College of Thelema: Thelemic Education

A rambling Poem:

The ordeals and my very own personal mortality guard.

So as time would have it things have improved remarkably insofar as these perceived ordeals are concerned. The boogey man has proved to be nothing more than a protective lap dog with large teeth and a network of little doggie friends that extend into the nether reaches of creation - this was the point. It was an unwillingness to confront the awesome potential that seats itself in the Northwest cerebellum. I ran ... with an army of bewildered animal companions in hot pursuit shitting and crapping and chewing everything they came across. As i looked at their destructive capabilities i ran into a solid steel lightpost which rose so high in the sky it seemed to support the Universe. It left a rather nasty scar on my left forehead. But it got me thinking that i should always look where the hell i'm going.

It's all downhill from here as i realize that iam appointed to round up all these little confused shit disturbers and show them the proper place to defecate and how to share the little dogggie treats rather than hoard them. It's no easy task and i'm still a little uncertain how this is gonna pan out but i have an enormous light post to make sure my message is seen as well as a network of sleeping shit kickers to randomly shit, chew and cause general mayhem as a treat for the non-compliant...

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Reflecting, the Temple of Thelema has been very helpful in allowing me to go orbital with my thinking... I've another forum which is a little less rigid in terms of doctrinal certainty. I really don't care for partisan or protocol laden religiosity no matter who delivered it. I'm concerned with kindness and compassion not robotic, emotionless spiritual incantations... But whatever works for you. Mr. Fezz a very special thank you for you kindness and Fr. Aster Lux, keep shining... I will check in every now and again to see how things are brewing.

And so begins the next ordeal, i wish you all LOVE in life.

Everyone loves a productive shortcut. The circular perambulation is spiral-the progress may not be lateral. I wasn't aiming any criticism at you or anyone. Just the rather askew text... Although when you have all the answers i suppose such opinions come easily. One day

It's wonderfully one dimensional and rather amusing...a picturesque omen of possibility if you live in a cave or have a penchant to take things wwwaaaaayyyyy to seriously...

Hmm,

Interesting experience. I could share a few experiences with drugs and alcohol that didn't end nearly as pretty as yours-so i wont. I think the daily meditation, something i hardly, if ever, do kept you from flying to low with the alcohol use.

Regarding Chemognosis,

Prior to my last, most recent yearlong episode, I was drug and alcohol free for a couple of years and towards the end found myself voraciously scowering the Liber AL and Liber Aleph in a seedy motel room in Carlsbad, New Mexico. Some one was cultivating the Arabian Grass nearby so i sat under a bridge with a couple of travelers and partook. Less than an hour later I wrote a small tractate entitled, "The Son of Man in the Mirror" In which i distinctly recall hearing Crowley speak.

Later i realized i was being initiated into some mysterious darker aspect of my flowery, everything's peachy, spiritual understanding. Where terms like ABRAHADABRA and phrases like 'the water which conformeth perfectly' took on menacing, new, proportions. My life hasn't been the same since and that was two years ago...

In closing anchors are a good thing...

Is it plausible that there may be in fact 5 planes of existence? A plane more dense than the one in which we exist? aethyr 23 section 22...

edit: aethyr 22 ismighty fine...

The 'whiney' reference was Liber Aleph. Forgive my lack of precision in explanation. Section 22 is what you're looking for, keeping in mind the keyword iteration.

This visceral disquisition has come to an end.

@Jim Eshelman said

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@Stag-Nation said
"I haven't read very much of Crowley but the little i have seems to point to a certain passivity regarding aspects of his work which would qualify as a VIOLATION by inaction or predestination; necessity. The 23rd Aethyr makes this presumption crystal - at least in my own peculiar circumstance."

I'm curious what you mean by that. Despite my having recently written 3,400 words on the 23rd Aethyr, your point isn't self-evident to me and, perhaps, therefore is not so clear to others either."

I'm referencing an iteration of the magical child and the unavoidable coarsity endemic to its development. To be culpable insofar as knowledge of an intended corruption but being unwilling or incapable to voice protest [necessity?] which sounds as quiet lament; even pity. Of course the aethyrs are highly subjective and selective with regard to whom or what the full depth of their implication is revealed.

@23rd Aethyr said

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@Jim Eshelman said
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@Stag-Nation said
"Rarely, in fact twice only, have i experienced lament from Therion and this aethyr was one and his rather 'whiney' run in with inertia, the other *."

Again, I probably need your help to sort this out for me. I find mostly the opposite weakness. The first eight paragraphs (nearly all of the Bull section) are proud and self-exalting. (I think falsely so, but it's the p.o.v. of the Osirian idea of masculinity.) Paragraph 9 does allude directly to lament - of Crowley? - specifically regarding change. (It's rather Buddhist, in fact.) Here is that paragraph:"

For the whirlings of the universe are but the course of the blood in my heart. And the unspeakable variety thereof is but my divers hairs, and plumes, and gems in my tall crown. The change which ye lament is the life of my rejoicing, and the sorrow that blackeneth your hearts is the myriad deaths by which I am renewed. And the instability which maketh ye to fear, is the little waverings of balance by which I am assured."

@Jim Eshelman said

"The "whirlings of the universe" are the "Primal Whirlings," or Primum Mobile, which are Kether in Assiah (Rashith ha-Galgalim). The remainder of the paragraph, regarding "change" and "sorrow," refers to the Buddhist doctrines of anikka and dukkha, corresponding to Chokmah and Binah, respectively.

Is this the passage you meant? Or another?

The remaining half of the vision switches to the Eagle, and is quite glorious and rapturous."

I make mention of only two instances in which i experienced the 'humanity', [frailty] if you will, of Crowely. Overall he was certainly a model of attainment. The Liber Aleph citing was in reference to the shame he experienced as a consequence of his willful ignoble pursuits.

"Crowley- Violator of others' Wills?"

I haven't read very much of Crowley but the little i have seems to point to a certain passivity regarding aspects of his work which would qualify as a VIOLATION by inaction or predestination; necessity. The 23rd Aethyr makes this presumption crystal - at least in my own peculiar circumstance.

Rarely, in fact twice only, have i experienced lament from Therion and this aethyr was one and his rather 'whiney' run in with inertia, the other *.

I would say that even the Beast, himself, was a victim of incapacity and sublimated the realization beneath the shiny veneer of destiny.

Clearly, this beast of a man has somehow missed the part about rapture of the Heavens

The Romantic Mr. Fezz,

Combat is just another form of intimation.

“Your heart is my piñata.” -Chuck Palahniuk

wink

Dear Mr. Fezz,

The idea of AWASE or rather the intent of the practice is to develop a ''heightened' sensitivity; a psychic awareness if you will of Ki [spirit] and then Ai merge with it. The methodology of AWASE is used under the pretext of reaching this ultimate attainment, i presume. The attainment of AWASE enables one, with great finesse, to direct the course and force of Ki thereby etherically influencing another.

Are you suggesting that K&C confers no special abilities? Or maybe that my higher self is the Black Spidey suit? (that seems comical in retrospect, Heaven forbid). Whatever the case it seems further clarification of my view is in order.

I view K&C as 'waking up.' A sort of cosmic AWASE whereby one's consciousness becomes unified with the Universe. I understand this awaking to confer certain privileges which Perderabo explains as, "Working with Mood" and "Influencing Environment.'

AWASE often used interchangeably with AIKI has been called the most profound and mysterious secret in the world. Conferring virtual omnipotence to advanced practitioners?!

AIWASS according to this view could be something of Spirit or a Spirit which could be merged with. Judging by some of the descriptions in this thread could be a veritable Black Spidey suit of sorts? Something of an omnipotent entity which one could engage with AWASE and influence to create tremendous change?

I acknowledge that i do have a tendencey to file all this esoteric; mystical science under a common heading as the results these various schools; traditions seek are the same. I believe the Great Beast empathizes as he was apt to factor all interior and exterior phenomena into simple mathematical principles. My view could certainly compliment his idealzations.

Cheers

"DE ARTE MENTIS COLENDI

For this Mathematics is as it were the last Veil before the
Image of Truth [...] whereby the Many become One."

@Redd Fezz said

" As you said you are non-Thelemic, I just wanted to give an answer to your question and also share a point of interest which I think is related to the HGA as best as I could if by "spiritually blending with another" you meant Knowledge & Conversation with your Holy Guardian Angel. "

Interesting. I hadn't thought of it that way. Of course, AWASE ** would be a by product of one's K&C. I see my error in explanation. I was attributing a phenomena or possible effect of K&C as an representation of Aiwass (which i also happen to view as an aspect NUIT). In the Eastern sense, a more in depth understanding of AWASE -the technique- would naturally give rise to more questions related to the phenomena and operation of 'blending' which at the highest levels would be to receive mental impressions related to another's intentions. Thanks for the clarification.

@Redd Fezz said

"I was trying to point out that the similar-sounding names is coincidental (I would say) and the rest of my post was related to your Art of Peace link as well as your description of what AWASE is. In there also is a point about connecting with supermundane beings... everything is "emptiness" and this is the "one source" per your link and my link. The HGA is often called your Higher Self or words to that effect. The idea of "spiritually blending with another" could be about as easy as recognizing the emptiness. Doing so is when visions generally occur. I think the Abramelin Operation is about emptying yourself to be filled, pretty much, or you could say you fill yourself with passion, "enflame thyself in prayer." Similar techniques are used in eastern traditions. The major difference I see is the amount of concepts attached to the resulting experience."

Much clearer, thank you.

@Redd Fezz said

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@Stag-Nation said
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"Visualizing Aiwass"

I'm not sure if the two concepts are definitively related but semi-recently i was reading the[omlc.ogi.edu/aikido/talk/osensei/artofpeace/:jtp3hj04]](http://omlc.ogi.edu/aikido/talk/osensei/artofpeace/:jtp3hj04) by Morihei Ueshiba.

One of the idea's presented in this text [although not literally] is Awase. The simple meaning of this term is 'blending' or to spiritually; consciously unify with another so as to become inherently aware of their intention(s).
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Happy to see you are reading the Art of Peace (#s 4 and 5 say it all, really). Aiwass was the name of Crowley's "HGA" and he spelled it with a z for a while (Aiwaz or something). Anyway, if you like Art of Peace, you might like this: www.diamondway.org/texas/mahamudratext.html

Here is a small sample of the small text:

"If again and again we examine the mind, which cannot be examined,
We see that which cannot be seen, with total clarity, just as it is.
May the faultless mind, freed from all doubts about being and not being, recognize itself.

Through the examination of external objects we see the mind, not the objects.
Through the examination of the mind we see its empty essence, but not the mind.
Through the examination of both, attachment to duality disappears by itself.
May the clear light, the true essence of mind, be recognized.

Being without intellectual concepts, it is called the Great Sign, or Mahamudra.
Being without extremes, it is called the Great Middle Way, or Madhyamika.
As it embraces everything, it is called the Great Perfection, or Maha-Ati.
May we have the confidence that the experience of one is the experience of the meaning of all."

But, if we don't stay on topic, I don't think folks on this board will be very appreciative. I see similarities in Thelema, but I know that this forum is basically to look at other things from a Thelemic perspective, not to look at Thelema from an other perspective, so sometimes I'd like to talk in greater detail about stuff, but I don't out of respect for Jim and the community here.

In general, I don't like to refer to "spirituality" as it becomes a false dualistic kind of term with all these ridiculous concepts attached to it."

Mr. Fezz,

Thanks for the reply. I'm a little confused by your post, this is a topic entitled visualizing Aiwass? I was sharing my visualization. Specifically, a possible link between an Eastern Philosophical concept AWASE and a Thelemic one Aiwass. Perhaps the link is intentionally tenuous? But a link nonetheless...

My apologies regarding Jargon what is the Thelemic equivalence of spiritual or spirituality?

"Visualizing Aiwass"

I'm not sure if the two concepts are definitively related but semi-recently i was reading the[omlc.ogi.edu/aikido/talk/osensei/artofpeace/:6s9ib3bx]](http://omlc.ogi.edu/aikido/talk/osensei/artofpeace/:6s9ib3bx) by Morihei Ueshiba.

One of the idea's presented in this text [although not literally] is Awase. The simple meaning of this term is 'blending' or to spiritually; consciously unify with another so as to become inherently aware of their intention(s).

Interestingly enough Aiwass in my, non-thelemic, understanding is related to a variation of this idea demonstrated by the concept of Æther. A substance of which we are all supposedly immersed. The meaning and conclusion i drew aside from the seeming titular similarity has more to do with manipulating this substance which would be more in accord with Asian ideology. This substance making possible, spiritual vision or "blending" to use the definition of the Asian term.

Please forgive me if their are any obvious errors in the Thelemic understanding of Aiwass. I'm not very educated in these things and just thought i would share something i saw a relationship in.

edited for further clarity... i'm a little rusty

@Redd Fezz said

"It seems like you are in a terrible bind and somehow found your way to a Thelemic message board without knowing how to perform a simple banishing? That seems highly unusual. I don't know how we can help you without you being clearer about your situation or the kind of help you're looking for, if any. If Thelema isn't really your bag, then I wouldn't jump in and start practicing it to banish possible demons.

Speaking of which, I saw some hairy demons the other night rather clearly. Never thought of demons as hairy before, but these guys practically looked like muppets or something. Scarier, of course. Why did they show up? Well, I would say it had something to do with 20 hours of meditation. I'm mentioning this because you can attract perhaps negative attention by accident and, if you're not looking for that kind of attention and are not really interested in practices, it is probably better to get rid of any occult material you have lying around."

Hello Mr.Fezz,

I thought i was pretty clear or as clear as one could be regarding materia that is so steeply mired in subjectivity?! I will figure it out or die trying. After all, strength is gained through scarring? I do appreciate the friendly advice and well wishing. And that picture of Barbara 'the beast' Bush helped me in ways a couldn't have imagined

Thanks Everyone,

Lux

Lost Cannon, adrift in a sea of sh*t: the story of a fledgling magician Sounds rather apropos.

You make wonderful sense to me Mr. Fezz. I do believe you have hit at least one of the proverbial nails on its head with regard to not having found ones place. I've often wondered about this, considering my life has been remarkably devoid of what some might term, normalcy.

Of course, there was a period in which i thought i had found the 'spot' but it turned out to be just another fleeting shadow. Ive come to the conclusion on more than one occasion that there is no destination at least not a typical one for the likes of me.

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whatever you do Mr. Fezz, don't google the title of my mock autobiography.

I agree... Not a slave, but a ball bustin' 'perfect' mind. I wouldn't have her any other way - not that she could be. She's the iceing on my cake.

I'm the loose cannon.

Her entire dialectic hinges on the whole, 'Pity not the fallen' ideology. It should probably read, because they will get back
up one way or another.

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'Loose Cannon' is definitely not to be understood in a literal sense. It's an onion.

Thanks Everyone,

For taking the time to offer friendly advice.
Mr. Fezz fret not I have no intention of harming anyone or thing... I just need to learn how to put a saddle on this wily goat. I haven't the foggiest about banishings but im sure that would be the proper action.

I'm remarkably stubborn and foolish and my best friend whom I often look to for guidance has about as much emotional warmth as a cold steel plate-which I often resent. She's dreamy :l Back to the matter, I feel very isolated oftentimes which prompted me to seek some form of peer review; interaction.
I really do appreciate the discussion, thanks again.
I will just lurk for a while until i regain a comfortable perspective.

@Alrah said

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@Stag-Nation said
"See, i can't even have an original thought/rant "

Lol. Oh, have a hug. (((((Stag-Nation))))). "

Thanks

See, i can't even have an original thought/rant