Life has become a living hell since x-mas eve
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I posted this in Magick because in general, I only use Magick if I really "Need" something and
not for self serving purposes unless it's a life emergency or any kind of detrimental scenario.
I bring this up because on X-Mas eve my wife totaled her car and has caused so many problems I don't
even think I can list them on here. I don't like to blame, because it could have been just as easily been me as I
know she in general is a good driver. But it's the timing, because that evening my Mom was sent to the hospital
and has been in ICU for three days because her lungs were filled with so much fluid she was drowning essentially. On top of that my wife's family is being strangely evil to her lately despite that we rarely talk to them (not because of an attitude problem) to be honest for no reason at all that I can see. Anyways,
not to rant but the issues that have popped up all culminating on x-mas are so numerous that I feel as though I am under spiritual attack. Which is why I would like to ask the members on this forum, if they would like to help me or assist me with magick. I am drained and cannot even find the enthusiasm to perform at this point.I hope this didn't bum anyone out,
Happy Holidays
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I think it's something in the air. My own internal "feelers" and trustworthy spiritual friends have been warning about intense psychic currents in December, and for me it has been much the same this whole month - screws tightening, ordeal after ordeal, etc. All my non-spiritual contacts have been experiencing it as well - tons of shit being thrown into people's faces, general malaise - a wringing out of the spiritual washcloth so to speak.
January is supposed to bring with it a vast "wave" of some sort - a wave of newness and creation and service.
Sincere condolences during this compressing, contracting time. I don't think its a spiritual attack so much as something petrifying and purifying in the air - something stripping away, leading us to the next level.
The best thing I think is to stay absolutely focused on your own health, maintaining your own internal currents. You're being tested now - the training wheels are off and it's time to see how you do disconnected from comfort and safety. Ride it out, it's almost over. We're all here for you and rest assured that many are expericing the same types of things.
Most heartfelt wishes to you, your wife, and your Mom.
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Maybe an answer could be discovered in relation with your peacock interest mentioned.
The correspondences have in common practical mastery of magick, the powerful medicine.
Maybe see how these ordeals time in your personal path and adjust as good as possible what could be adjustable.