Overcame the emptiness/void in ritual!
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@Kaliman said
I did an evocation of Mercury and after a few minutes began to feel that horrible negative sensation, where the feeling of positive energy begins to lose meaning.
Evocation BTW tends to do that if there are significant unresolved negative psychological patterns (say, depression related, just for an example). There's a reason that evocation wasn't taught in the Golden Dawn until Second Order, and that the A.'.A.'. doesn't require it until 4=7 (as part of the task of the Path of A'ayin). - Evocation specifically requires you to dive into your own subconsciousness. Training systems I actively value and praise all require a significant permanent linkage to the light before diving into the infernal dark.
I emerged from the ritual with no unpleasant after effects!
This is quite a victory. It wasn't just a rite - it was a rite of passage! Congratulations.
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@Kaliman said
"I was unaware of that side affect of evocation. I had been under the mistaken impression that evocation was "safer" than invocation."
Things evoked are most often called demons. Things invoked are most often called gods.
More generally, the method of evocation takes you into your own subconsciousness. I've always appreciated those systems which feel you should heal and make whole your subconscious patterns before undertaking it; and that you should have a solid linkage to the light before journeying into the dark.
Even in, say, The Sacred Magic of Abramelin the Mage one establishes the full link to the H.G.A. before undertaking work of the spirits.
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@Alrah said
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" I know the reality is that maybe in a week or so, all this good stuff will go away.
"What makes that 'the reality'?
Edit: aruno.org//index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=109&Itemid=9"
39.All they understand not that thou and I are fashioning a boat of mother-of-pearl. We will sail down the river of Amrit even to the yew-groves of Yama, where we may rejoice exceedingly.
40.The joy of men shall be our silver gleam, their woe our blue gleam—all in the mother-of-pearl. -
I too have had very notable states of consciousness fade over time, watching myself go "back to baseline." I've watched my behavior change back from being excellent and pride-worthy into being very frustrating and full of issues.
The important part is, as you said, to learn something from this while it still persists, and to make a change in your life that you will actively and aggressively maintain. Consciously-intended change doesn't usually come with a bang and then stick around, it comes from persistent pressure applied after any "bang" that occurs.