College of Thelema: Thelemic Education

It's without a doubt "every man and every woman is a star" to me. It has a very, very personal load.

Wow, beautiful! The first picture is prettier but the second one has more of a special load.

@Jim Eshelman said

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@Elmida said
"Or maybe Aiwass didn't but Crowley, the medium, did. I mean, I don't speak Russian but Google Translate, the medium, does."

Crowley was very explicit, in Equinox of the Gods and elsewhere, that this dictation was not the sort of telepathic contact that one wrestles into language at the receiving end. He said (I paraphrase, not having the text in front of me) that Aiwass spoke aloud in clear, audible words, and these were taken down verbatim."

I'm sorry, I could have and should have known that.

Or maybe Aiwass didn't but Crowley, the medium, did. I mean, I don't speak Russian but Google Translate, the medium, does.

The Law is for everyone

Thank you very much. Especially the thing about "since you received the name you were probably doing something right" part was very useful to me.

I think my problem is that I don't even know where I should start because there is no A.'.A.'., T.O.T or OTO for me to join and I can only get my information off the internet. At the moment I'm not even doing any Magick because I don't know how to do it. All I do know is that I'm 99,5% sure that the dream I had a while ago was me being in touch with my HGA. It was a very clear feeling that still stick with me today and keeps giving me strength.

I do feel that when I meditate I get "closer" to the HGA. So maybe that's at least a good direction.

But what if you're 99,5% sure that you've received the name of your HGA? Without having actually SEARCHED for it, and just received it? How do you go on from there?

Anti-virus software can really get their panties in a twist over completely nothing. My old one wouldn't even let me play Assassin's Creed simply because it required access to the internet.

93,

I haven't read anything yet but I do really wish to congratulate you on what you've achieved. And that I greatly admire your perseverance.

I'm not sure. I do believe there's some sort of... force or higher power or something, but a god? I really really don't know.

I myself feel I'm more of an agnostic Thelemite. I very very strongly belief in its principles and Duty and the like, but I have trouble truly believing in the gods. In my eyes, one doesn't have to believe in god to follow the Law of Thelema.

I wouldn't ignore it altogether, that's sort of like repressing it, but just "letting it flow" and see what happens is the solution I decided to go with. I haven't 100% excluded men yet because who knows, maybe I'll find one that I DO like, who knows? What I always like to say is "you love someone for their person, not for their gender".

93,

Welcome!

The shortest answer to give is "love who thou Willt", but of course everything sounds easier that way than it truly is.

I am very new as well (not even a year) and I too have been struggling with my sexuality for quite a while now. I grew up thinking I was heterosexual but during puberty (surprise), I was growing more and more attached to the same gender. But, like the instruction videos at school said happened in some cases, I was convinced it was just a 'phase'. I was very wrong. Eventually I got a girlfriend and we were together for four years but still the people surrounding me weren't convinced I actually was into women (my ex was very dominant and they thought she brainwashed me into loving her) and that was when I started to doubt myself too. That, and the fact that I thought I would remain alone forever if I didn't start liking the opposite gender because it's much harder to find someone who's gay as well. I forced myself to start dating guys but it made me feel extremely uncomfortable.

When I discovered Thelema I started seeing myself more as an individual and an individual that counts in this world as well. Every man and every woman is a star and that's the ideal I try to live by right now. Can't accept a person for who he/she is? Deal with it.

Now, of course, I happen to live in a country where homosexuality is 99,5% accepted and I understand that in different societies it could be more difficult. But what counts it that you shouldn't force yourself to feel what makes you uncomfortable. Don't be the person others desire to see, be the person that you are and want to be. And this probably has more to do with psychology and society, but I know Thelema helps me a lot to achieve it and make it easier.

Thanks for that link

Get it fixed! Seriously, it was helping me HEAPS!

Don't feed the troll, ladies and gentlement.

Get back to Memebase, noob.

That's a great tip, Jim. Especially when, like me, you have to explain it to close friends, they fiend it harder to smash YOUR opinions and believes than when it's something "Crowley said".

Sadly, the people in my surroundings (especially at work, I'm a cleaning lady, not many of my colleagues are hugely intelligent) are a tad on the narrow-minded side. I too wear the unicursal hexagram and last week they told me "LOL YOU'RE WEARING A JEW STAR" (how it looks like the Star of David is still a mystery to me) and that's the point where I really don't even feel the need to explain my beliefs to them. Even my closest friends think I've gone mad because 1) not being an atheist means you're a loon these days 2) the hexagram looks like a pentagram which must mean I sacrifice small children and dance around naked in the forest.

To be honest, only one friend has bothered to listen to my explanation about Thelema and she understood how I was feeling because she too is a believer (Protestant).

Usually I shortly say "We believe in True Will and try to find it through various processes like meditation and yoga and etc,."

I suppose it's also a part of it, but what the guy basically told me that there isn't really a Thelemic society in the Netherlands at all. It's kind of hard to feel like I'm part of something that isn't actually there. To be honest I feel more connected to you guys than to any Thelemite here, because I'm actually talking to you.

But yet, the thought that I'm not alone and that there are others who get what I get is a big help. And speaking to them in your native tongue is an even bigger help. I never knew how to phrace "Do what you Wilt shall be the whole of the Law" in Dutch, but now I do and that feels much better. It's more 'understanding' than 'belonging', but maybe that's also because I've finally managed to drop the thought that I HAD to join the A.'.A.'. or OTO. You can't join what's not there, and I've managed to realize that I can do it on my own too.

I hope that answers your question.