College of Thelema: Thelemic Education

Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law

are you talking about that sephir sephiroth that's in the back of 777? if so, i'd suggest checking out Godwin's Cabalistic Encyclopeida. it's divided into three sections - one by number, one alphabetical in hebrew and the other alphabetical in english. it's a really great resource, especially as a starting point for gathering and organizing your own gematrias

if it only came as a spreadsheet! 😆

Love is the law, love under will

I've achieved both astral and etheric projection during my first run at magick when I was in my early 20's. (I'm 36 now) Etheric took about a month of same time every night practice.
Unfortunately I had 2 absolutely terrifying OOB journeys after about 2 months which certainly stopped any further experimentation, consciously and perhaps subconsciously as I was fairly traumatized for a long while.
Not knowing about the banishing rituals at that time I just 'got out' at will. Obviously a mistake.
The first - I was astrally projecting and ended up in a cave deep in the earth. I could hear a group of people opening something - a box or maybe something buried then many screams. I decided to get back into my body as whatever had been uncovered was bashing down the caves and I had a deep sense of dread.
I woke and realised it was someone at my bedroom door (I was back from University and in my parents house for the summer). So I opened the door and faced this 'demon' that was about 7 feet tall, eyes of fresh blood and its body seemed to be made up of flies that were in constant whirling motion.
Obviously I was freaked beyond rational thought at this time. Jumped into bed and hid under the covers totally awake and recited the Lords Prayer! (Catholic upbringing eh?)
'It' stayed for a good 2 minutes and I didn't get any sleep that night, or for another few...
The second was even more terrifying and I've waned to know what it could mean for a very long time. I do however feel uncomfortable about posting it here.
Jim is it ok if I PM you about it?
No witch/psychic or magician has been able to decode it for me yet which is disappointing as it was a big experience for me - more so than anything that has happened on Malkuth.
I'd like to understand what they mean and how to avoid such things in future since I seem to have put on a mental block which makes projection seem very unpalatable for me and thats a shame as I know I have to eventually make headway in this area.

Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law

i just spent a good twenty minutes bugging out on your website 😄

Love is the law, love under will