Fellow student of Light, one can easily see that you are being too difficult on yourself. Your "animal" instincts saved you on the astral plane:
One might wish, in your situation, to go over Liber O in number 2 of Equinox I. It explains that after one has become accustomed to the use of pentagrams and hexagrams, one can protect oneself or even others in the astral when having encounters with questionable beings.
G'night, brother.
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