College of Thelema: Thelemic Education

After i sow huge blue star and seven pointed silver star shining and rotating from women's eye i found, that the seal of astrum argentum is seven pointed star. Around it we have word Babalon.
Any comments?
I'd say its provement of suitability for astrum argentum and women i sow was Babalon manifestation as she helps to jump over the abyss. Crowley believed that many his lovers were scarlet women.

There are notes of Baphomet in liber CCCLXX

I am keeping doing basic rituals and that leads nowhere anymore. Howewer i had contacts with demons(probably ones from goetia), Sow etheric, astral and mental plane during night. But thats all i got. This qestion causes headache for a long time.

''The Great work, for probationer is to obtain scientific knowledge of the nature and powers of my own being.''

Is initiation necessary to attain spiritual goals noted in the Mystical and Magickal System of A.A?
In my country here is no magical order so this is very important for me.

It was only a perception anyway.

That was mine perception. I think it was more complex process whose results cannot be achieved by simple manipulative human games.

Maybe its not ''Thelema-mania'', but Thelema + Mania
BTW great joke

First i meditate on agares by visualizing his symbol, but the picture countenanced few times and my mind rushed on various subjects in no time... After i read Eliphas Levi book(do not remember which one now) where was written, that to bind a demon you must know his dominant mind, i meditate second time on agares and i can say it was successful. Every demon of Goetia shows how and where his way ended and gives lesson of life. Also you can get idea of his nature, feelings and intelligence.

Is it possible to change or influence future by using tarot? One moment i thought i really done it...

In such times its hard to rape yourself to do rituals when you feel so bad, that you even cant hold you hand before eyes and vibrate and that makes you feel even worse.

Yeah, i really want this book to look into Some of Crowley's and other occult texts look too archaic especially when theory comes

I read that some texts as ''house of treasure'' are used to create rituals. Now i mean not modified ones, but newly created ones. Also i read that mages get information from above on how to create them personal secret and powerful rituals they do not share with other.

Actually i see no problem here, try to energize your body somehow. Go for a walk, talk with people who inspire you, vary rituals you do, just change something if you have enought motivation.

@Middleman said

"Doesn't purity in this case mean 'singularity of intent'? Good thread."

Another variant may be perfect balance.

How do you imagine your perfection if you disprove everything?

Thelema as every ideological religion becomes fanatical for those who do not understand it. I do not say i understand thelema or other religions i just want to say how to understand any ideas created by humans at any times. By understanding tree of life we can consist every concenption into it. Curently i try to consist everything i hear from television, people and everything i analyse from their behavour, also what i read from crowley works and christian literature. You can be amazed how many insight i get from last mentioned