Origins of the astrological constellations
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@Jim Eshelman said
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@Malaclypse said
"Are the constellations merely arbitrary observations that people started to do work with and which then became an integrated part of some thought system, or do they actually have topologically important properties? And in that case, naturally, what properties?"The evidence is that the zodiacal divisions (12 equal zones measured along the ecliptic) are actual facts of nature."
What evidence is there in nature of 12 divisions?
I always assumed it was the moons in the year but it's closer to 13.
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@Middleman said
"What evidence is there in nature of 12 divisions?"
I wrote that the evidence showed that they are "facts of nature." I suspect you took that as, "I can see it in nature." I meant, though, that the method of science discloses them as actualities, meaning that they exist in the actual, natural world.
The studies in question are summarized in introductory essays on <!-- w --><a class="postlink" href="http://www.solunars.net">www.solunars.net</a><!-- w --> in the "General" section. A detailed publication of them, though, would take a fairly thick book that nobody has written - those of us that have been involved in them tend to know the dozens of different places they can be found (often obscure), and so the intro essays just mentioned are somewhat brief summaries.
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@Escarabaj said
"I would like to piggyback on this thread because I have a related question.
Tropical astrology often becomes very hazy about the signs: using decans and cusps to smooth interpretations.
Do "cusps" apply to Sidereal? My general understanding is "no."
I am specifically curious how this applies to out-of-sign aspects. What about a conjunction between, for example, 29 deg Cancer and 01 deg Leo? How could planets in those two signs still be "in sync" with each other, as a conjunction would imply? Wouldn't the idea of a cusp-like blend be necessary?"
In my personal experience, I've found that cusps apply in a variety of instances. For instance: a Virgo native with the sun in the first degree is apt to have traits Leonian in nature. Generally the cusps do not apply, and I myself am inclined to follow tradition in this respect, were it for the fact that I've seen so many natives , especially on the Leo/Virgo or Cancer/Leo cusp, disprove the rule that cusps do not apply.
A further complication to this matter is the fact that Mercury often lies in an adjacent sign to the sun.
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@Jim Eshelman said
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@Middleman said
"What evidence is there in nature of 12 divisions?"I wrote that the evidence showed that they are "facts of nature." I suspect you took that as, "I can see it in nature." I meant, though, that the method of science discloses them as actualities, meaning that they exist in the actual, natural world."
Sorry if I misunderstood, I thought you meant the evidence of the number of divisions not evidence of astrology's validity.
So why is it 12 and not 13 in sync with Luna?
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@Middleman said
"So why is it 12 and not 13 in sync with Luna?"
I dunno - especially since astrology, until relatively modern times (say, the last 1,500 years) was substantially more lunar than solar.
Except... that question presumes that the zodiac is of terrestrial origin. I don't think so at all - it can't be. It's inherently celestial. I think it most likely that this "twelving" would be observed on any planet in the universe, or in open space, and has nothing inherently to do with humanity, earth, this solar system, etc.
PS - The Moon orbits the Earth in 27.3 days, which means that, in 365.25 days, it will complete 13.4 cycles. But the time between two consecutive New Moons is 29.53 days, so 12.4 are completed. The lunar argument from the synodic p.o.v. (the most likely cycle used) supports twelving far more.
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@JPF said
"In my personal experience, I've found that cusps apply in a variety of instances. For instance: a Virgo native with the sun in the first degree is apt to have traits Leonian in nature."
Uh... what I can say? ... you've just given a great anecdotal justification for the Sidereal zodiac.
Those people who have the sun in the early degrees of (say) Tropical Virgo actually have the Sun in (Sidereal) Leo. It's no wonder they show Leo traits!
Those is a frequent early point by people with Tropical backgrounds encountering the Sidereal. It's one of the examples of how the Tropical zodiac actually fails. (The best evidence is statistical - but even the anecdotal fails.)
"A further complication to this matter is the fact that Mercury often lies in an adjacent sign to the sun."
That's another last-ditch (or, sadly, sometimes first ditch) argument; but look closely at it. Your statement is only relevant if you give the Mercury-sign comparable weight to the Sun-sign.
In no fashion (in any system) does the Mercury-sign deserve that kind of importance. It has a significance - a very targeted, narrow significance - which does not include an overall description of the character. Its importance compared to the Sun-sign or Moon-sign is very tiny.
For a discussion of Mercury's sign placement (Sidereal, of course), see:
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@Jim Eshelman said
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@JPF said
"In my personal experience, I've found that cusps apply in a variety of instances. For instance: a Virgo native with the sun in the first degree is apt to have traits Leonian in nature."Uh... what I can say? ... you've just given a great anecdotal justification for the Sidereal zodiac.
Those people who have the sun in the early degrees of (say) Tropical Virgo actually have the Sun in (Sidereal) Leo. It's no wonder they show Leo traits!
Those is a frequent early point by people with Tropical backgrounds encountering the Sidereal. It's one of the examples of how the Tropical zodiac actually fails. (The best evidence is statistical - but even the anecdotal fails.)
In no fashion (in any system) does the Mercury-sign deserve that kind of importance. It has a significance - a very targeted, narrow significance - which does not include an overall description of the character. Its importance compared to the Sun-sign or Moon-sign is very tiny."
I was speaking in Sidereal terms. I haven't practiced Tropical astrology for some time. From a *non-Tropical *perspective I find that a native whose Sun lies on the cusp is apt to partake of both natures.
Also, a native with the Sun in Leo and Mercury in Virgo is apt to be much different than Mercury in Leo or Cancer. Such is my experience.
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I'd agree there is at least some difference - but when I group all the people in my files per Sun-sign divided by Mercury sign (as if it were three different versions of the same Sun-sign), the groups aren't easily distinguishable from each other.
The one place I'm aware of what looks like a cuspal influence is in the first pentade of Sagittarius. For a few years, I actually thought there was a Scorpio bleed-over - then I realized that the Galactic Center is at 2 Sagittarius, and all of the "hub-like" Scorpio traits I was seeing in very early Sag were apparently the effect of conjunction with the GC. This was confirmed when the hub-like people all turned out to have their Sun within a degree and a half of 2 Sag 06 - it didn't persist in the earliest half degree of Sagittarius.
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@Jim Eshelman said
" The one place I'm aware of what looks like a cuspal influence is in the first pentade of Sagittarius."
Having a lover with the Sun in first degree Virgo has made the whole cusp thing brutally personal. Not only does she think herself Lord of the Manor, but she sees fit to clean every corner of it! I could cite my mother, also, whose Sun is so graciously resplendant in the last degree of Aries. But let's not get into that...
Also, there are a pair of Pisceans who come to mind, one with Mercury in Aries, and the other somewhat crippled in Pisces. Major difference in attitudes. checks files It also appears that every one of my former girlfriends has had the Sun at a Leo or Aries cusp! Gasp!
It seems I am a sort of Astrological martyr.
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@JPF said
"Having a lover with the Sun in first degree Virgo has made the whole cusp thing brutally personal. Not only does she think herself Lord of the Manor, but she sees fit to clean every corner of it! I could cite my mother, also, whose Sun is so graciously resplendant in the last degree of Aries. But let's not get into that..."
It would be worth having full birth data to see the charts as a whole.
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@Jim Eshelman said
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@JPF said
"Having a lover with the Sun in first degree Virgo has made the whole cusp thing brutally personal. Not only does she think herself Lord of the Manor, but she sees fit to clean every corner of it! I could cite my mother, also, whose Sun is so graciously resplendant in the last degree of Aries. But let's not get into that..."It would be worth having full birth data to see the charts as a whole."
It's unfortunate that not everybody knows their hour of birth. As far as the former is concerned, I have Sept. 18, 1989, Hollywood, CA, 9:26 AM. And my mother's I forget; I just have her positions jotted down in my notes. Both suns are part of a larger complex, however, so it's difficult to use the charts as evidence of a pure sun-cusp relationship. That is a major problem with Astrology: it's so easy to make an arguement for any conclusion. Even Tropical Astrologers seem to hit the mark to some extent. (This is probably because the planetary aspects remain the same, as does their place in the houses.)
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Hee hee. The Virgo girlfriend who "think[s] herself Lord of the Manor" has an Aries Moon and a close Sun-Mars conjunction.
I stayed away from complicated stuff. No reason. Seeing that she was a Virgo-Aries was enough.
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93,
"Except... that question presumes that the zodiac is of terrestrial origin. I don't think so at all - it can't be. It's inherently celestial. I think it most likely that this "twelving" would be observed on any planet in the universe, or in open space, and has nothing inherently to do with humanity, earth, this solar system, etc."
I find that very interesting.
Recently I got kinda fed up with the last 15 years of my personal experience being so uniquely weird (I feel like I'm the lone ranger), and decided to actually google a variety of number combinations and terms that my inner world can't shut up about. I thought maybe I would find some other equally loony soul who might also think they were alone. I found a bunch of info instead on 'gnosticism'. Now this is funny because although I knew nothing of that really until a few days ago (and my info is limited to wiki), I'm technically part of a gnostic order/church, but apparently whatever I thought gnostic meant (if I ever gave this thought beyond "one who knows, allegedly") isn't what I thought.
One of the unique weirdnesses I mentioned of my inner world is that after a dozen years of working (not very proactively) with what I call "the Four", where I am 4th of 4 that make up some larger identity, a few years ago they insisted I start integrating with this group of others. I was very threatened by it so it took me 3 years instead of 3 months. I came to understand they "composed me". Whereas the four of us had combined, chakras lit up and connected and branched out that Tree of Life thing in 3D, these were different; they showed me that each of them had a different small pattern of lights, like a constellation inside them. When I realized they weren't guides, and asked what to call them, they told me "Aeons." I thought this was retarded, it's a time-word and seemed inapplicable, plus IMO it sounds like some woo-woo thing made up to sound more occultish. So I ignored this, until I got it for about the 10th time, then finally apologized and started using that term.
Well it turns out that thanks to google and wiki, I just recently find that this old gnosticism sect (I assume it's long dead) has some similar model of inner-cosmology. What they are describing is just what I've been experiencing. Yet they describe it as if only 'the christ' or whatever is of this nature (4/12)--obviously if even a proletarian like me is of this nature then surely all humans are. Their doctrine is something like, there are the 4 Aeons of Light, and 12 Aeons 'compose' one. I found it kind of astounding. Apparently there's even something in there about one of the four 'hiding' so some kind of entities they call Archons wouldn't know about him--which is also interesting since I've had that exact scenario in a powerful dream about my mate/twin in the Four. (Although in theory as we are 2 and 2 on first merge, then 1, we are also 7.) I look back now on the mid-90s and I understand, thanks to better educated friends explaining it to me, that my experiences were predictable, when to me I was clueless so they were just bizarre and confusing. I think maybe I'm still kind of in that mode. I guess I kinda wish I'd known sooner, it would have felt validating. On the other hand it might also have created expectations I could do without.
Anyway, to me it is really beginning to seem like maybe that whole concept of "every man and every woman is a star" might be a great deal more ... ah, literal, than seems possible to my logical mind, at least outside meditative states. I was thinking it was just me, but after seeing this stuff is actually recorded from some time ago, now I'm wondering if maybe there is something to that and it really does relate to what you might call the larger, more complex structure of souls, group souls, whatever. Maybe my Aeons really ARE constellations on some level, and I'm the solar star. The meditations I've had that drop me into some kind of space are sometimes very powerful. I had one experience where I understood that a universe was "an idea incarnate." We're part of that so maybe it's all based on the same core idea (number/fractal/pattern).
So what I'm (finally) getting to is this: maybe it's all sort of holographic. Maybe we are created in 12 somewhat fluid... er, pieces, although that's SO the wrong word, I know... and maybe our galaxy has 12 constellations because we do as well, and the "as above, so below" thing just gets taken to a literal extreme that you have to be seriously altered state to... take seriously, maybe.
"Seeing that she was a Virgo-Aries was enough."
Funny. I don't know much about astrology. I have a friend serious about it for many decades who did my natal chart once. I have four planets including sun and mercury in virgo; both venus and mars in scorpio; aries rising; taurus moon. So far all I've gotten out of that is that it's probably good for blaming something on.
I'm hoping to address a lot more of astrology in archetype work but the last Tarot card I did kicked my ass and took me six months to get fully through (Knight of Wands) -- that's what I get for letting my inner guide suggest one, she probably picked the hardest one in the deck or something LOL -- so at this rate I'm going to need to live for several centuries to cover even half the topics I'd like!
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RC -
I love the conceptual language you've discovered with... what do you want to call it? ...the "rest of yourself."
It's very difficult to comment on other people's experiences and sometimes unwise. There are several root concepts in there that I can definitely relate to after some pretty crazy experiences of my own, and my hunch is that there are others here who can relate as well. For me, it was especially the bit about the constellations and us being more "literally" stars than might make sense in language of the left-brain. "Constellated consciousnesses" might work better, to spin a word from Jung.
For me, though, it was as if all sorts of information had been stuffed down in my unconscious and sealed up tight. When it all finally came out, technically speaking, ...I went nuts for a while and almost lost my wife and blew my life apart! And that was only last year, so... lol... what does it mean that I can relate to you?
Like I said, it's difficult to comment on other people's experiences, but I couldn't stand to see you put all that out there and not have anyone respond.Peace.
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RedCairo,
Interesting post. If science is your thing you might want to look at something called the "holographic principle" - and you mention the term "holographic" - I'm not sure if that is your intuitive description or whether you've been reading science textbooks recently! To me, The holographic Principle it is the most thelemic scientific principle I've ever come across.
In Layman's terms, basically, scientists have a problem describing matter inside of a black hole because it collapses to an infinitesimally small point. We can no longer think of atoms, quarks or strings as being fixed sizes of arbitrary units to describe space, so we have to look at the gravitational boundary of the black hole (the event horizon) and plot arbitrary units on that spherical gravitational boundary in order to describe the matter in the black hole.
What scientists found was that they had to also apply this mathematical schema to an object that was collapsing into a black hole (imagine a room collapsing in on itself due to it's massive gravity for example, where the walls are defined as the boundary and onto which are mapped aribrary units describing the matter inside the room), and that the old physics schemas didn't describe this scenario properly. Moreover they can also apply the schema to ordinary space-time as a valid mathematical description, (but never had to do this in the past because the old models worked just fine).
The implication is that the way we think of space as being these fixed sized unit of matter is incorrect, rather we should see it as a projection from the boundary of an arbitrary area of space inward to the centre. Nuit and Hadit! The perceived and the perceiver! Now physicists are cautious to say that space-time really IS a kind of hologram (probably for fear of ridicule at this point) so they're just saying that mathematically this is a better model. I say that that is so probably because it really IS so but the mainstream always takes it times with revolutionary ideas. I cannot think of anything more awesome than 'proving' Thelemic principles scientifically.
Anyway, that's the scientific side of things. On the mystical side, do some research into Crowley's vision of "the Star Sponge".
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93,
"For me, it was especially the bit about the constellations and us being more "literally" stars than might make sense in language of the left-brain. "Constellated consciousnesses" might work better, to spin a word from Jung."
I feel like, during the cycle-points when I am really proactive and working on awareness, I get a molecule closer to understanding this each day. Now, if I can live to be about 617, I might get halfway there.
"For me, though, it was as if all sorts of information had been stuffed down in my unconscious and sealed up tight. When it all finally came out, technically speaking, ...I went nuts for a while"
I understand. I had a kundalini experience in the early 90s, and spent quite some time trying to pretend I was normal so I could keep my respectable job and not end up in a straightjacket. It had a never-ending list of side effects as various chakras kinda went bezerk especially my crown and occasionally heart, though all of 'em on occasion. Thank god a buddy talked me into reading a Seth/Jane Roberts book during that era (I was hugely prejudiced against channeling at the time), because that gave me a logical framework and a vocabularly that made it 'odd but interesting' instead of 'go get medication'. I owe them a huge debt of gratitude for pretty much saving my sanity.
Humorously that K experience apparently stemmed from a really obsessive period of pranic work where I was constantly, intensely, praying "to evolve." The result, frankly, made me think it was an analogy to Lily Tomlin's great joke: "When I was a little girl, I always said that someday, I'd grow up to BE somebody! . . . but now I see, I should have been more specific." That's it!--I should have been more specific. Some part of me probably thinks losing a limb would be a maturing experience. Now I always include "in a positive way!" every time I ask for anything akin to evolution, just to be sure...
"but I couldn't stand to see you put all that out there and not have anyone respond."
Thanks for that. I figured I'd post on whatever I could relate to for a few weeks and see if everyone continued ignoring me, and if so I would move along.
separate reply, 93:
"If science is your thing you might want to look at something called the "holographic principle" - and you mention the term "holographic" - I'm not sure if that is your intuitive description or whether you've been reading science textbooks recently! To me, The holographic Principle it is the most thelemic scientific principle I've ever come across."
Science as a model of thinking and process are big with me. That's what I liked about the general magickal approach was that done well, it was an intelligent course of self-development, not just a hang-ten zen. (Nothing against that which I now do more than the former, just that at that time, I respected careful intelligent working.)
Aside from psi research, and the last year or so, a little nutrition research I only read 'about' from researchers and MDs who review that, I don't know much about any field of science alas. Most my education is self-education and not in that area. But I've read at least a few books on quantum physics going back to the late 80s, including 'The Holographic Universe' (Talbot) long ago. I certainly didn't come up with the universe as a hologram on my own probably, but I perceive it as a great model both experientially and intellectually.
Trivia: I once had a truly mind blowing experience (far too multi-part and complex to get into here) and was later 'shown' what it was/how it was done. Much later, I was in a bookstore just walking past the math/science section and had a sudden obession to suck it all into my brain so that my brain would be capable of putting out information on those topics it had but couldn't get through due to my limits. I grabbed a few books and some other part of me managed to get my body to physically run and buy them and run out the door lest I max out my visa buying every book in the section, I was a little nuts for about 10 minutes. While browsing whatever I'd bought, one book was on fractals. I didn't even know there was more than one kind, I'd only seen Mandelbrot like on screen savers.
I saw this one that was just like what I was 'shown' relating to that experience: string-beams of a laser-intense light+color+sound each a "primary," come out from the heart area (they form a square inside a circular shape) and their frequency increased as they got 'vibrato' and then exponentially went up the scale until they were all just seeming "chaos", and then like with tuning a guitar, they hit a high point and all vibrato stopped and they suddenly wrapped around in a vortex and went "through"... something. I had no idea what the heck that was or meant. Anyway looking at this picture, the Narrator (as I call him -- the voice that narrates, doesn't everybody have that? --I think it's probably a specific inorganic as Casteneda called them, which we are symbiotes with on some level) told me that it wasn't really a "messy random spirograph" as I was thinking, but that the motion was a dance, and that the pattern "would eventually resolve into oneness" just like how I'd been shown previously. I found that fascinating. The diff was there was 3 strings in the pic, not 4 as I'd experienced. The book called them "Serpienski Points" and apparently it is some part of physics string theory. I know absolutely nothing about that subject except that THAT particular thing has the makings of a helluva technology, whether spiritually or physically applied.
"The implication is that the way we think of space as being these fixed sized unit of matter is incorrect, rather we should see it as a projection from the boundary of an arbitrary area of space inward to the centre. Nuit and Hadit! The perceived and the perceiver!"
Interesting. That sounds like a great insight. I hadn't thought of this Nuit/Hadit connection.
I've had a few direct experiences with space and it being as completely arbitrary in perception as time. (Actually I think that they are both perceptual aspects of the same thing related to intensity of energy, like the wave/particle sides haha. I didn't think of this, Seth said time was perceptual translation of energy intensity or something like that, but I think it applies to space as well, and I've seen this happen a couple times. It's enough to break your brain. Somehow time distortions don't hurt the belief system nearly as much as space distortions, not sure why.) I wonder if the 'units' stay the same in number but the 'size of the unit' varies.
"On the mystical side, do some research into Crowley's vision of "the Star Sponge""
I haven't read that in so long I don't remember it! I should read it again. I once had a vision which, some time later when I stumbled on AC's "Star Sponge," reminded me a little of it. I dimly recall that I could not say WHY it reminded me of it, only that once I'd read it, it rather did. But it does relate a little to our topic sorta, so since it is not long, I'll dig it out and bore you with it. This is an excerpt from a case study I did eons ago is why I have it to copy and even remember the connection at all:
"{April 1994} I'm shown something that seems like a book. Then I realize it's not a book but is actually part of a screen, like a computer screen, I just had the mental "impression" of book, as if someone were communicating that to me. I looked at the surface, which was some medium-dark color, and there were these rows of vertical long ovals... hard to describe... they each seemed about the size and width of my little finger. The ovals themselves are dark, like black, and they're filled with all these little white dots.
Well I'm looking at these things and I have no clue what they are. Then I realize, Oh, it's like a language or something! I could tell I was supposed to "read" it, that was why I had the book concept. I studied them closely and went in various directions of looking at them, but frankly, all the ovals looked the same to me, just a bunch of white dots. I tried to count the dots, but there were too many, too small, too indefinite. I tried reading each one, like to see if there was some pattern from the top of the oval to the bottom or whatever, some slight difference in shape between them. Nothing. Then I looked real closely at them, and suddenly fell inward -- and I was inside one of them -- I was rushing toward the "center of everything" -- then I "was" at the center of everything -- and I realized that all those white dots, now surrounding me and part of me, were stars.
I just "existed" there, and realized that it told a story: the relationship between the stars, between the space, between everything; everything was a geometry; the geometry was a language. And I thought to myself, Whoa... this must be what astrology is supposed to explain. Then I realized that it told more than just a "story" or explanation. It was an entire conceptual universe. It was as if I knew all about everything, the concepts behind every creature, planet, everything, based on the relationship of the stars and space to each other. I don't mean I knew the life story of every entity; just that I understood the "structure" of that universe. Every universe, I realized, was literally an idea incarnate.
The geometry was just like the {internal-geometry} language someone {an entity, usually but not always in my sleep} had been teaching me. I realized that I had a "grokking" of it, so to speak; I could find my way around the universe I'd been shown with my eyes closed. I "knew" internally where everything was, the stars, the space, even the things that technically should have been "behind" me and out of my view, I could "feel" them like I was all of the geometry of the relationship between us, like the entire geometric form of all of it was inside me physically.
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{August 1994} I read Crowley's description of his "star sponge" experience in Book 4, and I'm wondering if this was some alternate version of my "learning to read." Although in my case I felt I was being taught to read/"grok" (in a fuller form), he mentions no such thing, in fact really doesn't mention anything like I experienced except the stars part... but who knows, somehow it reminded me. The star thing reminds me of the geometric conceptual language thing too, as if somehow it's all the same thing, now I've taken to calling that star-geometry."
I wish more people published their personal experiences and visions. I've gotten a lot of feedback about my old case study over the years and it's fascinating to see how even people with completely different models and experiences, have a sort of "core" of things in common.
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RC -
"I wish more people published their personal experiences and visions. I've gotten a lot of feedback about my old case study over the years and it's fascinating to see how even people with completely different models and experiences, have a sort of "core" of things in common. "
Yep.
"Now, if I can live to be about 617, I might get halfway there."
lol... nice.
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93,
@modernPrimitive said
"To me, The holographic Principle it is the most thelemic scientific principle I've ever come across."
Like most truly psi things this is hard to believe, but the amount of "convenient coincidence and synchronicity" in my life is amping up to the point of near astronomical improbability and growing by the day.
In keeping with the fact that nearly everything I even think too hard about I find more info on, a key source to, a person or object or writing about, within about 4-36 hours, tonight -- as part of about 9 other "synchronous information finds" -- I chanced on this really old book buried for many years at the back of a shelf where I had some writings from the early 2000's.
There were two poems in it. One actually goes well with both the hologram and 'star identity' stuff. I was cracking up finding it and thinking, "Well, if I post a poem, that will probably be the closest thing to matching the rest of the forum content you've posted so far." So, it may not be brilliant but I seemed to really mean it at the time, here you go.
August 22, 2002
The Deja Vu of Home
I am a child of chaos.
The tangled fractals clang
in my cells
and look for resolution.
My body breathes
the serenity
of identity
and soothes the inside-out
with its ignorant bliss.I am colored outside the lines.
The casually messy beliefs chatter
in my psyche
and refuse to march in time.
My mind, it dreams
of consequence
and evidence
and structures life from the outside-in
with its prejudiced loves.I am the One.
The soul's intent and body in tension
negotiate
so something will get done.
My destiny allows
the precision
of decision
and waits patiently for orders
which all of me agrees on.I am the mother of my cosmos.
The stars blaze within me when
it is darkest
inside my big idea incarnate.
My creation allows
day or night
wrong or right
with classrooms of explanation
around every inner corner.I am octaves of invisible color.
The glowing lines of spirit pulse
in my reality
and redeem messy chaos with light.
My soul longs for the
complete I AM
of the hologram
and impels me forward on shadowed paths
with the deja vu of home.I AM.
.PJG aka RC 08/22/02