College of Thelema: Thelemic Education

I don' think it's wise to joke about these situations.

And no I didn't consciously activate it.
I was just lying in my bed one day breathing and then all of a sudden BAM

let the games begin

I can't do it...
It's too difficult

I'm completely infected with spasms and twitches that are just getting worse.
My heart is getting twitched now as well.

Game over.

pain...

No...
I had a full checkup.

These last few months I have been bubbling, twitching and randomly making noises with my mouth.
Sometimes when I go for walks my legs will sporadically twitch and I can't seem to stop them.
The twitching even happens on my face.
My environment also raps and clicks too.

And what happens if you keep falling down and give up?

"It is circuitous - that is, it seems to wind you on and off the path at different times, and seems to go in circles to lead you, eventually, forward. It is "plain and easy" because the only technical method is to live life, actually interact with life, and be patient. The "Mgnet" is your own center - the solar secret center of your Holy Guardian Angel which draws you inexoribly and, as you progress, you are progressively drawn more in a straight line and less "right or left" from your own true way."

So if someone was to completely be themselves...they would eventually reach the truth?

Well I suppose it is too late for me now as I have had number one thrown upon me.
It is so difficult.

I am very sorry, I don't mean to be stupid.
Can you tell me what number two means then?

If you can't it is ok.

I'm sorry about this.
I suppose I should do it myself.

Ok, I'm sorry about the previous posts.
I have figured out what the these methods mean:

"By us the Bridegroom offers you a choice between four ways, all of which, if you do not sink down in the way, can bring you to his royal court. The first is short but dangerous, and one which will lead you into rocky places, through which it will scarcely be possible to pass. The second is longer, and takes you circuitously; it is plain and easy, if by the help of the Magnet you turn neither to left nor right. The third is that truly royal way which through various pleasures and pageants of our King, affords you a joyful journey; but this so far has scarcely been allotted to one in a thousand. By the fourth no man shall reach the place, because it is a consuming way, practicable only for incorruptible bodies. Choose now which one you will of the three, and persevere constantly therein, for know whichever you will enter, that is the one destined for you by immutable Fate, nor can you go back in it save at great peril to life."

I want to perform the second one as I am having a hard time with the first.

My humble request is this...

To perform it you need at least one other person.

I need someone else who is knowledgeable of the alchemical wedding to help me with this...because getting someone profane to help would be revealing the secrets. I don't have any friends anyway.

Now I would prefer if it could be done for free by the good will of the individual, but I will pay them if I have to.

I live in Ireland so it is very difficult to find someone.

Do you know any initiates in Ireland, or anyone generally willing to help?

Anyone?

please....

I would also like to know if there are any other methods of doing this?
If there is please pm me...but I am more interested in finding a person to help.

First of all I'd just like to say that I am not a Thelemite and know next to nothing of magick...
I just choose to post here because the answers are generally of a higher standard than most forums.

The question is this:

Why do I constantly see octopii when I close my eyes for a long time?
Is this a sign of being in the abyss?

Thank you everyone for you help.

Also, I get a lot of flashing lights...

When someone evokes kundalini naively...

and buys into all the syncronicites, delusions, temporary psychosis, angry and egotistical psychosis etc for a very long time

and then as a result gets twitches, bubbling all over the body and some pains...

I fell for all these deceptions...all of the temptations...

What is to become of me?

All feedback is appreciated.
Blessings...

...if one fails?

Reincarnation, oblivion or damnation?