Do what thou wilt...
My life has been transforming of late, through some of the hardest and darkest times in my life. In some ways I think I was lucky to survive, but I've come to realise that I've often been protected and just WAY too lucky to make any sense. That's because I set myself on a path from which there is no real escape when I was but a youth and hungry for real knowledge. I was blessed with a legendary mother of extraordinary courage who let me have free access to all information. So when I was very young I stumbled across the Review of Scientific Illuminism... this of course led me to my real resource, the Book of the Law. I never really had a loving father so had to be my own, perhaps this is why I've been so undisciplined, but in retrospect I doubt that really, having not done most common mistakes males in our society make! I'm proud of the man I've raised myself to be and I have only the blessing that comes from giving one's self to Her service to thank for it. The time of male patriarchy is in rapid decline and the jealous weak ones are flattering their weaknesses in grand fashion these days. Self-importance sells well, but the real cost is too high to think of. I suppose this has been my aversion to "official" orders such as the OTO et al, because they reek of that patriarchal dogma that is dying as we speak. I gave it a go but was disheartened by sexism in the outer order discouraged by some good people I saw driven away by pompous wankers. Perhaps the time is coming when I will work more from "within" so to speak to encourage my siblings to seek Her light and get over this male-solar-phallic worship that seems so commonplace. Perhaps my views were jaded? I dare say there are many who would agree with me. It only took me 25 years of study of just one holy book for it to really start coming into focus for me, and this is without such distractions as Kabbalah and fancy titles and ceremonies, etc. "But to love me is better than all things." just speaks too loudly to ignore, don't you think? I think a higher aim than revelling in what I would view as obscurantism and mystery-mongering would be to place this within reach of the common person, instead of driving them away thanks in part to dogma that is fading so rapidly it makes my head and heart spin. People are tired of the old "hard sell" of a dying male patriarchy so those old models aren't going to work, it's time to seduce and encourage, nurture and heal our sick and wounded. This includes everyone with a bright heart, not just the Intellectual elite. There is no initiation for this either, that must come from within, as ever, but we can inspire! Never in my life has my path and work been so clear and the joy in my heart so bright. This is our reward. So again I ask my siblings, what do you SEEK? I think a true initiation lies not in the domination of the phallus, but surrender of the yoni. (And surrender TO the ultimate one... Yes even in the hearts of sexist boys like me.) My understanding is as yet imperfect but we are all trying, are we not? There is no number for this. Encoding it only takes it away from the common folk and hoards it for the "elite" which we are no longer now that the aeon is upon us. Forgive my dissention but it seems our holy truths are somewhat trying to follow the model of old ways when new ones are clearly needed to help the ALL that the Law is for to actually begin to realise and LIVE it with freedom and joy.
Light, life, love and liberty? Four gates? One palace? Powers of what? "The Sun, Strength & Sight, Light; these are for the servants of the Star & the Snake." we can put this in everyone's reach by our true arts. Isn't that our job once we're "in the know"? Maybe it's part of mine... at any rate, we ARE all different anyway. 
We don't have to know well one another to encourage and support and bring our efforts together on the Earth in concert. Hmmmm concert? I could use a good concert...
Forgive me if I'm preaching to the converted or the wrong mob here, it's the closest I could get to any actual online community for Thelema (yet) and is just the $0.02 worth of a friendly-neighbourhood lunatic.
(possibly to be continued)
With love in the service of...
And thanks to Jim for shining a little light from within the howling "snake pit" laugh sorry it's an inside joke. ICMU feel free to join me or just point and laugh...
they'll get a bit of compassion when it amuses me and pity never. But I will encourage where I am able.