Mojorisin44
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I am 30 years old and from California. I found this site by various searches on subjects following along the line of the Golden Dawn, A A, Thelema, and general mysticism. In my mid teens I was very "Christian", but began to expand my mind a bit after reading a condensed version of Helena Blavatsky's Isis Unveiled. This showed me for one that all religions were very similar and have almost identicle ideas between them at their core. I then started to understand that union with "God" did not have to be mediated by a Religion per se, but can be done within ones self (in retrospect - where else would you find "God"?).
Over the years I read Aleister Crowley's Confessions, the biography "Do What Thou Wilt", and Lon Milo Duqette's "The Magick of Thelema". I have to tell you I was scared off of it for a bit. The concepts of operations like those of Abramelin the Mage, sexual magick, and general coersion with "Demons" put me off a bit. I now take an understanding that regardless of what the operation is, the goal is to completley balance one's self in order to reach a "True" understanding of existence and ultimatley to gain Union with the Divine (incorrect as I may be this is currently what I think). We are all dark and light and all that is in the Macro is in the Micro - "As above so below" and so on. Thus, it would follow to command the Self it is necessary to completely integrate (and disintegrate, lol) all components of the Self in order to find balance and move on.
Recently, I've read Dion Fortune's "Mystical Qabalah", Israel Regardie's "Garden of Pomegranates" and "Middle Pillar". This has helped quite a bit to get a good basis on the Tree of Life and the Qabalah. From this I've gained a great respect of the idea that one must try and clear as many blocks in the mind as possible. That has opened my eyes a bit to why Yoga is such an important concept and why Concentration is key.
As of now I remain a Student in general and my ultimate goal is union with "God". Thelema and Magick intrigue me because from the minor things I've involved myself with I've had many Synchronicities that tell me I'm going in the right direction. Plus I love the axiom - "The Method of Science, the Aim of Religion". Once I feel that I've reached a point where I can - my intent is to excercise some of this Science. There is plenty of material - just got to learn, absorb and experiment.
Thanks for listening.
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welcome to the board! grins i hope to be on some posts with you
I had a very long post my darling son has deleted for me lol... I liked your introduction and i like the story of your spiritual journey too...(I'm not thelemic but i do so enjoy picking the minds of those who are lol)
"I now take an understanding that regardless of what the operation is, the goal is to completley balance one's self in order to reach a "True" understanding of existence and ultimatley to gain Union with the Divine (incorrect as I may be this is currently what I think). We are all dark and light and all that is in the Macro is in the Micro - "As above so below" and so on. Thus, it would follow to command the Self it is necessary to completely integrate (and disintegrate, lol) all components of the Self in order to find balance and move on.
"I would agree with this myself and in essense its pretty much what me and mine explore through sex magick and other means, and of course only one line of thought lol
see ya round the boards
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Cheers.
I'm not very familiar with sex magick, but I know it is a significant part of Thelema in general and the O.T.O. Tell you the truth the whole idea in general is one neurosis that I know will be very difficult for me to get past - however, I know it must be addressed. Thanks for replying and see you around...