Questions on meditation

Frater 639

Uni_Verse

Working on the theoretical foundations of Magick can be a form of yoga...

Theories, built upon experience is what shall allow you to determine what is a break and what is an actual issue (at the very least, assist in doing so).
A feeling of discomfort from your ankle may be a break, it could also be a sign you are putting too much pressure, that there is an imbalance in your posture.
In the former case, it happens, you pay it not mind... life is peachy.
Were it the latter, without taking proper care you may do permanent damage.

Frater 639

@Uni_Verse said

"Working on the theoretical foundations of Magick can be a form of yoga...

Theories, built upon experience is what shall allow you to determine what is a break and what is an actual issue (at the very least, assist in doing so).
A feeling of discomfort from your ankle may be a break, it could also be a sign you are putting too much pressure, that there is an imbalance in your posture.
In the former case, it happens, you pay it not mind... life is peachy.
Were it the latter, without taking proper care you may do permanent damage."

When I read this, the comments fit quite nicely in regard to resolving dis-ease and imbalance in all aspects of life -- and learning how to will and following your Path.

Become one with what works, distance yourself from what doesn't.

IQOB BITH

Agreed, this ship of mine lost a ballast stone.

So, during my most recent meditation session at one point perhaps 10 maybe 15 minutes in I started feeling like my body was just going to stand up with out my telling it to. I will assuredly butcher this experience by trying to convey and understand it. (just so you know i am aware). However it seems to me that this could be another indication that I am not "balanced". It felt as if my body were a vessel that was being overfilled, with an exaggeration of the effect on the (inside of the) front of my body. As if the force were pulling me the way a horse is yoked to a wagon, in the sense that it pushes the wagon. "You" said note the observations, I would not think much of this if It had not been so dramatic. The feeling became quite exaggerated at one point, so much sot that I felt as if i would begin to perspire if I did not give in. I decided to stay the course and continue focusing on my breath and eventually the phenomena subsided. My question is was my body trying to say get the frak up? should I have assumed so and given in? or was I right in just sticking it out. My apologies if these questions are shallow, thanks every one so much for the replies. They have been a god send truly.

I am a cancer and I know that my (maternal)grand father had manic episodes and mother has dyslexia and has suffered for a long time with emotional problems. I bring that up because I feel that my subconscious emotional state is getting stirred up, and I know it has got to be causing some imbalance. I have had trauma throughout life but I have but have always been able to roll with it with an appropriate amount of pain. I think some of the things from my past (behaviors, habits, experiences etc.) are causing some kind of imbalance. But is this not part of the great work? To purify the different aspects of our consciousness? Thanks again every one.

WILL
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Uni_Verse

Is this a solitary occurrence?
If so, it may be nothing to worry about.

IQOB BITH

Yes, that is the only time I have experienced that specific phenomena. I was just worried that it could have been caused or at least spurred on by whatever is causing the "moods".

Or do you mean does this only happen when I am alone?

Avshalom Binyamin

Magick and mysticism excite and exaggerate our personality imbalances. Listen to yourself and take a break when something gets to be too much. If there's some serious healing you need to do, go do that, and come back to this later.

If you're still functioning, and are just having manageable mood/personality issues in response to your practice--then, have some good food, get some sunshine, get your feet in the dirt/grass/sand/water, watch out for over-indulgence in mind-altering substances for the time being, and warn your friends and lovers that you're going to be "cranky" and need their support.

And then, make sure not to resist any uncomfortable feelings/ideas that come up. Just give yourself some quiet time, and let yourself experience them fully. And persist. Is part of you curious about what happens next?

Uni_Verse

It could very well me a manifestation of your fear.
"Oh no, do not walk down this path.. you will end up just like them!"
Regardless, it is an issue you need to work through (or you would not have brought it up).
As you will find that either :
(a) that fear did cause the phenomenon, which will stop occurring once you work through the issue
(b) the fear has nothing to do with the phenomenon and there is another underlying issue
(c) it was a solitary occurrence of no real significance

Obviously, this is conjecture and you will not find an answer unless you continue your practices

Frater 639

I would just keep practicing. You may start to notice that your over-analysis might be bordering on obsession.

Asana does make you more aware of a lot of thngs...and when you start to put the bridle on your mind, it will fight back. The mind is a wonderful slave but a terrible master.

Note the observations -- they are "breaks" in your concentration. Again, these are concentration exercises.

IQOB BITH

Frater639

"over-analysis might be bordering on obsession"

I agree, I developed a tendency to over analyze pretty much every thing as a teen. I have always rationalized that over-analysis is better that over-simplification. However I would like to make the conjecture that the over-analysis would only be negative if it were not beneficial or was in any way harmful. So based on that I can say that my tendency to over-analyze things is acting as a sort of road block. Which could be taken as positive or negative(ambiguity ugh). Also, while obsession does not nescessarily make a good scientist, it seems that many who we know now were pretty obsessed with what they were doing. I need to learn to do more by doing less do it all by doing nothing...

I definately get the mind-bridle idea. That was one of the first things I noticed, that when i would try to control my mind that it would definately resist.

"Note the observations -- they are "breaks" in your concentration"

And ....I get it, to hold the mind on a singular focus is concentration. Thank you for not backing off, some times things need to be pounded in. I thought I should focus on say the breath or retaining the asana and note observations. So I was essentially looking for things to observe
Question, do you or would you recomend making a note of breaks as they happen? or should they be noted afterword?

@Uni_Verse said

"It could very well me a manifestation of your fear.
"Oh no, do not walk down this path.. you will end up just like them!"
Regardless, it is an issue you need to work through (or you would not have brought it up).
As you will find that either :
(a) that fear did cause the phenomenon, which will stop occurring once you work through the issue
(b) the fear has nothing to do with the phenomenon and there is another underlying issue
(c) it was a solitary occurrence of no real significance

Obviously, this is conjecture and you will not find an answer unless you continue your practices "

I am not quite sure where the fear you mention originated in my post. Unless you are saying that the disturbance was caused by an underlying fear of continuing to take control. I have had a theory for a while now that the thing that was keeping me from lucidly dreaming was a fear that I would not be able to control the things or situations I would create. So every time I would become lucid I would wake up. I am feeling like this may have something to do with accepting that the fact that those horrible things are coming out of my mind, and maybe I really cant control it.

and AB

"If you're still functioning"

HA yes my friend, thank you. I have a pretty normal life also somehow I feel like im the only one of my species somedays... But yes functioning I can happily claim to be. What has happened in the past when I indulge the episode I usually end up being happier than I was and also there is a strong recharge of appreciation for things like family. I usually come back to the Idea that im pretty damn happy were I am and i know all those paths I took that led me through rough times helped make me the person I am now who is a person that believes he can be better. Interesting how saying " I can be better" sounds conceited when actually im only admitting I am not perfect.

damn.... never realised how long winded I am. I am already learning to type faster ...

Frater 639

@IQOB BITH said

"Question, do you or would you recomend making a note of breaks as they happen? or should they be noted afterword?"

Immediately written down after the practice is concluded.

IQOB BITH

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