93, There are many things secret, even which you demand, that is only secret in word. There's much to be found, with the eyes to see, so to say. That said, I feel there is high importance in the teacher-student relationship, as well as having another experienced to tell you of the pitfalls and dangers. Also these people guide us. It is a part of the path. It doesn't seem very ideal to walk it all alone. Too, we are talking about groups that have been doing there practices for around a hundred years or more. Last, and I'll sit down and shut up, is it seems rather lazy to demand it all be laid out before you, rather than going out and seeking and doing all the work you can and should do. Just a thought. There's plenty to be gained in joining an organization. Hell, I did years on my own before signing an Oath. It's more a matter of when you're ready and when you feel you're mature enough to dedicate yourself to that degree of work and integrity required. Make any sense? 9