Dhyana Troubles
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93,
Some years ago, before I even knew about proper Magick, Mysticism, or Crowley et al, I was very interested in the topic of "astral projection" or "out-of-body experiences." To me, this was a means to prove to myself that consciousness could exist apart from the physical body and satisfy my desire to know that we could survive death in some manner.
As an adolescent, I had discovered I could produce interesting effects by lying completely still and attempting to reduce awareness of my physical body as much as possible. I thought I could feel another body which I assumed to be my spirit or soul (which folks around here obviously would refer to as the Body of Light).
After years of playing around with this phenomenon in bed at night and reading some books on astral travel techniques, I thought I would get serious about it and attempt to "get out" and explore my bedroom and perhaps just the house at first.
I had a few mild successes of what I thought was "astral vision" of my room. On one occasion, after "getting out," I first heard a child speaking to me followed by some very ferocious, bestial sounding roaring which scared the hell out of me and prompted quick return to normal consciousness.
I was put off by that experience for a while and turned my attention to other things. I was into Zen Buddhism at the time and one night I had just read something that left me feeling particularly serene. I had a profound feeling that everything was right in the universe, that the universe was a self-correcting organism, and that everything was proceeding exactly as it should.
For whatever reason, I had the impulse to attempt an astral projection while in this state. However, what resulted was something completely unexpected. In my mind's eye, I saw a bright light, not unlike staring at the sun, I felt absolute bliss, stronger than anything I had ever felt emotionally, and I felt that my individuality was melting into this light and feeling. I assumed that I was dying, began to panic, jumped out of the bed and ran into my housemate's room and proceeded to act like a raving lunatic, which I'm sure was entertaining.
Of course, some time later I got a copy of Crowley's Book 4, read the section on yoga and was able to determine what it was that I had experienced.
"One of the simplest forms of Dhyana may be called "the Sun." The sun is seen (as it were) by itself, not by an observer; and although the physical eye cannot behold the sun, one is compelled to make the statement that this "Sun" is far more brilliant than the sun of nature. The whole thing takes place on a higher level."
My practice of attempting to astrally project had actually been a crude yoga practice. This is probably highly unorthodox, but it is my story.
Anyway, my predicament is that I would like to further my yoga practice, but the initial trauma of the experience has left me with a fear of the ego-death that accompanies that state. I have a fear of not returning to normal consciousness. I was wondering if anyone on the forum has dealt with this problem.
Thanks
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@Uni_Verse said
"I thought to add that Qabalah, especially concerning the Tree of Life is of greater use than just a "filing system"(I have noticed your use of quotations, perhaps what I am saying is the implication - if so, it was not clear tome and possibly others)"
Sure, I agree. Of course it is.
There is no argument that there are many aspects to Qabalah, which could be more accurately labeled "perception", from one POV. Is it not a tool for seeing the different aspects of the One Light?
It does mean "reception" after all...and when we receive, we categorize -- it is of no use until categorization, which is personal symbol integration. Would you agree?
Once experience is "filed" we can we use it along with projection of force knowingly. How do we speak without knowledge of the words? It is a language, just like music and politics. We still need knowledge of notes, rhythms, nouns, verbs, etc. to be able to communicate efficiently.
@Uni_Verse said
"It is a great asset in focusing ones travels, for it is easy to get lost meandering about the Astral"
I wouldn't know how to direct them otherwise. One could argue that points on this forum get lost there all the time.
@Pattana Gita said
"Freedom is: I reserve the right to change my mind at any time."
Haha! Yep! All necessary curves of the Cone.
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93,
Some years ago, before I even knew about proper Magick, Mysticism, or Crowley et al, I was very interested in the topic of "astral projection" or "out-of-body experiences." To me, this was a means to prove to myself that consciousness could exist apart from the physical body and satisfy my desire to know that we could survive death in some manner.
As an adolescent, I had discovered I could produce interesting effects by lying completely still and attempting to reduce awareness of my physical body as much as possible. I thought I could feel another body which I assumed to be my spirit or soul (which folks around here obviously would refer to as the Body of Light).
After years of playing around with this phenomenon in bed at night and reading some books on astral travel techniques, I thought I would get serious about it and attempt to "get out" and explore my bedroom and perhaps just the house at first.
I had a few mild successes of what I thought was "astral vision" of my room. On one occasion, after "getting out," I first heard a child speaking to me followed by some very ferocious, bestial sounding roaring which scared the hell out of me and prompted quick return to normal consciousness.
I was put off by that experience for a while and turned my attention to other things. I was into Zen Buddhism at the time and one night I had just read something that left me feeling particularly serene. I had a profound feeling that everything was right in the universe, that the universe was a self-correcting organism, and that everything was proceeding exactly as it should.
For whatever reason, I had the impulse to attempt an astral projection while in this state. However, what resulted was something completely unexpected. In my mind's eye, I saw a bright light, not unlike staring at the sun, I felt absolute bliss, stronger than anything I had ever felt emotionally, and I felt that my individuality was melting into this light and feeling. I assumed that I was dying, began to panic, jumped out of the bed and ran into my housemate's room and proceeded to act like a raving lunatic, which I'm sure was entertaining.
Of course, some time later I got a copy of Crowley's Book 4, read the section on yoga and was able to determine what it was that I had experienced.
"One of the simplest forms of Dhyana may be called "the Sun." The sun is seen (as it were) by itself, not by an observer; and although the physical eye cannot behold the sun, one is compelled to make the statement that this "Sun" is far more brilliant than the sun of nature. The whole thing takes place on a higher level."
My practice of attempting to astrally project had actually been a crude yoga practice. This is probably highly unorthodox, but it is my story.
Anyway, my predicament is that I would like to further my yoga practice, but the initial trauma of the experience has left me with a fear of the ego-death that accompanies that state. I have a fear of not returning to normal consciousness. I was wondering if anyone on the forum has dealt with this problem.
Thanks
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@Frater 639 said
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There is no argument that there are many aspects to Qabalah, which could be more accurately labeled "perception", from one POV. Is it not a tool for seeing the different aspects of the One Light? "Further, I think it also helps to see the way these various aspects interact with one another.
@Frater 639 said
"It does mean "reception" after all...and when we receive, we categorize -- it is of no use until categorization, which is personal symbol integration. Would you agree?"
I would agree that is the natural tendency.
Even more so to the importance and use of the personal symbol integration.
To the point where it is no longer required consciously.
That we may experience with out the need to categorize.
Transforming the mundane into something truly magical.@Frater 639 said
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Once experience is "filed" we can we use it along with projection of force knowingly. How do we speak without knowledge of the words? It is a language, just like music and politics. We still need knowledge of notes, rhythms, nouns, verbs, etc. to be able to communicate efficiently. "Efficiently, yes - effectively, not necessarily. [EDIT: The dash seems out of place, leaving it there]
I could walk up to you and tell you my hand hurts.
Shaking it around and letting out a howl will grab your attention
Just as one does not require any knowledge of musical theory to play a gripping piece.
They do, however, if they wish to replicate it with efficiency.@Frater 639 said
"I wouldn't know how to direct them otherwise. One could argue that points on this forum get lost there all the time.
"Better the chaos be here and not in my Work
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93,
Some years ago, before I even knew about proper Magick, Mysticism, or Crowley et al, I was very interested in the topic of "astral projection" or "out-of-body experiences." To me, this was a means to prove to myself that consciousness could exist apart from the physical body and satisfy my desire to know that we could survive death in some manner.
As an adolescent, I had discovered I could produce interesting effects by lying completely still and attempting to reduce awareness of my physical body as much as possible. I thought I could feel another body which I assumed to be my spirit or soul (which folks around here obviously would refer to as the Body of Light).
After years of playing around with this phenomenon in bed at night and reading some books on astral travel techniques, I thought I would get serious about it and attempt to "get out" and explore my bedroom and perhaps just the house at first.
I had a few mild successes of what I thought was "astral vision" of my room. On one occasion, after "getting out," I first heard a child speaking to me followed by some very ferocious, bestial sounding roaring which scared the hell out of me and prompted quick return to normal consciousness.
I was put off by that experience for a while and turned my attention to other things. I was into Zen Buddhism at the time and one night I had just read something that left me feeling particularly serene. I had a profound feeling that everything was right in the universe, that the universe was a self-correcting organism, and that everything was proceeding exactly as it should.
For whatever reason, I had the impulse to attempt an astral projection while in this state. However, what resulted was something completely unexpected. In my mind's eye, I saw a bright light, not unlike staring at the sun, I felt absolute bliss, stronger than anything I had ever felt emotionally, and I felt that my individuality was melting into this light and feeling. I assumed that I was dying, began to panic, jumped out of the bed and ran into my housemate's room and proceeded to act like a raving lunatic, which I'm sure was entertaining.
Of course, some time later I got a copy of Crowley's Book 4, read the section on yoga and was able to determine what it was that I had experienced.
"One of the simplest forms of Dhyana may be called "the Sun." The sun is seen (as it were) by itself, not by an observer; and although the physical eye cannot behold the sun, one is compelled to make the statement that this "Sun" is far more brilliant than the sun of nature. The whole thing takes place on a higher level."
My practice of attempting to astrally project had actually been a crude yoga practice. This is probably highly unorthodox, but it is my story.
Anyway, my predicament is that I would like to further my yoga practice, but the initial trauma of the experience has left me with a fear of the ego-death that accompanies that state. I have a fear of not returning to normal consciousness. I was wondering if anyone on the forum has dealt with this problem.
Thanks
93/93
In reference to the orignal post, meditation does not, in fact, result in ego-loss. I spent my first few years of meditation attempting to kill the ego. Eventually I realized that meditation doesn't destroy the ego, but merely enhances it and brings it into harmony with the Macrocosm. So in reality, the idea is to take your imperfect, Microcosmic self, and bring it into Unity (Yoga) with the Macrocosm. So the lesser self/ego is perfected and brought into contact with the Higher. Your own personal attributes are what make you a star; to destroy these would be to destroy the perfection of you as a human being. When Unity is attained, your personal aspects are merely enhanced and perfected.
Such is how I understand it.
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93,
Some years ago, before I even knew about proper Magick, Mysticism, or Crowley et al, I was very interested in the topic of "astral projection" or "out-of-body experiences." To me, this was a means to prove to myself that consciousness could exist apart from the physical body and satisfy my desire to know that we could survive death in some manner.
As an adolescent, I had discovered I could produce interesting effects by lying completely still and attempting to reduce awareness of my physical body as much as possible. I thought I could feel another body which I assumed to be my spirit or soul (which folks around here obviously would refer to as the Body of Light).
After years of playing around with this phenomenon in bed at night and reading some books on astral travel techniques, I thought I would get serious about it and attempt to "get out" and explore my bedroom and perhaps just the house at first.
I had a few mild successes of what I thought was "astral vision" of my room. On one occasion, after "getting out," I first heard a child speaking to me followed by some very ferocious, bestial sounding roaring which scared the hell out of me and prompted quick return to normal consciousness.
I was put off by that experience for a while and turned my attention to other things. I was into Zen Buddhism at the time and one night I had just read something that left me feeling particularly serene. I had a profound feeling that everything was right in the universe, that the universe was a self-correcting organism, and that everything was proceeding exactly as it should.
For whatever reason, I had the impulse to attempt an astral projection while in this state. However, what resulted was something completely unexpected. In my mind's eye, I saw a bright light, not unlike staring at the sun, I felt absolute bliss, stronger than anything I had ever felt emotionally, and I felt that my individuality was melting into this light and feeling. I assumed that I was dying, began to panic, jumped out of the bed and ran into my housemate's room and proceeded to act like a raving lunatic, which I'm sure was entertaining.
Of course, some time later I got a copy of Crowley's Book 4, read the section on yoga and was able to determine what it was that I had experienced.
"One of the simplest forms of Dhyana may be called "the Sun." The sun is seen (as it were) by itself, not by an observer; and although the physical eye cannot behold the sun, one is compelled to make the statement that this "Sun" is far more brilliant than the sun of nature. The whole thing takes place on a higher level."
My practice of attempting to astrally project had actually been a crude yoga practice. This is probably highly unorthodox, but it is my story.
Anyway, my predicament is that I would like to further my yoga practice, but the initial trauma of the experience has left me with a fear of the ego-death that accompanies that state. I have a fear of not returning to normal consciousness. I was wondering if anyone on the forum has dealt with this problem.
Thanks
93/93
@Simon Iff said
"Concerning your quote from Crowley, I am of the opinion that he is not talking about dhyana at all, but something it might escalate into. Under certain conditions. And he does not mean actual death such as in heart and brain stop work.
He is talking about kundalini -...."
Dhyana is Sanksrit for the Pali word jhana which has been variously translated but usually as "absorption" and according to most interpretaitons of the Buddha's teachings is a necessary (there's a school of thought called "dry vipassana"--as opposed to the "moistening" qualities of jhana--that sees it as unnecessary) part of the Noble Eightfold Path called Right Samadhi (concentration). Ch'an (a.k.a. Zen) is simply the Chinese derivation of the words dhyana and jhana. The passage in Kaczynski's Perdurabo that cite Crowley's description of his attainment of dhyana (while staying with Allan Bennett in Sri Lanka) is similar to Buddhist descriptions of jhana and not, as Simon Iff notes, kundalini.
Hope that clarifies things a little.
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93,
Some years ago, before I even knew about proper Magick, Mysticism, or Crowley et al, I was very interested in the topic of "astral projection" or "out-of-body experiences." To me, this was a means to prove to myself that consciousness could exist apart from the physical body and satisfy my desire to know that we could survive death in some manner.
As an adolescent, I had discovered I could produce interesting effects by lying completely still and attempting to reduce awareness of my physical body as much as possible. I thought I could feel another body which I assumed to be my spirit or soul (which folks around here obviously would refer to as the Body of Light).
After years of playing around with this phenomenon in bed at night and reading some books on astral travel techniques, I thought I would get serious about it and attempt to "get out" and explore my bedroom and perhaps just the house at first.
I had a few mild successes of what I thought was "astral vision" of my room. On one occasion, after "getting out," I first heard a child speaking to me followed by some very ferocious, bestial sounding roaring which scared the hell out of me and prompted quick return to normal consciousness.
I was put off by that experience for a while and turned my attention to other things. I was into Zen Buddhism at the time and one night I had just read something that left me feeling particularly serene. I had a profound feeling that everything was right in the universe, that the universe was a self-correcting organism, and that everything was proceeding exactly as it should.
For whatever reason, I had the impulse to attempt an astral projection while in this state. However, what resulted was something completely unexpected. In my mind's eye, I saw a bright light, not unlike staring at the sun, I felt absolute bliss, stronger than anything I had ever felt emotionally, and I felt that my individuality was melting into this light and feeling. I assumed that I was dying, began to panic, jumped out of the bed and ran into my housemate's room and proceeded to act like a raving lunatic, which I'm sure was entertaining.
Of course, some time later I got a copy of Crowley's Book 4, read the section on yoga and was able to determine what it was that I had experienced.
"One of the simplest forms of Dhyana may be called "the Sun." The sun is seen (as it were) by itself, not by an observer; and although the physical eye cannot behold the sun, one is compelled to make the statement that this "Sun" is far more brilliant than the sun of nature. The whole thing takes place on a higher level."
My practice of attempting to astrally project had actually been a crude yoga practice. This is probably highly unorthodox, but it is my story.
Anyway, my predicament is that I would like to further my yoga practice, but the initial trauma of the experience has left me with a fear of the ego-death that accompanies that state. I have a fear of not returning to normal consciousness. I was wondering if anyone on the forum has dealt with this problem.
Thanks
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@landis said
"... The passage in Kaczynski's Perdurabo that cite Crowley's description of his attainment of dhyana (while staying with Allan Bennett in Sri Lanka) is similar to Buddhist descriptions of jhana and not, as Simon Iff notes, kundalini.
Hope that clarifies things a little."
Not really, as the problem appears to be that some postings of a user (Patthana's perhaps?) have been deleted since I wrote my reply and even I do no longer understand some of the (including my own) references in this thread now.
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93,
Some years ago, before I even knew about proper Magick, Mysticism, or Crowley et al, I was very interested in the topic of "astral projection" or "out-of-body experiences." To me, this was a means to prove to myself that consciousness could exist apart from the physical body and satisfy my desire to know that we could survive death in some manner.
As an adolescent, I had discovered I could produce interesting effects by lying completely still and attempting to reduce awareness of my physical body as much as possible. I thought I could feel another body which I assumed to be my spirit or soul (which folks around here obviously would refer to as the Body of Light).
After years of playing around with this phenomenon in bed at night and reading some books on astral travel techniques, I thought I would get serious about it and attempt to "get out" and explore my bedroom and perhaps just the house at first.
I had a few mild successes of what I thought was "astral vision" of my room. On one occasion, after "getting out," I first heard a child speaking to me followed by some very ferocious, bestial sounding roaring which scared the hell out of me and prompted quick return to normal consciousness.
I was put off by that experience for a while and turned my attention to other things. I was into Zen Buddhism at the time and one night I had just read something that left me feeling particularly serene. I had a profound feeling that everything was right in the universe, that the universe was a self-correcting organism, and that everything was proceeding exactly as it should.
For whatever reason, I had the impulse to attempt an astral projection while in this state. However, what resulted was something completely unexpected. In my mind's eye, I saw a bright light, not unlike staring at the sun, I felt absolute bliss, stronger than anything I had ever felt emotionally, and I felt that my individuality was melting into this light and feeling. I assumed that I was dying, began to panic, jumped out of the bed and ran into my housemate's room and proceeded to act like a raving lunatic, which I'm sure was entertaining.
Of course, some time later I got a copy of Crowley's Book 4, read the section on yoga and was able to determine what it was that I had experienced.
"One of the simplest forms of Dhyana may be called "the Sun." The sun is seen (as it were) by itself, not by an observer; and although the physical eye cannot behold the sun, one is compelled to make the statement that this "Sun" is far more brilliant than the sun of nature. The whole thing takes place on a higher level."
My practice of attempting to astrally project had actually been a crude yoga practice. This is probably highly unorthodox, but it is my story.
Anyway, my predicament is that I would like to further my yoga practice, but the initial trauma of the experience has left me with a fear of the ego-death that accompanies that state. I have a fear of not returning to normal consciousness. I was wondering if anyone on the forum has dealt with this problem.
Thanks
93/93
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93,
Some years ago, before I even knew about proper Magick, Mysticism, or Crowley et al, I was very interested in the topic of "astral projection" or "out-of-body experiences." To me, this was a means to prove to myself that consciousness could exist apart from the physical body and satisfy my desire to know that we could survive death in some manner.
As an adolescent, I had discovered I could produce interesting effects by lying completely still and attempting to reduce awareness of my physical body as much as possible. I thought I could feel another body which I assumed to be my spirit or soul (which folks around here obviously would refer to as the Body of Light).
After years of playing around with this phenomenon in bed at night and reading some books on astral travel techniques, I thought I would get serious about it and attempt to "get out" and explore my bedroom and perhaps just the house at first.
I had a few mild successes of what I thought was "astral vision" of my room. On one occasion, after "getting out," I first heard a child speaking to me followed by some very ferocious, bestial sounding roaring which scared the hell out of me and prompted quick return to normal consciousness.
I was put off by that experience for a while and turned my attention to other things. I was into Zen Buddhism at the time and one night I had just read something that left me feeling particularly serene. I had a profound feeling that everything was right in the universe, that the universe was a self-correcting organism, and that everything was proceeding exactly as it should.
For whatever reason, I had the impulse to attempt an astral projection while in this state. However, what resulted was something completely unexpected. In my mind's eye, I saw a bright light, not unlike staring at the sun, I felt absolute bliss, stronger than anything I had ever felt emotionally, and I felt that my individuality was melting into this light and feeling. I assumed that I was dying, began to panic, jumped out of the bed and ran into my housemate's room and proceeded to act like a raving lunatic, which I'm sure was entertaining.
Of course, some time later I got a copy of Crowley's Book 4, read the section on yoga and was able to determine what it was that I had experienced.
"One of the simplest forms of Dhyana may be called "the Sun." The sun is seen (as it were) by itself, not by an observer; and although the physical eye cannot behold the sun, one is compelled to make the statement that this "Sun" is far more brilliant than the sun of nature. The whole thing takes place on a higher level."
My practice of attempting to astrally project had actually been a crude yoga practice. This is probably highly unorthodox, but it is my story.
Anyway, my predicament is that I would like to further my yoga practice, but the initial trauma of the experience has left me with a fear of the ego-death that accompanies that state. I have a fear of not returning to normal consciousness. I was wondering if anyone on the forum has dealt with this problem.
Thanks
93/93
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93,
Some years ago, before I even knew about proper Magick, Mysticism, or Crowley et al, I was very interested in the topic of "astral projection" or "out-of-body experiences." To me, this was a means to prove to myself that consciousness could exist apart from the physical body and satisfy my desire to know that we could survive death in some manner.
As an adolescent, I had discovered I could produce interesting effects by lying completely still and attempting to reduce awareness of my physical body as much as possible. I thought I could feel another body which I assumed to be my spirit or soul (which folks around here obviously would refer to as the Body of Light).
After years of playing around with this phenomenon in bed at night and reading some books on astral travel techniques, I thought I would get serious about it and attempt to "get out" and explore my bedroom and perhaps just the house at first.
I had a few mild successes of what I thought was "astral vision" of my room. On one occasion, after "getting out," I first heard a child speaking to me followed by some very ferocious, bestial sounding roaring which scared the hell out of me and prompted quick return to normal consciousness.
I was put off by that experience for a while and turned my attention to other things. I was into Zen Buddhism at the time and one night I had just read something that left me feeling particularly serene. I had a profound feeling that everything was right in the universe, that the universe was a self-correcting organism, and that everything was proceeding exactly as it should.
For whatever reason, I had the impulse to attempt an astral projection while in this state. However, what resulted was something completely unexpected. In my mind's eye, I saw a bright light, not unlike staring at the sun, I felt absolute bliss, stronger than anything I had ever felt emotionally, and I felt that my individuality was melting into this light and feeling. I assumed that I was dying, began to panic, jumped out of the bed and ran into my housemate's room and proceeded to act like a raving lunatic, which I'm sure was entertaining.
Of course, some time later I got a copy of Crowley's Book 4, read the section on yoga and was able to determine what it was that I had experienced.
"One of the simplest forms of Dhyana may be called "the Sun." The sun is seen (as it were) by itself, not by an observer; and although the physical eye cannot behold the sun, one is compelled to make the statement that this "Sun" is far more brilliant than the sun of nature. The whole thing takes place on a higher level."
My practice of attempting to astrally project had actually been a crude yoga practice. This is probably highly unorthodox, but it is my story.
Anyway, my predicament is that I would like to further my yoga practice, but the initial trauma of the experience has left me with a fear of the ego-death that accompanies that state. I have a fear of not returning to normal consciousness. I was wondering if anyone on the forum has dealt with this problem.
Thanks
93/93
@Simon Iff said
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@landis said
"No biggie Simon Iff. Sometimes I hit. Sometimes I miss."No other way here. I read the thread up and down and became more and more confused until I understood that what I originally replied to was gone. And I wrote it ..."
Wait. Are you saying stuff gets deleted here without you knowing who did it or why?
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93,
Some years ago, before I even knew about proper Magick, Mysticism, or Crowley et al, I was very interested in the topic of "astral projection" or "out-of-body experiences." To me, this was a means to prove to myself that consciousness could exist apart from the physical body and satisfy my desire to know that we could survive death in some manner.
As an adolescent, I had discovered I could produce interesting effects by lying completely still and attempting to reduce awareness of my physical body as much as possible. I thought I could feel another body which I assumed to be my spirit or soul (which folks around here obviously would refer to as the Body of Light).
After years of playing around with this phenomenon in bed at night and reading some books on astral travel techniques, I thought I would get serious about it and attempt to "get out" and explore my bedroom and perhaps just the house at first.
I had a few mild successes of what I thought was "astral vision" of my room. On one occasion, after "getting out," I first heard a child speaking to me followed by some very ferocious, bestial sounding roaring which scared the hell out of me and prompted quick return to normal consciousness.
I was put off by that experience for a while and turned my attention to other things. I was into Zen Buddhism at the time and one night I had just read something that left me feeling particularly serene. I had a profound feeling that everything was right in the universe, that the universe was a self-correcting organism, and that everything was proceeding exactly as it should.
For whatever reason, I had the impulse to attempt an astral projection while in this state. However, what resulted was something completely unexpected. In my mind's eye, I saw a bright light, not unlike staring at the sun, I felt absolute bliss, stronger than anything I had ever felt emotionally, and I felt that my individuality was melting into this light and feeling. I assumed that I was dying, began to panic, jumped out of the bed and ran into my housemate's room and proceeded to act like a raving lunatic, which I'm sure was entertaining.
Of course, some time later I got a copy of Crowley's Book 4, read the section on yoga and was able to determine what it was that I had experienced.
"One of the simplest forms of Dhyana may be called "the Sun." The sun is seen (as it were) by itself, not by an observer; and although the physical eye cannot behold the sun, one is compelled to make the statement that this "Sun" is far more brilliant than the sun of nature. The whole thing takes place on a higher level."
My practice of attempting to astrally project had actually been a crude yoga practice. This is probably highly unorthodox, but it is my story.
Anyway, my predicament is that I would like to further my yoga practice, but the initial trauma of the experience has left me with a fear of the ego-death that accompanies that state. I have a fear of not returning to normal consciousness. I was wondering if anyone on the forum has dealt with this problem.
Thanks
93/93
@landis said
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@Simon Iff said
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@landis said
"No biggie Simon Iff. Sometimes I hit. Sometimes I miss."No other way here. I read the thread up and down and became more and more confused until I understood that what I originally replied to was gone. And I wrote it ..."
Wait. Are you saying stuff gets deleted here without you knowing who did it or why?"
Some people prove to only have one intent, which is not positive, and it gets them deleted (not without warnings) and so goes also their content (if that is warranted).
[Edit] Also, some people ask to be deleted - like the existence of a pharaoh who may or may not have existed, or the nose on the Sphinx.
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93,
Some years ago, before I even knew about proper Magick, Mysticism, or Crowley et al, I was very interested in the topic of "astral projection" or "out-of-body experiences." To me, this was a means to prove to myself that consciousness could exist apart from the physical body and satisfy my desire to know that we could survive death in some manner.
As an adolescent, I had discovered I could produce interesting effects by lying completely still and attempting to reduce awareness of my physical body as much as possible. I thought I could feel another body which I assumed to be my spirit or soul (which folks around here obviously would refer to as the Body of Light).
After years of playing around with this phenomenon in bed at night and reading some books on astral travel techniques, I thought I would get serious about it and attempt to "get out" and explore my bedroom and perhaps just the house at first.
I had a few mild successes of what I thought was "astral vision" of my room. On one occasion, after "getting out," I first heard a child speaking to me followed by some very ferocious, bestial sounding roaring which scared the hell out of me and prompted quick return to normal consciousness.
I was put off by that experience for a while and turned my attention to other things. I was into Zen Buddhism at the time and one night I had just read something that left me feeling particularly serene. I had a profound feeling that everything was right in the universe, that the universe was a self-correcting organism, and that everything was proceeding exactly as it should.
For whatever reason, I had the impulse to attempt an astral projection while in this state. However, what resulted was something completely unexpected. In my mind's eye, I saw a bright light, not unlike staring at the sun, I felt absolute bliss, stronger than anything I had ever felt emotionally, and I felt that my individuality was melting into this light and feeling. I assumed that I was dying, began to panic, jumped out of the bed and ran into my housemate's room and proceeded to act like a raving lunatic, which I'm sure was entertaining.
Of course, some time later I got a copy of Crowley's Book 4, read the section on yoga and was able to determine what it was that I had experienced.
"One of the simplest forms of Dhyana may be called "the Sun." The sun is seen (as it were) by itself, not by an observer; and although the physical eye cannot behold the sun, one is compelled to make the statement that this "Sun" is far more brilliant than the sun of nature. The whole thing takes place on a higher level."
My practice of attempting to astrally project had actually been a crude yoga practice. This is probably highly unorthodox, but it is my story.
Anyway, my predicament is that I would like to further my yoga practice, but the initial trauma of the experience has left me with a fear of the ego-death that accompanies that state. I have a fear of not returning to normal consciousness. I was wondering if anyone on the forum has dealt with this problem.
Thanks
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93,
Some years ago, before I even knew about proper Magick, Mysticism, or Crowley et al, I was very interested in the topic of "astral projection" or "out-of-body experiences." To me, this was a means to prove to myself that consciousness could exist apart from the physical body and satisfy my desire to know that we could survive death in some manner.
As an adolescent, I had discovered I could produce interesting effects by lying completely still and attempting to reduce awareness of my physical body as much as possible. I thought I could feel another body which I assumed to be my spirit or soul (which folks around here obviously would refer to as the Body of Light).
After years of playing around with this phenomenon in bed at night and reading some books on astral travel techniques, I thought I would get serious about it and attempt to "get out" and explore my bedroom and perhaps just the house at first.
I had a few mild successes of what I thought was "astral vision" of my room. On one occasion, after "getting out," I first heard a child speaking to me followed by some very ferocious, bestial sounding roaring which scared the hell out of me and prompted quick return to normal consciousness.
I was put off by that experience for a while and turned my attention to other things. I was into Zen Buddhism at the time and one night I had just read something that left me feeling particularly serene. I had a profound feeling that everything was right in the universe, that the universe was a self-correcting organism, and that everything was proceeding exactly as it should.
For whatever reason, I had the impulse to attempt an astral projection while in this state. However, what resulted was something completely unexpected. In my mind's eye, I saw a bright light, not unlike staring at the sun, I felt absolute bliss, stronger than anything I had ever felt emotionally, and I felt that my individuality was melting into this light and feeling. I assumed that I was dying, began to panic, jumped out of the bed and ran into my housemate's room and proceeded to act like a raving lunatic, which I'm sure was entertaining.
Of course, some time later I got a copy of Crowley's Book 4, read the section on yoga and was able to determine what it was that I had experienced.
"One of the simplest forms of Dhyana may be called "the Sun." The sun is seen (as it were) by itself, not by an observer; and although the physical eye cannot behold the sun, one is compelled to make the statement that this "Sun" is far more brilliant than the sun of nature. The whole thing takes place on a higher level."
My practice of attempting to astrally project had actually been a crude yoga practice. This is probably highly unorthodox, but it is my story.
Anyway, my predicament is that I would like to further my yoga practice, but the initial trauma of the experience has left me with a fear of the ego-death that accompanies that state. I have a fear of not returning to normal consciousness. I was wondering if anyone on the forum has dealt with this problem.
Thanks
93/93
@Caduceus said
"Anyway, my predicament is that I would like to further my yoga practice, but the initial trauma of the experience has left me with a fear of the ego-death that accompanies that state. I have a fear of not returning to normal consciousness. I was wondering if anyone on the forum has dealt with this problem."
I can't speak to the "astral" side of things but I have some substantial experience with dhyana/jhana.
But first, could you clarify your understanding of "fear" (AC said "Fear is failure and the beginning on failure), "ego death," and "normal consciousness?"
Off the top of my head, you might focus on gaining competence with the calming aspects of anapanasati/Mindfulness of Breathing (just google it). Somewhere near the end of lecture seven in 8 Lectures on Yoga, AC postulates this (along with satipatthana) as a comparable alternative to the method(s) in Liber ABA (Book 4).