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"Soon..." That's the problem. You can't force these things. They come in their own ripe time. What you CAN do is to make yourself ripe. Though this might happen overnight, pace your expectations to anticipate that it will take many years.
Without any background on your life and conditions, it's hard to give targetted, precise recommendations. Phases such as you describe are often temporary (a few weeks, a few months), and are part of a normal developmental process.
At this point, it sounds like anxiety and depression are the biggest concerns. My recommendation here (absent extensive knowledge of you) is in the "easier said than done" category, but I want to put the attention exactly on the button. My advice is: Fix it. Fix the anxiety. Fix the depression. (Alternative: Let them run their course over a few weeks or months if you don't have an established pattern of this sort of thing.)
I don't know what you have to do to "fix them." Perhaps you need the stronger assistance of therapy, life intervention, etc. Perhaps you only need to give yourself a break. The main points on anxiety are to relax, breathe, slow down. The main points on the inertia are to JUST DO SOMETHING, PERSISTENTLY AND RECURRINGLY, no matter how small - and to find the anger or fear that are under it.
I think you want "find the angel to help me with my state of mind." You have those two steps in backwards order.
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I missed the jesting part. It didn't sound like you are having fun at all.
Oh, yeah, I forgot to mention: Have fun! (Whether you like it or not.
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@IADNAMAD said
"Greetings all,
I come to seek counsel on an affair of mine, and this is probably the only place where I feel I can acquire it. Any and all advice will be much appreciated.
For reasons unclear to me, perhaps through much repression in my environment, I have come to an intolerable state of inertia; the attainment of the knowledge of my true will seems utterly futile.
I feel my soul fall deeper and deeper by the day into the abyss, as though the grip of Choronzon himself is tightening ever around me. I fear I will be lost if I do not obtain the company of my Holy Guardian Angel soon...
Yours faithfully"Greetings to you Too!
I would like to add that you are still a teenager. Your body, all of them, emotional, physicial, intellectual, astral, and most importantly your biochemical bodies have not finished maturing, and they are like the new sports car that you havent quiet mastered driving stick yet.You went from being a simple child, to an all most adult...a human being who now is driven by impulses generated by those bodies I listed, and those bodies are not yet finely tuned.
This fact is often overlooked, espicially by the allmost mature...human seem to fight so hard to grow up so quick....and dont give there bodies a chance to rest and adjust to the new aspects of thier being.
Do what feels good, and if it doesnt feel good dont do it.
When I have felt lost, sad, desperate, confused and worst of all ALONE, it has been a saving grace for me to know that my HGA is always right there, even if my sences at the time cannot perceive them, and that my negative state of being is usually a result of imbalances with in me.
To fix my own imbalances I make sure I eat good food, whole and raw as much as possible, stay away from meat, lots of pure water, at least one hour of outdoor activity EVERY day, stay clean, clean your clothes and room, excersize rigorously for at least 15 minutes a day, spend time with other human beings if possible.
Do as much as you can to bring love into your life, the above ideas are all ways of showing self love, taking care of yourself....but acts of service to others, helping out, doing community service, appreciating others co tributions to culture ( watching uplifting movies, viewing works of art, listening to pieces of music). And society (spending time being grateful that there are agencies of people working to help others, like the human society, PETA, AARP, Big Brother Big Sister ect).
I have always almost exclusively worked with the archtype of the Great Mother, Astarte, Innana, Isis, Venus and Aphrodite and highly recommend a practice that involves dedication and practice To Her. I cannot think of anything more uplifting then working to align ourselves with that archtype.
i have also greatly benefited from studying my own natal chart and astrologicial tides. It has always been a great relief to me, to see some struggle I am enmeshed in played out in the stars, it reassures me that this too shall pass.
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@Veronica said
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@IADNAMAD said
"Greetings all,
I come to seek counsel on an affair of mine, and this is probably the only place where I feel I can acquire it. Any and all advice will be much appreciated.
For reasons unclear to me, perhaps through much repression in my environment, I have come to an intolerable state of inertia; the attainment of the knowledge of my true will seems utterly futile.
I feel my soul fall deeper and deeper by the day into the abyss, as though the grip of Choronzon himself is tightening ever around me. I fear I will be lost if I do not obtain the company of my Holy Guardian Angel soon...
Yours faithfully"Greetings to you Too!
I would like to add that you are still a teenager. Your body, all of them, emotional, physicial, intellectual, astral, and most importantly your biochemical bodies have not finished maturing, and they are like the new sports car that you havent quiet mastered driving stick yet.You went from being a simple child, to an all most adult...a human being who now is driven by impulses generated by those bodies I listed, and those bodies are not yet finely tuned.
This fact is often overlooked, espicially by the allmost mature...human seem to fight so hard to grow up so quick....and dont give there bodies a chance to rest and adjust to the new aspects of thier being.
Do what feels good, and if it doesnt feel good dont do it.
When I have felt lost, sad, desperate, confused and worst of all ALONE, it has been a saving grace for me to know that my HGA is always right there, even if my sences at the time cannot perceive them, and that my negative state of being is usually a result of imbalances with in me.
To fix my own imbalances I make sure I eat good food, whole and raw as much as possible, stay away from meat, lots of pure water, at least one hour of outdoor activity EVERY day, stay clean, clean your clothes and room, excersize rigorously for at least 15 minutes a day, spend time with other human beings if possible.
Do as much as you can to bring love into your life, the above ideas are all ways of showing self love, taking care of yourself....but acts of service to others, helping out, doing community service, appreciating others co tributions to culture ( watching uplifting movies, viewing works of art, listening to pieces of music). And society (spending time being grateful that there are agencies of people working to help others, like the human society, PETA, AARP, Big Brother Big Sister ect).
I have always almost exclusively worked with the archtype of the Great Mother, Astarte, Innana, Isis, Venus and Aphrodite and highly recommend a practice that involves dedication and practice To Her. I cannot think of anything more uplifting then working to align ourselves with that archtype.
i have also greatly benefited from studying my own natal chart and astrologicial tides. It has always been a great relief to me, to see some struggle I am enmeshed in played out in the stars, it reassures me that this too shall pass."
Thans
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Brother?
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If you all can forgive my horrendous spelling and grammer mistakes
I can overlook some one mistaking me for a gent.....Maybe I am so secret and mysterious with all that scorpioness that I am in disguise....
Maybe I will dress up as a man for Halloween trick or treats!! That could really pay of with loads of candy if I play it right.
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@IADNAMAD said
"For reasons unclear to me, perhaps through much repression in my environment, I have come to an intolerable state of inertia; the attainment of the knowledge of my true will seems utterly futile.
I feel my soul fall deeper and deeper by the day into the abyss, as though the grip of Choronzon himself is tightening ever around me. I fear I will be lost if I do not obtain the company of my Holy Guardian Angel soon...
"Thats only natural. It happened to me too.
As I look back now, it was a blessing really. It was painful but, as tantricks say, when you suffer (in any form or shape), your negative tendencies are burning out, making space for deeper reality to emerge eventually.My advice:
- Continue to do what you have been doing so far, regularly. It obviously works.
- Don't buy into any of this astral/mental crap. It is not you. It is just happening** to you**.
- Get laid, regularly.
good luck.
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@Frater INRI said
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@IADNAMAD said
"For reasons unclear to me, perhaps through much repression in my environment, I have come to an intolerable state of inertia; the attainment of the knowledge of my true will seems utterly futile.I feel my soul fall deeper and deeper by the day into the abyss, as though the grip of Choronzon himself is tightening ever around me. I fear I will be lost if I do not obtain the company of my Holy Guardian Angel soon...
"Thats only natural. It happened to me too.
As I look back now, it was a blessing really. It was painful but, as tantricks say, when you suffer (in any form or shape), your negative tendencies are burning out, making space for deeper reality to emerge eventually.My advice:
- Continue to do what you have been doing so far, regularly. It obviously works.
- Don't buy into any of this astral/mental crap. It is not you. It is just happening** to you**.
- Get laid, regularly.
good luck."
thans
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@Veronica said
"If you all can forgive my horrendous spelling and grammer mistakes
I can overlook some one mistaking me for a gent.....Maybe I am so secret and mysterious with all that scorpioness that I am in disguise....
Maybe I will dress up as a man for Halloween trick or treats!! That could really pay of with loads of candy if I play it right."
No, I just never looked at your name, that's all
Thanks 'sister'
thanks"