Your HGA's name
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@Jim Eshelman said
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Also, the subjective vs. objective argument falls apart if we agree to the limited idea that the HGA is not "ourselves" in any sense that we normally mean by "ourselves."...Characteristics under K&C: I go very far out of my way not to do this most of the time, because the nature of the experience is so personal. I'll point you in the right direction, though, by saying it's essential characteristic is intimacy of a type and scope never previously experienced.
...Don't interpret "knowledge" as having anything to do with facts, data, etc. It's an older use, and means sexual union - preserved in the modern "carnal knowledge," but also found in the older forms such as "Adam knew Eve.""
Hi Jim
I hate to keep asking questions on this point, but what you're describing above sounds like kundalini illumination. The characteristics of it are:
- it's intimate and highly sexual
- the sense of self and world is radically altered
- all of the above occurs in a type and scope never previously experienced before - it's a very real experience.
- often there is an awakening of siddhi powers, with physical symptoms that can last for years
But if kundalini and KCHGA are not the same, it would be helpful to have a few hints to distinguish the latter from the former...
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@he atlas itch said
"I hate to keep asking questions on this point, but what you're describing above sounds like kundalini illumination."
There may or may not be kundalini phenomena. Often there is, but also many have reported it isn't there.
"The characteristics of it are:
- it's intimate and highly sexual
- the sense of self and world is radically altered
- all of the above occurs in a type and scope never previously experienced before - it's a very real experience.
- often there is an awakening of siddhi powers, with physical symptoms that can last for years"
This could apply to quite a few mystical phenomena or magical growth steps. You have skipped, though, the most obvious characteristics: a slamming cold-hot shaft popping up the spine like a light-saber, with any number of other sensations, visuals, absorptions of the brain, secondary sensory - in addition to the subsequent radical alteration of self and others, possible subsequent awakenikng of siddhi, and all the rest.
BTW, I also didn't say K&C was "highly sexual." Could be, or could not be depending. But it is characterized by profound intimate connection.
"But if kundalini and KCHGA are not the same, it would be helpful to have a few hints to distinguish the latter from the former..."
For one, if a person is going through the normal A.'.A.'. system they would have had kundalini phenomena many grades (possibly many years) before the K&C. For another, K&C would not necessarily have the those exact symptoms at that time, and would have other, highly personal characteristics that I'm declining to discuss (partly because they are so diverse from person to person).
The first (substantially full) kundalini awakening in my own life preceeded the K&C by five grades and 10 or 11 years. Though the K event was more dramatically altering than anything I had ever experienced, and made permanent changes in my world view, relationships, and behavior, it was a relatively minor thing compared to the K&C. I suppose it's fair to compare entering kindergarten vs. entering college. (Or one's first back rub vs. a blow job while peaking on acid.)
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K&CHGA is a very specific experience while Kundalini is a broad [edit: ok, "broad" is probably not the right word] category of experiences.
Many people report multiple Kundalini experiences over the course of decades. I have had 2 more since my first, plus almost constant peripheral symptoms.
(And from your last post Jim, there's no way I'm ready for K&C
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Yeah... and that needs to go on my bucket list too...
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@AvshalomBinyamin said
"Many people report multiple Kundalini experiences over the course of decades. I have had 2 more since my first, plus almost constant peripheral symptoms."
Yes. I didn't mean to imply only one.
Once one "loses one's virginity" in an initial breakthrough, subsequent ones tend to be less dramatic. They also may happen fairly routinely. (During one stage in my work, somewhere in late 2=9, I couldn't sit still for long without kundalini starting to flow, smoothly and easily. It was so automatic that when I told Soror Meral I couldn't sit long without it happening, she wisely instructed me to bring it under control - i.e., to recover the ability to be able to not have it flow.) I'd have to go through my diaries to determine whether there ever again was a new kundalini threshold that struck me as hard as the first one, but, going just from memory, I think there wasn't, and it was simply a frequent recurrence of the original during periods of intensive work.
"(And from your last post Jim, there's no way I'm ready for K&C
)"That last image I painted kinda communicated?
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(I wasn't correcting you, just pointing out what seemed to me a source of confusion between the two ideas)
And yes, your post confirmed what my intuition seemed to tell me - yes, you've just been proper f*ed, but it's only the tip of the iceberg..
I'll have to try to get it under control, I know. It just seems to have a mind of its own (I didn't deliberately summon it, haven't been doing yoga or pranayama, I've only been dream journaling - although the frequent snake dreams should've given me a clue...), and, without having a teacher or an order, I'm just having to rely on intuition and tips I read.
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@Jim Eshelman said
"You have skipped, though, the most obvious characteristics: a slamming cold-hot shaft popping up the spine like a light-saber, with any number of other sensations, visuals, absorptions of the brain, secondary sensory - in addition to the subsequent radical alteration of self and others, possible subsequent awakenikng of siddhi, and all the rest.
BTW, I also didn't say K&C was "highly sexual." Could be, or could not be depending. But it is characterized by profound intimate connection."
My experience of kundalini occurred while sitting at a desk in the fall of 89. I had been feel strangely energized for several days, almost giddy, and I felt the urge to hold my hand tightly over my navel area and hold it there for 5 minutes. After a few minutes I felt energy starting to move up my spine and accumulating at the base of my skull, clearing my sinuses. The pressure built up immensely until suddenly my skull was penetrated by liquid light – the hot/cold sensation. When your chakras open up and become energized like that, it’s like suddenly “plugging in” to the universe and having access to immense resources of energies normally inaccessible to consciousness.
Now you mention one of the aspects of KCHGA is “intimate connection” and I would be interested to know what one becomes connected “to”. For myself, the kundalini illumination was identical to profound connection with the universe – I even felt a direct energetic connection from the opened crown of my head to the stars. I felt like I was in the center of the universal joke and life was incredibly funny, that I could do anything. I remember playing a game with puzzled friends, laughing, and telling them, “watch me roll a double six” and throwing the dice. Sure enough - double six. That just made it funnier. I did it three times in a row, laughing all the way. That’s one of many examples, but what I remember was how easily things “happened” for whatever I willed. It was like my will and the will of the universe were identical and everything had become super easy.
Looking back, I think the laughter lay in the realization of how we struggle through life, feeling alienated or lost in the universe, not feeling at home, striving for more spirituality or power, when the entire problem lies in the simple fact that the chakras are not turned on, that we are not even aware of the switch, of our own potential, or how things really should be. It’s like trying to make hummus without plugging the Cuisinart into the electric socket.
What I can say for certain is that I did not see a vision of some entity like Aiwass. I did have unbelievably lucid dreams during this period - more real than waking consciousness, hyper-real colors, intense emotional feelings during dreams - and heard a voice tell me something that has stuck in my head to this day and guides me in my understanding of my True Will.
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@he atlas itch said
"Now you mention one of the aspects of KCHGA is “intimate connection” and I would be interested to know what one becomes connected “to”."
The Holy Guardian Angel.
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I like House Guest Anonymous
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I guess this comment by Jim really gives a graphic sense of what is meant by KCHGA:
I suppose it's fair to compare entering kindergarten vs. entering college. (Or one's first back rub vs. a blow job while peaking on acid.)
One thing that puzzles me. My question is, given the various descriptions in this thread of the scope and magnitude of KCHGA, how would Crowley know anything about the HGA, and be able to write Liber Samekh, prior to attainment of KCHGA? How would he even know what he was looking for - i.e. the difference between kundalini illumination and KCHGA?
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@he atlas itch said
"One thing that puzzles me. My question is, given the various descriptions in this thread of the scope and magnitude of KCHGA, how would Crowley know anything about the HGA, and be able to write Liber Samekh, prior to attainment of KCHGA? How would he even know what he was looking for - i.e. the difference between kundalini illumination and KCHGA?"
He wrote Liber Samekh in the 1920s, decades after having the K&C.
In terms of "what one is looking for," that's both individual and the fruit of initiation. That is, everybody is going to have a different idea of what they're looking for, and that idea probably will help propel them toward it. That doesn't mean that when they reach their goal it will match what they thought they were looking for. (It's almost a guarantee that it won't - because, previously, they probably weren't capable of conceiving the actual result.)
Perhaps it will help if I quote from the end of the Adeptus Minor chapter of my book, The Mystical & Magical System of the A.'.A.'.:
"It is certainly possible that, by providing this range of commentary, we have done nothing more than confuse the sincere aspirant. Admittedly – given our view that the experience of what we call the Holy Guardian Angel is “utterly individual, utterly personal, particular, specific, and unique to each” – the only wholly consistent approach would be to say nothing about it at all. We have elected to balance this consideration against our responsibility to teach, by pointedly inviting every student to ignore any of the inter-pretations we have offered here unless they “strike home” as personally relevant.
Furthermore, this discussion is primarily aimed at those who are on the earlier stages of the Path. The Adeptus Minor surely already will have drawn (conscious or unconscious) conclusions about what it is that is sought, conclusions so inherent to her own nature that they may be entirely unconscious.
The real substance of this present chapter is that the Adeptus Minor has one task, the one task at which she has been aiming from her first entry onto the Path; and that now, prepared, she is pledged to undertake it.
Let, then, the Adeptus Minor undertake the Great Work and attain to the Knowledge and Conversation of her Holy Guardian Angel. "
And, from earlier in the same chapter:
"Whether the object of aspiration is personified as the True Self, the Augoeides, the Genius, Ishvara, the Logos, the Christos, Atman, Adonai, the Holy Guardian Angel, or any of 56 other possibilities; whether the goal is called adeptship, attainment, initiation, mastership, cosmic consciousness, samadhi, union with God, spiritual development, mahatmaship, moksha, liberation, or whatever; it is nonetheless true that, deep within each seeker is the Key to THAT which is sought, and which, though perhaps ultimately identical for each that has attained, is also utterly unique for each that aspires. Each name, each label, implies a rational or metaphysical theory that, being rational, cannot be true. By choosing the title of “the Knowledge and Conversation of the Holy Guardian Angel” which had been employed by Abra-Melin, Crowley admittedly elected a term that he felt had the least metaphysical baggage, and yet was so simple that even a child could relate to it."
As to how one knows what methods to select: The Angel guides one. Therefore, one simply has to start at the beginning and march, grade by grade, up the the gate. By the time one gets ready for that work, one either knows what to do, or is ready and qualified to decide it. (And it won't be the same for everybody.)