Bornless Ritual - Results...!
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I've been doing the bornless ritual for some time now. Each time when I am done, I feel extremely energized and almost 'high' - for lack of a better word.
But the other day, something new happened.
While I was preforming the ritual, and chanting the barbarous words, I suddenly experienced a shift in consciousness.
It is really hard to explain, so hopefully someone can pace what I'm trying to say...So, suddenly I was no longer identified with "I" - I suppose? It was like I was suddenly in a third person perspective (consciously, not visually) - I was more like a silent-watcher & I was just observing my mind & body preform this ritual. I was just silently observing my "ego" preform the ritual in an attempt become one with the silent-watcher I had just identified with.
As my ego/"I" continued chanting, I would identify with this new state of being more and more strongly & experience a more vivid and noticeable separation between "being" and my "ego".
Then came "The Attainment" part of the ritual. The "I"/Ego then chanted the words of attainment as if it were speaking for the silent-watcher I had just identified with. As this happened It felt as if the two beings ('being' & 'ego'/I) merged consciousness and were one.
It was pretty amazing. I'm pretty sure its nothing like K&C of the HGA, but I definitely internalized a new state of being.
Even now, well after the day of that ritual - I can take a step back, so to speak and identify with this 'silent-watcher' and just observe my mind's activity. I can see self-destructive thought patterns that ordinarily would affect me. Just by noticing them, they immediately dissolve. Its not nearly as potent as it was during the ritual, but I'm sure with practice It can be right?
So, was what happend to me the actual objective of the Bornless ritual? From now on, is the objective while doing the ritual to deepen my understanding of this new state of being?
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As I was told by my superior:
Keep doing the ritual, and try not to get to worked up by the results...
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I think it is better not to talk too much about "results," or a better word in this case may be "phenomena," in great detail. It can cause false expectations in those that have not gotten so far along. Remember the power of silence.
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"":1c29nl9p]I've been doing the bornless ritual for some time now. Each time when I am done, I feel extremely energized and almost 'high' - for lack of a better word.
But the other day, something new happened.
While I was preforming the ritual, and chanting the barbarous words, I suddenly experienced a shift in consciousness.
It is really hard to explain, so hopefully someone can pace what I'm trying to say...So, suddenly I was no longer identified with "I" - I suppose? It was like I was suddenly in a third person perspective (consciously, not visually) - I was more like a silent-watcher & I was just observing my mind & body preform this ritual. I was just silently observing my "ego" preform the ritual in an attempt become one with the silent-watcher I had just identified with.
As my ego/"I" continued chanting, I would identify with this new state of being more and more strongly & experience a more vivid and noticeable separation between "being" and my "ego".
Then came "The Attainment" part of the ritual. The "I"/Ego then chanted the words of attainment as if it were speaking for the silent-watcher I had just identified with. As this happened It felt as if the two beings ('being' & 'ego'/I) merged consciousness and were one.
It was pretty amazing. I'm pretty sure its nothing like K&C of the HGA, but I definitely internalized a new state of being.
Even now, well after the day of that ritual - I can take a step back, so to speak and identify with this 'silent-watcher' and just observe my mind's activity. I can see self-destructive thought patterns that ordinarily would affect me. Just by noticing them, they immediately dissolve. Its not nearly as potent as it was during the ritual, but I'm sure with practice It can be right?
So, was what happend to me the actual objective of the Bornless ritual? From now on, is the objective while doing the ritual to deepen my understanding of this new state of being?"
So [V], it's been a while since you posted this intriguing account.....I see lots of activity from you here and at another message board and then you seem to have dropped off the face of the earth! You still around or did your HGA eat you alive?
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good book that details the dark night of the soul is The Spiritual Guide.
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I don't mean to post twice in s row I accidentally hit the submit button before completing my thought:
In my personal practice I find that I experience a severe "depression" or something like the dark night of the soul shortly after having a "break through" experience. The last time it happened I suffered for over a year forcing myself to continue in practice and in life for that matter. It passes. The soul needs the chance to ferment so that the elixir can be created.
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"":nif89wcb]haha, I'm still around.
Well to follow up, no there has been no paranormal activity since the experience.
Although, now I am experiencing what is described as the "Dark night of the soul"
Im trying to barrel through it."
Glad to see you are still around.
I was going through your posts here and at evocationmagic and saw you drop off from the face of the internet message board "earth" after placing that great post about the bornless ritual.So the 93 million dollar question,
was it a 'flirtation' or was your experience THE K&C??????????you have fans out on the internet who want to know!
I've experienced dark nights of the soul after 'flirtations' with my Higher Self. Coming down from a higher sense of perspective and awareness into a mundane one can be devastating if you have not laid down the foundations for such an experience to occur in the first place. I lost a decade of my life in such "dark nights" .
I'm not one to dish out advice (especially if you did indeed have the K&C) but to me it seems that the best way to overcome the DNOTS is to just leave the past in the past and just work toward a new horizon. For me, dwelling in desiring experiences of HGA past barred me from progressing in the present. Six of Cups comes to mind....