Finding my True Will

[Katanoese]

Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law,

A quick update -
After a bit of research, I came upon "Sample Ritual #9" in 776 1/2, which resonated strongly with me, and seems to describe a procedure I can benefit greatly from in my situation .. That is - purifying the personality and perceptions, prompting the Khabs to flow out and purify the Khu / aura, and thus hopefully the True Will can not only shine forth and become perceptible to the consciousness, but also become more effective in my life through the more effective and attuned Khu ..

I now plan to start preparations for this performance by procuring the necessary ingredients and instruments.
I also think it will be a good idea for me to practising "Liber ThIShARB" for a time before the actual ritual as a preparation.

Please share your informed opinions on my plans, and any experience you might have with this procedure that you think will be useful

On my way to the "Treasure House of Images"!

Love is the law, love under will,
Frater Katanoese

[Archaeus]

@Katanoese said

"Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law,

A quick update -
After a bit of research, I came upon "Sample Ritual #9" in 776 1/2, which resonated strongly with me, and seems to describe a procedure I can benefit greatly from in my situation .. That is - purifying the personality and perceptions, prompting the Khabs to flow out and purify the Khu / aura, and thus hopefully the True Will can not only shine forth and become perceptible to the consciousness, but also become more effective in my life through the more effective and attuned Khu ..

I now plan to start preparations for this performance by procuring the necessary ingredients and instruments.
I also think it will be a good idea for me to practising "Liber ThIShARB" for a time before the actual ritual as a preparation.

Please share your informed opinions on my plans, and any experience you might have with this procedure that you think will be useful

On my way to the "Treasure House of Images"!

Love is the law, love under will,
Frater Katanoese"

0=0 is a funny time, or it was for me. You are not at that point expected to attain particular results, but instead are investigating various things to see what works and what doesn't. At the end of your year your superior would then be armed with your diary and therefore in a position to see what you might need.

Trying to find true will is the work of the Outer College, more specifically it's the work of an 5=6 so you are not expected to do it all before you are even admitted to the AA as a Neophyte.

My advice; enjoy you time as a Probationer, try everything that strikes you as interesting, get experience and get into the habit of putting everything into your diary and reflecting on it and observing the process without jumping to conclusions.

Don't try to run before you can walk.

Consult your Superior, it's what s/he is there for.

[Jim Eshelman]

@Archaeus said

"Trying to find true will is the work of the Outer College, more specifically it's the work of an 5=6 so you are not expected to do it all before you are even admitted to the AA as a Neophyte."

Conscious awareness (and even articulation) of True Will is usually a result long before 5=6. There is a tendency to confuse discovery of the True Will with Knowledge & Conversation of the HGA.

Sure, one doesn't have "to do it all" as a Probationer. But that's no reason not to give it a hell of a start if one is so motivated.

[Archaeus]

@Jim Eshelman said

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@Archaeus said
"Trying to find true will is the work of the Outer College, more specifically it's the work of an 5=6 so you are not expected to do it all before you are even admitted to the AA as a Neophyte."

Conscious awareness (and even articulation) of True Will is usually a result long before 5=6. There is a tendency to confuse discovery of the True Will with Knowledge & Conversation of the HGA.

Sure, one doesn't have "to do it all" as a Probationer. But that's no reason not to give it a hell of a start if one is so motivated. "

That's a very good point actually, thanks for making the distinction. I guess during my own 1=10 I got a much clearer idea of my own True Will, and even had the full blown Vision of Adonai (Much to my shock ) But didn't get any closer to K&C, of which I am in no way qualified to talk about.

[Jim Eshelman]

@Archaeus said

"That's a very good point actually, thanks for making the distinction. I guess during my own 1=10 I got a much clearer idea of my own True Will, and even had the full blown Vision of Adonai (Much to my shock ) But didn't get any closer to K&C, of which I am in no way qualified to talk about."

Mine (TW disclosure) came in 2=9. It was the big event of 2=9 in many ways, so it's always felt to me like the Tifereth phenomenon reflected into the field of the Moon.

[Archaeus]

@Jim Eshelman said

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@Archaeus said
"That's a very good point actually, thanks for making the distinction. I guess during my own 1=10 I got a much clearer idea of my own True Will, and even had the full blown Vision of Adonai (Much to my shock ) But didn't get any closer to K&C, of which I am in no way qualified to talk about."

Mine (TW disclosure) came in 2=9. It was the big event of 2=9 in many ways, so it's always felt to me like the Tifereth phenomenon reflected into the field of the Moon."

I wouldn't say I've had a full disclosure, more like a series of not-so-subtle hints as to where I should be looking. I got the name of my HGA during 0=0 and had the vision (actually a dream in which I was introduced to A.'.) came along 7 months into 1=10, around the same time a lot of other things in life started to "straighten themselves out".

I can see though how a person might mistake emergence into Yetzirah for K&C, because for me it's been something of an epochal change of perspective and something that I didn't expect to happen in quite such a marked and literal way.

[Jim Eshelman]

@Archaeus said

"I can see though how a person might mistake emergence into Yetzirah for K&C, because for me it's been something of an epochal change of perspective and something that I didn't expect to happen in quite such a marked and literal way."

And remember, this is the level comparable to the old GD 5=6: The A.'.A.'. 2=9 initiation is adapted from the GD 5=6 ritual formula; and the functional difference between First and Second Order G.D. was the Assiah vs. Yetzirah distinction. (The same is true in A.'.A.'., actually, since the Second Order formally begins with 2=9.)

My reason for mentioning this is that a lot of the better stuff in print from the old G.D. paradigm will describe 5=6 (including K&C) in terms that are highly characteristic of A.'.A.'. 2=9. These writings can be misleading, especially because the phenomena sound so on-target for what one might expect from the images and words of K&C of HGA.

[Archaeus]

@Jim Eshelman said

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@Archaeus said
"I can see though how a person might mistake emergence into Yetzirah for K&C, because for me it's been something of an epochal change of perspective and something that I didn't expect to happen in quite such a marked and literal way."

And remember, this is the level comparable to the old GD 5=6: The A.'.A.'. 2=9 initiation is adapted from the GD 5=6 ritual formula; and the functional difference between First and Second Order G.D. was the Assiah vs. Yetzirah distinction. (The same is true in A.'.A.'., actually, since the Second Order formally begins with 2=9.)

My reason for mentioning this is that a lot of the better stuff in print from the old G.D. paradigm will describe 5=6 (including K&C) in terms that are highly characteristic of A.'.A.'. 2=9. These writings can be misleading, especially because the phenomena sound so on-target for what one might expect from the images and words of K&C of HGA."

That's pretty much the kind of material I've been reading, it's quite plain how the old GD ZAM grade etc correspond to what we now call 2=9 and so on. During my own 1=10 (which I'm still in, but only by a matter of weeks) I went through the old Golden Dawn material as part of a general exploration of the lower part of the Tree of Life, doing everything in Assiah/Malkuth as it were and pathworking my way up to Tiphareth. The whole period was pretty full on, especially as I'm doing a degree at the same time.

I understand that ritual CXX is analogous to the old GD 5=6 (The numbering is a give away) although I've refrained from reading any of the online versions because I don't want to spoil it for myself.

Getting back to the original poster though: If there's one thing I've learned and thus advise I would give is that the best results don't so much come when you are looking for them, but come along almost despite your efforts, in ways that can be very suprising and as a result of simply planing a regime of study and practice and sticking to it. Quite simply, follow out the tasks of each grade faithfully and sure as 1+1=2 the results will follow.

But yes, aspiration to the HGA helps; which is why a 0=0 wears the robe of a 5=6 (more or less)

[Q789]

Kat- The vow, it was fundamental to my discovery.

So binding. I do believe AC recommended it too.

[Anonymous]

Q, do you mean an Oath? Just to clarify, because he didn't use the word "vow" on the thread.

[Los]

@Katanoese said

"After a bit of research, I came upon "Sample Ritual #9" in 776 1/2, which resonated strongly with me, and seems to describe a procedure I can benefit greatly from in my situation .. That is - purifying the personality and perceptions, prompting the Khabs to flow out and purify the Khu / aura, and thus hopefully the True Will can not only shine forth and become perceptible to the consciousness, but also become more effective in my life through the more effective and attuned Khu .."

Don't take this the wrong way, but what exactly makes you think that performing a ritual is going to enable you to gain insight into yourself, let alone enable you to discover your True Will?

Yes, I understand that you say the goal of the ritual is to "purify the personality and perceptions, prompting the Khabs to flow out" and yada yada yada, but what makes you think that performing a ritual will do this? The fact is that no amount of "ritual work" is going to get an individual even a jot closer to discovering his true will.

I've said elsewhere in many places that one needs a crystal clear understanding of the goals and what one is trying to do and how the practices are supposed to achieve those goals, and here's a practical example of why it's important.

As I explained earlier in the thread, the work of discovering the True Will is a process of observing your Self and adjusting behavior in real time. The vital part is doing it in real-life, day-to-day situations. That's how you "purify the personality," although that's not the most precise phrase to use, since you're not really "purifying" anything but rather learning to see past certain illusions. You don't "purify the personality" by sitting around and playing imagination games. That's just going to generate more illusions.

Now, if you were to say that you think performing this ritual might impress certain ideas upon your mind, which you would carry with you into your daily life and thus find assists you with the real work of observing your self in day-to-day life, then at least that would make a little bit of sense. I still would dispute that the ritual work adds anything substantial to the process, but at least you'd have a clearer idea of what's actually going on, and you'd be in a position to investigate yourself and see if, in your case, the ritual really does add anything substantial to the process.

For the most part, I consider all of this ritual stuff a complete and total distraction, more likely to mislead than help, and I think engaging in it should be primarily because you enjoy performing the rituals and enjoy the feelings they create in you, not because you think they're going to do anything in regards to giving you insight into yourself.

[Takamba]

@Los said

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For the most part, I consider all of this ritual stuff a complete and total distraction, more likely to mislead than help, and I think engaging in it should be primarily because you enjoy performing the rituals and enjoy the feelings they create in you, not because you think they're going to do anything in regards to giving you insight into yourself."

"Thou hast no right but to do thy will."

[Bereshith]

@Los said

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For the most part, I consider all of this ritual stuff a complete and total distraction, more likely to mislead than help, and I think engaging in it should be primarily because you enjoy performing the rituals and enjoy the feelings they create in you, not because you think they're going to do anything in regards to giving you insight into yourself."

"The word of Sin is Restriction."

[Los]

I appreciate the extremely selective quotation, guys, but being able to rattle off phrases that you think are relevant isn’t a substitute for understanding those verses in the first place.

For starters, "Restriction" has a specific meaning in Thelema -- restricting the manifestation of one's True Will by following mental illusions instead of attending to reality (Crowley puts it: "This is sin: / To hold thy holy self in"). As part of manifesting the True Will, one needs to have a clear understanding of the terrain through which one is navigating.

It's not "Restriction," then, to recommend that someone have a clear understanding of reality and what's going on. For example, a math teacher isn't "restricting" you by telling you when you've made an incorrect answer, a history teacher isn't "restricting" you by telling you what actually happened in history, and I'm not "restricting" you by telling you that you need to have a clear understanding of what you're doing if you want any of this stuff to work.

Ironically, it would be "Restriction" to insist on trusting one's own precious feelings and "intuitions" instead of bothering to figure out what's really going on.

As far as "thou hast no right but to do thy will" goes, one cannot follow that verse without understanding what True Will actually is, and properly understanding how that term is defined in Thelema isn't "restriction": it's foundational to doing any work at all toward discovering it.

As I was pointing out, if we define True Will as Crowley did, which involves gaining insight into one's Self, then one needs to be asking questions such as "How could doing some ritual or sitting around imagining something possibly give me insight into myself?" Coming up with a critical and serious answer to such a question isn't "Restriction": it's the one possible way to avoid Restriction.

[Takamba]

@Los said

"I appreciate the extremely selective quotation, guys, but being able to rattle off phrases that you think are relevant isn’t a substitute for understanding those verses in the first place.

For starters, "Restriction" has a specific meaning in Thelema -- restricting the manifestation of one's True Will by following mental illusions instead of attending to reality (Crowley puts it: "This is sin: / To hold thy holy self in"). As part of manifesting the True Will, one needs to have a clear understanding of the terrain through which one is navigating.

It's not "Restriction," then, to recommend that someone have a clear understanding of reality and what's going on. For example, a math teacher isn't "restricting" you by telling you when you've made an incorrect answer, a history teacher isn't "restricting" you by telling you what actually happened in history, and I'm not "restricting" you by telling you that you need to have a clear understanding of what you're doing if you want any of this stuff to work.

Ironically, it would be "Restriction" to insist on trusting one's own precious feelings and "intuitions" instead of bothering to figure out what's really going on.

As far as "thou hast no right but to do thy will" goes, one cannot follow that verse without understanding what True Will actually is, and properly understanding how that term is defined in Thelema isn't "restriction": it's foundational to doing any work at all toward discovering it.

As I was pointing out, if we define True Will as Crowley did, which involves gaining insight into one's Self, then one needs to be asking questions such as "How could doing some ritual or sitting around imagining something possibly give me insight into myself?" Coming up with a critical and serious answer to such a question isn't "Restriction": it's the one possible way to avoid Restriction."

If you can answer the question "Why am I doing this" with anything other than "it is my Will," then you aren't doing your Will, you are doing the "why." Why am I doing this? To gain something other than this? That is not "pure will."

[Edit: I'm not responsible for Bereshith's interpretations of what I write]

[Edit: PS. Nowhere in the Book of the Law does it mention "True Will."]

[Los]

@Takamba said

"If you can answer the question "Why am I doing this" with anything other than "it is my Will," then you aren't doing your Will, you are doing the "why." Why am I doing this? To gain something other than this? That is not "pure will.""

But this thread is in the context of someone trying to figure out how to discover his True Will. An aspirant cannot sensibly answer the question "How do I discover my True Will?" with "It's my True Will!" That's a bunch of nonsense.

In order to answer the question "How do I discover my True Will?" a person needs to know at least:
--What the concept "True Will" means
--The steps a person should use to discover True Will
--Why he should think the particular steps in question actually do lead to the discovery of the True Will
--The specific criteria by which he can judge that the steps have actually worked to allow him to discover the True Will.

Crystal clear understanding of these things is vital for success: a person can't shrug this off or just declare, as policy, that whatever they do is already their True Will. It makes nonsense out of the whole idea of working to discover the will, and it makes Thelema meaningless.

Discovering the True Will is a task, and there's no reason to suppose that it doesn't require a crystal clear understanding of the subject, like any other task.

[Los]

@Takamba said

"[Edit: PS. Nowhere in the Book of the Law does it mention "True Will."]"

Yeah, but the guy who invented Thelema -- Aleister Crowley -- created and defined that term in a very specific way. If one is interested in practicing Thelema, and doing it intelligently, one needs to know what it requires and how to do it. Merely guessing or merely trusting what someone else says isn't going to cut it, unless one is looking for some kind of religion.

[Takamba]

@Los said

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But this thread is in the context of someone trying to figure out how to discover his True Will."

"How?" is a great question. I was demonstrating that when one stops and asks, "why?" one has stopped "doing." If one has an answer for "why" other than "it is my nature, it is my self, it is my will," then the "will" is naught. It is certainly not "True."

The belief in a "True Will" has a lot of danger to it. Some seem to view it as some sort of ordained destiny, from on high, previously determined. Instead, I recommend we think in nautical terms, true north, true east. Direct (True) Will. You do not "discover" this, you adhere to it.

[Los]

@Takamba said

""How?" is a great question. I was demonstrating that when one stops and asks, "why?" one has stopped "doing." If one has an answer for "why" other than "it is my nature, it is my self, it is my will," then the "will" is naught. It is certainly not "True.""

Well, yeah. A person's will is a person's will. There's no "why" to it. But if someone wants to do something toward a certain end -- such as, for example, discover the True Will in the first place -- then we would expect that the person (if he wants to practice intelligently) would ask critical questions of practices: what they supposedly accomplish, why he would think they actually do accomplish these things, and how he tells.

"The belief in a "True Will" has a lot of danger to it. Some seem to view it as some sort of ordained destiny, from on high, previously determined. Instead, I recommend we think in nautical terms, true north, true east. Direct (True) Will. You do not "discover" this, you adhere to it."

True Will is most definitely not some preordained path. It is -- to oversimplify a bit -- what a person would naturally do if his mind would stop telling him that he "should" be doing something else "because" of some silly reason (such as "because it's the right thing to do" or "because it's for the good of humanity!" or "because you're such-and-such kind of person").

I do think that True Will has to be discovered because our thoughts, emotions, feelings, intuitions, etc. "veil" the True Will from us. We discover (literally dis-cover, remove the covering from) our True Wills by increasing our powers of observation and learning to see "through" the illusions of our minds, exactly as I explained earlier in the thread.

[Takamba]

@Los said

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"The belief in a "True Will" has a lot of danger to it. Some seem to view it as some sort of ordained destiny, from on high, previously determined. Instead, I recommend we think in nautical terms, true north, true east. Direct (True) Will. You do not "discover" this, you adhere to it."
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Exactly. Why ask why? Just a swift "How" on the butt and a stern "Do" on the back. Ask after, when the data is collected, "Did or did not?" and learn from that.