Making Time for Magic
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Making Time for Magic
Making the Most of the 24 Hours in Your Dayaganwiccan.about.com/od/wiccaandpaganismbasics/a/MakingTime.htm?nl=1
Comments? How do you make time?
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I find that the way fate and the gods have wrought me into existence, in the current time and my current way of thinking, my Magick ritual and study IS the most important thing in my life, everything else is secondary.. including making money.
Now I've been brought through times where I was homeless, making no money, surviving off of very l ittle, and brought through times where I had all the food, drugs, women I could want. But with the latter I was increasingly bored with life.
When I found Crowley's work and cleaned up to confirm with the flow of the Universe and with the new Aeon, everything seemed to really depend on me keeping spiritually as well as physically strong. The spiritual part came with ritual and positive thinking/trusting in the process of Creation. The physical part was manifested when I started eating only natural food, then no meat, egg, milk, or animal products. I am 6'3" and weigh almost 180 pounds. I can chop a cord of wood in less than 4 hours and I do not rely on meat proteins/enzymes or animal calcium from milk.
With the divine patterns of creation always bombarding the rest of my life, if I put anything else more important than the Way, my life would crumble and cease to seem like it is balanced perfectly on the finger of my HGA.
Just my 93 cents.
Take it easy,
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I have not read the article but I thought to express how well my sentiments match those of ThelemicMage.
While living the life of Sex, Drugs & Rock & Roll seems appealing, I get bored. When I get bored, I become destructive. Knocking down Towers just to give my self something to Build.
It is a life that FEELS GOOD. What Ecstasy! How amazing it feels! To shoot up a few bags of heroin and then perform hours of ritual. All your fears and anxieties buried beneath self-induced euphoria. You have faith that everything is great. A shallow grave.
I much prefer a few minutes of quiet contemplation under no influence but my own. Not because it FEELS GOOD, it also FEELS RIGHT. A surrendering of everything, holding nothing back. Certainty.
OK, still having difficulty concentrating. Going back into Silence again.
AUM! HA!
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Our dear Crowley said that Opium makes men Holy, but in a negative way. I think he was trying to hint at the fact that the Big Lion, (Basil King Lamus if you look through Crowley's work, or _____ Christos,) intentionally puts us through those challenges, heroin and opiates and cocaine especially, to open our minds and awaken our spirits.
It is a proven fact, (just ask our government agencies and military and any learned scientist,) that pain opens up deep memories and makes one relive or deeply open them up, including our buried, self-blocked spirit, light-self that is always waiting for us to contact it.
Many nights while in the deepest of pain, I remember asking our Yeshua and our RHKhuit for help. In my mind, they would start to touch me, which would cause very intense pain like fire. However, after they had been touching me for awhile, the pain would turn to the pure feeling behind that Divine fire, and heal me while opening up my deeper self.
Now whether you believe in RHK or any of the Gods or Archangels is completely your business, but it seems like the archetypes of the gods themselves help the heroin addict open up her/his higher self.
I find the same fire touch me when performing certain Magick, specifically Liber Resh vel Helios. "The Light is mine, It's rays consume Me."
It is almost like a psychedelic experience going through these specific trials, but it's intensely pleasureful, and intensely painful, as opposed to the standard psychedelic "what's pleasure and pain?" feeling, where the pleasure comes from waking up.
Like Crowley did at times after he began to master the White Horse, I will sometimes use and get a little bit of that divine fire starting to devour me, (using poppy tea for a few days in a row instead of once or a few times a month,) and go completely without it and let the light and fire devour me in ritual. I do not recommend anyone attempt to get reliant on anything at all, including food as far as you can go with it, but Crowley was a man who stepped outside the circle, and thunk outside the box.
I try lighter versions of the things he did.The Big Lion, (One of Crowley's spiritual guides from what I can surmise,) attempts to explain that he wants us to take these trials to the limit, but to be extremely careful and mindful all the while, and extremely critical of ourselves, holding back nothing from our conscious mind.
I'm going to upload Diary of a Drug Fiend to my comcast account so you all can download it if you want. It's the entire book, not the excerpts, and it's in plain text format. The OCR program that processed the scan messed up a few letters, but it's few and far between.
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