Julie
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I searched the world over for people who can articulate what I see intuitively. I see mysteries unveiled. I wish that I did not but I do. Some say patterns in chaos. Some say intutive symbology. I never knew what to call it until I started searching for answers from everyone. And I mean everyone. Universities, scholars, symbologists, kabbalists, archaeologists, psychiatrists, psychologists, rabbis of all strains, authors, theologians. No answers.
I see those here In scholarship and not strip mall kabbalah, and yes, I met them too. As I always say, there is no church who will have me as a member because of my rather unique burden of demanding truth from everything I see or hear.
How delightful to find that there is, in fact, keepers of the flame, in Thelema. They say one knows when one pulls a Tarot deck that this deck speaks to your soul. I only just learned this recently, Tarot, as I have been reading and drawing the Tarot for a long long time without knowing what it was, or that there were cards involved. Just as I have been drawing the Sephirot for years before I ever knew what it was called.
How did I get here? Three years ago, I awoke one night and drew a tree with nine branches and a crown at its head and the star of david at its root. I drew it over and over and over and did not know what it was. It took me a year to discover it.
Three years ago I was assaulted by unknown assailant and he branded my leg with a mark, later I discovered it to be the Hebrew letter Lamed tied to what I know now is a sigil of some sort. The scar is still there as it was done by signet ring. He also carved a letter in my thigh, a Het. I didn't know what these were at the time but months of study told me they were Hebrew. What I didn't know was that I was genetically Jewish. That took a DNA test which I wouldn't have ordered had it not been for the other things.
At that time I would never have suspected majick of any sort but I know better now.
This site has concluded this path for me. All of my search is over for the whys and the whats of these most unusual events, which shattered me. All the pieces are finally put together and I am again whole and now, thanks to you, I know it.
You people are the final card in my personal deck.
This temple of Mystery speaks to my soul. I know myself when I see it. Thank You all for being here.
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Howdy
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Alrah
I have always thought it serious news but the police have never taken it seriously nor has the individual ever been found. In the beginning, I believed these symbols to be random gang symbols and was thoroughly uneducated as to the hebrew alphabet or any deeper meaning. The internet is a wide open library without guidance.I myself am a former intelligence officer and took it upon myself to research their origin. At the very least I determined that there was a coherent symbol set and that all the marks and cuts were quite sophisticated and this meant a highly intelligent person. It has taken me 3 years to catch up in research.
I have learned in these three years about real kabbalist magicians using names to control people they belong to, the correlation between aramaic and hebrew and the special meanings of dates and times, none of which meant much to me prior to this.
Perhaps you or someone might help me. The three letters still branded onto my leg appear to be the Hebrew letters (right to left from my viewpoint) Lamed, samech and Aleph although the Aleph is turned slightly counterclockwise, which fooled me for years into believing it was an English "Z"
The mark on my upper right arm was more of a crescent trianclge, leaving a C shaped scar.
The assault took place and I now feel there is some significance to this, on a Friday night at about 11:15 pm.
This has remained a mystery to me. I was able to locate all of the drawings - especially the tree. This was of some comfort but its been hard going to find anyone who studies Kabbalah as it was meant to be studied.
Julie
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@Julie said
"Perhaps you or someone might help me."
While Jim is the man you want for things of that nature(Qabalah, as it was intended), I still want to extend my best wishes to you and your treading of the path.
There are some people that just get reeled into this twisting world of magick and signs, whether they like it or not.
As one of those (un)fortunate souls, I bid you welcome to this wonderful camp and hope it brings you the light you seek. -
Thank you so much Peter - I just realized that perhaps I should write Jim an email because the body of scholarship that seems to float into my life's circumstances of late is above my paygrade, so to speak - I was, most unfortunately, raised Presbyterian and know very little of these matters. But I will walk all paths before me until blocked and then take whichever opens up.