and they aren’t obviously some job or habit that I can work to change or omit completely. I am sure some of you on this forum are in the same boat, so any advice? Sure, family can be supportive, encouraging, etc, but in the end (and what scares me the most), if one finds that part of their True Will was never to have married that person, or have those children to begin with, than are they treated the same way as anything else detrimental to the Great Work (i.e., discarded, modified, etc)? I love them to death and could not even imagine uprooting myself if that happened to be part of my True Will. I just honestly see it as selfish. I also don’t see it working any other way though, as I don’t imagine one’s True Will is “flexible” by any means. Or is it?
@Jim Eshelman said
"Calm down, friends. Be
"It's just me, I know this already, and it has nothing to do with magick, occultism, or ToT. But I have to say, when I read the above I couldn't stop myself fromhumming 'stay cool boy,' from the sound track of West Side Story!
Love and Will
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I have been lurking on this site for 2+ years now, almost completely as an observer, soaking up the knowledge, advice, etc from everyone who posts here. I posted early on and asked for some advice for a newbie, in which I received a ton of helpful answers. Since then, I have dabbled in (or you can say, "arm-chaired" in) different paradigms, including Ceremonial Magick and Chaos Magick, which at the very least gave me some practical experience with certain techniques, etc. In the end, however, I have been pulled back to Thelema, which is where my occult interests began (specifically, reading Diary of a Drug Fiend). Earlier this year, I realized that it's time to get serious about the Great Work; I purchased Jim's Book "The Mystical and Magical System of the A .'. A .'.", and have obtained (and am working through) almost all of the Student Reading Curriculum at the current time. It's been the best thing that I have done in regards to my spiritual growth, and I am beginning to "connect the dots" if you will, a lot clearer than I have in the past.
I am a bit older (33 to be precise), am married, tied down to a job, and have one 2 year old with TWINS on the way. I am a musician, and know that deep down, music in one form or another must be connected to my True Will. My current job is in the musical field, but what I do (clerical/ logistical BS) could very well be done just as well if I worked for an elevator installation company. While I understand that anything can be worked on to be changed, improved, or let go of completely (like a job, a smoking habit, etc) in order to work towards one True Will, there is also the reality that certain things, like it or not, are tied to you for good on this plane of existence. First and foremost, my wife and kids. If I find that it’s my True Will, let’s say, to do something musically related, yet pull me away from my family for a long period of time, that will greatly impact them, for better or worse. Perhaps positives would include financial gain/ stability, and the ability for me to fulfill MY True Will. However, would this be interfering on my wife and kids True Will, and possibly be detrimental to them? Meaning, my wife is left alone for possibly months at a time to raise our kids without a Father figure present?
What I am getting at is this: Is the finding of one’s True Will always possible (or more so, possible to completely fulfill), if you’re tied to people that will always be connected to/ influence you in some way or another? I have already committed to my wife and children, and they aren’t obviously some job or habit that I can work to change or omit completely. I am sure some of you on this forum are in the same boat, so any advice? Sure, family can be supportive, encouraging, etc, but in the end (and what scares me the most), if one finds that part of their True Will was never to have married that person, or have those children to begin with, than are they treated the same way as anything else detrimental to the Great Work (i.e., discarded, modified, etc)? I love them to death and could not even imagine uprooting myself if that happened to be part of my True Will. I just honestly see it as selfish. I also don’t see it working any other way though, as I don’t imagine one’s True Will is “flexible” by any means. Or is it?
@Mephis said
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@Takamba said
"I did not ask for your prayers. That's a stock photo I found. One's Will may indeed to be a soldier, one's Will may indeed to be a nurse, one's Will is not to be judged by your standards or the standards of the one who calls himself/herself her "fool." If one discovers their Will, it is no ugly phantasm. The man so pictured is someone who may in fact be doing his Will, who are you to judge?"Testy, are we Takamba?
Edit: You know, some might see denial as a symptom of guilt, but I'm just going to leave it at that.
Do I really need to start putting "Mercury 18 deg. Gemini" in my sig.?"
I knew it was a joke, as I believe almost all things on the internet are a joke (including what both CNN and Fox put on the internet) but I cannot allow to stand any belief that claims a thing "ugly phantasm." The old Beauty is in the eye of the beholder thing. And I try often to behold the eye in the still center of the Universe, that eye which sees all and judges all equally. There is no ugly, ugly is as ugly sees. That sort of thing. I of course knew it was a joke and of course am not at all taking it personal (Takamba is a joke no one has discussed yet and need not, it isn't worth serious discussion).
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I have been lurking on this site for 2+ years now, almost completely as an observer, soaking up the knowledge, advice, etc from everyone who posts here. I posted early on and asked for some advice for a newbie, in which I received a ton of helpful answers. Since then, I have dabbled in (or you can say, "arm-chaired" in) different paradigms, including Ceremonial Magick and Chaos Magick, which at the very least gave me some practical experience with certain techniques, etc. In the end, however, I have been pulled back to Thelema, which is where my occult interests began (specifically, reading Diary of a Drug Fiend). Earlier this year, I realized that it's time to get serious about the Great Work; I purchased Jim's Book "The Mystical and Magical System of the A .'. A .'.", and have obtained (and am working through) almost all of the Student Reading Curriculum at the current time. It's been the best thing that I have done in regards to my spiritual growth, and I am beginning to "connect the dots" if you will, a lot clearer than I have in the past.
I am a bit older (33 to be precise), am married, tied down to a job, and have one 2 year old with TWINS on the way. I am a musician, and know that deep down, music in one form or another must be connected to my True Will. My current job is in the musical field, but what I do (clerical/ logistical BS) could very well be done just as well if I worked for an elevator installation company. While I understand that anything can be worked on to be changed, improved, or let go of completely (like a job, a smoking habit, etc) in order to work towards one True Will, there is also the reality that certain things, like it or not, are tied to you for good on this plane of existence. First and foremost, my wife and kids. If I find that it’s my True Will, let’s say, to do something musically related, yet pull me away from my family for a long period of time, that will greatly impact them, for better or worse. Perhaps positives would include financial gain/ stability, and the ability for me to fulfill MY True Will. However, would this be interfering on my wife and kids True Will, and possibly be detrimental to them? Meaning, my wife is left alone for possibly months at a time to raise our kids without a Father figure present?
What I am getting at is this: Is the finding of one’s True Will always possible (or more so, possible to completely fulfill), if you’re tied to people that will always be connected to/ influence you in some way or another? I have already committed to my wife and children, and they aren’t obviously some job or habit that I can work to change or omit completely. I am sure some of you on this forum are in the same boat, so any advice? Sure, family can be supportive, encouraging, etc, but in the end (and what scares me the most), if one finds that part of their True Will was never to have married that person, or have those children to begin with, than are they treated the same way as anything else detrimental to the Great Work (i.e., discarded, modified, etc)? I love them to death and could not even imagine uprooting myself if that happened to be part of my True Will. I just honestly see it as selfish. I also don’t see it working any other way though, as I don’t imagine one’s True Will is “flexible” by any means. Or is it?
@Takamba said
" And I try often to behold the eye in the still center of the Universe, that eye which sees all and judges all equally"
You and me both.
Brought this to mind...I'd like to share it with you. It never gets old:
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DE CAECITIA PHILOSOPHORUM ANTIQUORUM
Behold, how comfortable is this my Wisdom, wherein I have resolved every Conflict soever that is or that can be, even in all Dimensions, that Antagonism of Things no less than their Limitations. I have said: Evil, be thou my Good; for it is the Magical Mirror of our Astarté, and the Caduceus of our Hermes. Now this was the Error of Elder Philosophers, that perceiving Changeful Duality as the Cause of Sorrow, they sought the Reconcilement in Unity and in Stability. But I shew thee the Universe as the Body of Our Lady Nuit, who is None and Two, with Hadit Her Lord as the Alternator of those Phases. This Universe is then a perpetual By-coming, the Vessel of every Permutation of infinity, wherein every Phenomenon is a Sacrament, Change being the act of Love, and Duality the Condition prodromal to that Act even as an Axe must be taken back from a Cedar that it may deliver its Stroke. The Error therefore of thee Philosophers lay in their false Assumption that Bliss, Knowledge and Being (the Qualities of their Changeless Unity) could be States. O my Son, how pitiful is their Beggary, these Paupers of Sense and of Experience and of Observation! The Emptiness of their Bellies was it that bred Phantoms of Ideal, so that they sought Joy by a crude Denial of what Truth (or rather, Fact) they had perceived concerning the Universe, so that they set up an Idol of Death for their God, in very Rage of Hatred against the Sum of their own Selves.
-- Liber Aleph vel CXI
Yeah, everything is a joke. But it's what we Do with the Joke!
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I have been lurking on this site for 2+ years now, almost completely as an observer, soaking up the knowledge, advice, etc from everyone who posts here. I posted early on and asked for some advice for a newbie, in which I received a ton of helpful answers. Since then, I have dabbled in (or you can say, "arm-chaired" in) different paradigms, including Ceremonial Magick and Chaos Magick, which at the very least gave me some practical experience with certain techniques, etc. In the end, however, I have been pulled back to Thelema, which is where my occult interests began (specifically, reading Diary of a Drug Fiend). Earlier this year, I realized that it's time to get serious about the Great Work; I purchased Jim's Book "The Mystical and Magical System of the A .'. A .'.", and have obtained (and am working through) almost all of the Student Reading Curriculum at the current time. It's been the best thing that I have done in regards to my spiritual growth, and I am beginning to "connect the dots" if you will, a lot clearer than I have in the past.
I am a bit older (33 to be precise), am married, tied down to a job, and have one 2 year old with TWINS on the way. I am a musician, and know that deep down, music in one form or another must be connected to my True Will. My current job is in the musical field, but what I do (clerical/ logistical BS) could very well be done just as well if I worked for an elevator installation company. While I understand that anything can be worked on to be changed, improved, or let go of completely (like a job, a smoking habit, etc) in order to work towards one True Will, there is also the reality that certain things, like it or not, are tied to you for good on this plane of existence. First and foremost, my wife and kids. If I find that it’s my True Will, let’s say, to do something musically related, yet pull me away from my family for a long period of time, that will greatly impact them, for better or worse. Perhaps positives would include financial gain/ stability, and the ability for me to fulfill MY True Will. However, would this be interfering on my wife and kids True Will, and possibly be detrimental to them? Meaning, my wife is left alone for possibly months at a time to raise our kids without a Father figure present?
What I am getting at is this: Is the finding of one’s True Will always possible (or more so, possible to completely fulfill), if you’re tied to people that will always be connected to/ influence you in some way or another? I have already committed to my wife and children, and they aren’t obviously some job or habit that I can work to change or omit completely. I am sure some of you on this forum are in the same boat, so any advice? Sure, family can be supportive, encouraging, etc, but in the end (and what scares me the most), if one finds that part of their True Will was never to have married that person, or have those children to begin with, than are they treated the same way as anything else detrimental to the Great Work (i.e., discarded, modified, etc)? I love them to death and could not even imagine uprooting myself if that happened to be part of my True Will. I just honestly see it as selfish. I also don’t see it working any other way though, as I don’t imagine one’s True Will is “flexible” by any means. Or is it?
This is an older post, but when I was dealing with the question of "What if my True Will meant I must leave my wife and daughter", which ultimately is just the typical fear/resistance that manifests when to trying to do anything at all, and which has to be mastered anyway, this bit from one of Crowley's diaries (Tunisia '23) helped me out, so I thought I'd share:
"There seems to be much misunderstanding about the True Will. In argument people are always making assumptions which imply as uncaused will. The fact of a person being a gentleman is as much an ineluctable factor as any possible spiritual experience: in fact, it is possible, even probable, that a man may be misled by the enthusiasm of an illumination, and if he should find apparent conflict between his spiritual duty and his duty to honour, it is almost sure evidence that a trap is being laid for him and he should unhesitatingly stick to the course which ordinary decency indicates. [...] and I wish to say definitely, once and for all, that people who do not understand and accept this position have utterly failed to grasp the fundamental principles of the Law of Thelema [...]"
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I have been lurking on this site for 2+ years now, almost completely as an observer, soaking up the knowledge, advice, etc from everyone who posts here. I posted early on and asked for some advice for a newbie, in which I received a ton of helpful answers. Since then, I have dabbled in (or you can say, "arm-chaired" in) different paradigms, including Ceremonial Magick and Chaos Magick, which at the very least gave me some practical experience with certain techniques, etc. In the end, however, I have been pulled back to Thelema, which is where my occult interests began (specifically, reading Diary of a Drug Fiend). Earlier this year, I realized that it's time to get serious about the Great Work; I purchased Jim's Book "The Mystical and Magical System of the A .'. A .'.", and have obtained (and am working through) almost all of the Student Reading Curriculum at the current time. It's been the best thing that I have done in regards to my spiritual growth, and I am beginning to "connect the dots" if you will, a lot clearer than I have in the past.
I am a bit older (33 to be precise), am married, tied down to a job, and have one 2 year old with TWINS on the way. I am a musician, and know that deep down, music in one form or another must be connected to my True Will. My current job is in the musical field, but what I do (clerical/ logistical BS) could very well be done just as well if I worked for an elevator installation company. While I understand that anything can be worked on to be changed, improved, or let go of completely (like a job, a smoking habit, etc) in order to work towards one True Will, there is also the reality that certain things, like it or not, are tied to you for good on this plane of existence. First and foremost, my wife and kids. If I find that it’s my True Will, let’s say, to do something musically related, yet pull me away from my family for a long period of time, that will greatly impact them, for better or worse. Perhaps positives would include financial gain/ stability, and the ability for me to fulfill MY True Will. However, would this be interfering on my wife and kids True Will, and possibly be detrimental to them? Meaning, my wife is left alone for possibly months at a time to raise our kids without a Father figure present?
What I am getting at is this: Is the finding of one’s True Will always possible (or more so, possible to completely fulfill), if you’re tied to people that will always be connected to/ influence you in some way or another? I have already committed to my wife and children, and they aren’t obviously some job or habit that I can work to change or omit completely. I am sure some of you on this forum are in the same boat, so any advice? Sure, family can be supportive, encouraging, etc, but in the end (and what scares me the most), if one finds that part of their True Will was never to have married that person, or have those children to begin with, than are they treated the same way as anything else detrimental to the Great Work (i.e., discarded, modified, etc)? I love them to death and could not even imagine uprooting myself if that happened to be part of my True Will. I just honestly see it as selfish. I also don’t see it working any other way though, as I don’t imagine one’s True Will is “flexible” by any means. Or is it?
Wow, what a great quote!
I haven't read that diary in 30+ years. Thanks for digging it out.