Elmida,
I'm sorry, I didn't mean for my last post to come across as a question so much as a thought I was just putting out there. However, your feed back was enlightening. Thank you.
Mephisto,
@Mephis said
"It is your task to find a way."
It appears that Elmida has already came to this conclusion:
@Elmida said
"I've managed to realize that I can do it on my own too."
Also, having troubles making an initial connection to material that you are completely unfamiliar with doesn't necessarily mean that it "isn't for you." It just means you have a hell of a lot more studying to do. People like Elmida and myself were simply looking for a solution to our feeling of outsided-ness and lack of connection (undersanding). Ash confirmed what I had already suspected earlier in the this thread, and that's that understanding is something that slowly "creeps" it's way to you. We just have to be patient and push forward diligently. Obviously there's still a drive there to continue studying despite our discouraging circumstance.
-ANEA