Ordeals and HGA
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the atlas itch:
Your post reminds me of The Fool which I think provides meaningful insight into the topic at hand. He walks towards the edge of the cliff, ready to step off the edge with a smile on his face, despite the depths (of Hell) that he is about to descend into. He knows it his path to come back out on top, ascending even further having gained the experiences of that Hell.
As for making the path any easier? I wouldn't have it any other way. I didn't incarnate to not live.
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Thanks for the feedback.
I know conventional wisdom is that one should banish, but my experience has been banishings do not offer protection per se, but tend to intensify whatever is happening, for better or worse. Part of the intensity I am feeling right now is coming from the fact that I quit smoking 2 weeks ago and my body is going through nicotine withdrawal. But it also intensifies the paranoia and feel at times like I am losing my mind.
Yes, part of me would not have it any other way - I do feel like I stepped off a cliff 3 years ago and still have not reached the bottom. Sanity and keeping one’s feet grounded whilst pursuing magick is extremely important for me.
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In retrospect, I've seen the underlying wisdom of my ordeals. They seem like course corrections: the painful elimination of things that I shouldn't have had in my life in the first place.
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Walk. When you feel like you're about to lose your ****, just head out the door and around the block.
It helps.
Don't belittle it. Quitting cigarettes is a majorly emotional head trip. Before too long, you'll notice a thick layer of anxiety and depression begin to lift and dissipate like a fog.
Keep it up, man. You're winning.
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I had developed a terrible addiction to opiates at a certain point of my life. Things were great I spent 70% of my day in perfect dullness. The sh** storm started the day I decided to quit, I suffered withdrawals that nearly killed me, lost my job, lost everything I owned, and most of my "friends." I gained my mind and my soul through my ordeal that lasted well over year even after attaining soberiety. Had I stayed by the fire no harm would have come to me, but I would have never become anything of relative value or virtue.
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[quote="the atlas itch"
Would it be correct to say the HGA not merely “permits” ordeals to happen to the person, but is the agent of the ordeals - in this sense the HGA plays a hidden adversarial role that purifies and draws the candidate toward future union? "Doris Lessing depicts the guardian angel acting this way in her novel, "Shikasta: Re, Colonised Planet 5" (which is one of my favorite books) The guardian angell in this book really puts some people through horrible ordeals, but with a love and a wisdom to help each of them learn and grow. It really shocked me when I first read it years ago.
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Have you considered it may not be your destiny in this lifetime to achieve what it is you desire? Can you accept that? If you can, then you may be worthy.
However, if you force it, you could end up like one of those babies born severely deformed, only to die in agony.
Regarding your points: 1. - Possibly.
2. and 3. - Very thin ice to be on. To go mad or commit murder will end the game for you in this incarnation, not to mention add to your Karmic debt. So you can accept and aspire, but don't expect.This is just one man's opinion, but one must not be too attached to anything, good or bad.
P.S. Adding to what Danicia alluded to in another thread, it's the work that counts, not the outcome. (One doesn't dance to get to the other side of the floor.)
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@nderabloodredsky said
"Have you considered it may not be your destiny in this lifetime to achieve what it is you desire? Can you accept that? If you can, then you may be worthy"
Yes, I have considered that possibility. Part of me feels like I’m paying off karmic debts from a previous incarnation. You would not believe all the stuff that's happened to me in the last 3 years - like a film script. For the last 2 years I do not feel like it is "my" life.
Now if the HGA is more than guardian and stabilizer of one’s universe, but also secret initiator and agent of ordeals, this subtle difference should cause serious reconsideration of everything. It means, the real question is not whether one will attain in a particular incarnation, but rather, attainment is a certainty and resistance is futile. Hence that warning from Liber Cheth:
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Wherefore I charge you that ye come unto me in the Beginning; for if ye take but one step in this Path, ye must arrive inevitably at the end thereof.*Jim has stayed out of this thread, but it would be interesting to hear his feedback to the above.
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I can accept that some bad things happen for a reason, that it happened so that people would change and grow. Yet some things that happen there just isn't anything acceptable about it. Severe child abuse, torture, genocide, among other horrible events.
One of the reasons I am suspicious of applying the law of karma to everything. What did the Native Americans do to have such bad karma they get wiped out by white settlers? Did the Jews have bad karma to be put in concentration camps? Did innocent people deserve to be burned as witches? Were all their HGAs trying to teach them something? Sorry, I don't buy that.
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@Tornado93 said
"I can accept that some bad things happen for a reason, that it happened so that people would change and grow. Yet some things that happen there just isn't anything acceptable about it. Severe child abuse, torture, genocide, among other horrible events.
One of the reasons I am suspicious of applying the law of karma to everything. What did the Native Americans do to have such bad karma they get wiped out by white settlers? Did the Jews have bad karma to be put in concentration camps? Did innocent people deserve to be burned as witches? Were all their HGAs trying to teach them something? Sorry, I don't buy that."
You brought up some interesting points there that I think some people tend to refer to as "racial karma," which I think is an entirely different beast than individual karma. As far as specific answers, I would have few insights to potentially offer you but some Biblical Historians currently are spreading the word that King David invented genocide when YHVH commanded the death of neighboring nations. Sorry I don't have the specifics, but it is written - so it just may be so.
The indigenous tribes of the the American continent? Maybe their is something to your point of view that they were innocent (I highly doubt it though, as innocence is truly a lost art that any teenager would have to confess to). The theosophical point of view about past life karma is that in fact it is used to explain the very questions you pose. We don't know these things, we don't know the path the red man took when man migrated out of Asia to the Americas, and how many deaths lay along the journey. That which some call "God" supposedly does know, and karma (being an impersonal law of cause and effect, speaking neither ill nor good but being fairly just in its own light) is I guess a "god effect" so to speak - so let's say for the sake of argument that those who believe in past lives and karmic debts relative to that also believe that karma "knows" things we may never comprehend.
Anyway - that's just my take on the subject. I still leave it for you to measure and decide.
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When I am tempted to think in terms of good or bad I am reminded that it is my perception that makes it so.
Things are things, actions are action they are not inherintly good or bad (even though we may say that our intention makes it so, but our intentions are based upon our perceptions....and we can not always trust our perceptions as being true reality).
As some one who has worked closely with Indeginious teachings, I can gander a guess that what "happened" to them may possibly have been a seed event so that the dance of humanity could continue. By that I will clarify that the spirituality that used to be european shamanism had been assimilated into the the dying god mythos, and salvationist thought. The original pilgrims wanted freedom and liberty, and I think that possibly the act of cultural appropiation is an act of the great melting pot, or of creating an eclectic blending of the best of the best, so to speak.
In other words, those action we deem "bad" may have been the only way to get the needed medicine. I tell my kids as they grimace at my remedies, that medicine is not supposed to taste good.
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@Takamba said
" You brought up some interesting points there that I think some people tend to refer to as "racial karma," which I think is an entirely different beast than individual karma. "
Each of those individual Native Americans, Jews, and accused witches (and plenty other examples) experienced their own pain and deaths individually, even though they were also part of a race or group.
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@Veronica said
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In other words, those action we deem "bad" may have been the only way to get the needed medicine. I tell my kids as they grimace at my remedies, that medicine is not supposed to taste good."That reminds me of a "Banana Flavored" antibiotic my parents made me take when I had strep as a kid. I had "Banana Flavored" puke all over the kitchen and was afraid to eat bananas for several years.
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@Veronica said
"When I am tempted to think in terms of good or bad I am reminded that it is my perception that makes it so.
Things are things, actions are action they are not inherintly good or bad (even though we may say that our intention makes it so, but our intentions are based upon our perceptions....and we can not always trust our perceptions as being true reality).
As some one who has worked closely with Indeginious teachings, I can gander a guess that what "happened" to them may possibly have been a seed event so that the dance of humanity could continue. By that I will clarify that the spirituality that used to be european shamanism had been assimilated into the the dying god mythos, and salvationist thought. The original pilgrims wanted freedom and liberty, and I think that possibly the act of cultural appropiation is an act of the great melting pot, or of creating an eclectic blending of the best of the best, so to speak.
In other words, those action we deem "bad" may have been the only way to get the needed medicine. I tell my kids as they grimace at my remedies, that medicine is not supposed to taste good."
There are numerous cases of very young children who have been severely abused by their parents - Mother, father or both. Children who have been burned, tortured, and beaten to the point of permanent damage or even killed. Was their HGA giving them an ordeal? Were they born with bad karma? My perception is what makes it wrong????
Native Americans had to be wiped out so that "the dance of humanity could continue"????
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But, even if karma/reincarnation is at play in a situation like child abuse, it doesn't mean that it is not a great wrong, and that there is not a wrongdoer to be punished. It just means that the victim doesn't always have to be a victim.
The key seems to be approaching it from the end of treating the victims as gods, rather then using it as a mental tool to assuage the guilt over the crime.
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@Tornado93 said
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Native Americans had to be wiped out so that "the dance of humanity could continue"????"Maybe. Remember, I've only commented on points of inquiry. I have no answer because this existence of a Soul / Atman or any other name is not demonstrable - nor is the opposite of its existence actually proven. All contact with it is purely personal and I feel mostly poetic in color. And since your belief in karma and soul are so interconnected in the way they are, I merely suggest some options to research to learn more about what people or peoples have concluded about these subjects in ways that you may not be familiar with.
In reference to the above question of your - maybe. That's the answer i suggest. Maybe humanity (like Buffalo) has an existence all unique ITS own - Humanity, like Buffalo and Coyote, are Gods! Humanity's Will may be to wipe all out racial separation and some ordeals are required for Wisdom to stick to flesh. Maybe all those Texans and Cowboys didn't know exactly why they were sacrificing, but to The End, they maybe were actually Sacrificing.
I dunno. I wasn't exactly there.
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As I understand it, germs were responsible for wiping out the Native American Indians. Their immunity systems had not built up the necessary resistance. European settlers exploited this fact by giving them blankets deliberately infected with smallpox.
I don’t think it’s too productive to question the “whys” of the HGA but I would rather learn the “hows” for dealing with ordeals. I subscribe to the Buddhist view that suffering arises from ignorance and therefore part of "adeptship" must entail skillfulness - learning how to deal with ordeals that arise.
For example, one thing I’ve pondered is whether, if I am attracting an unusual amount of bad luck and misfortune, the universe is telling me my task to absorb the poisons of others and transmute it into beneficial energy as in the practice of tonglen:
Or whether gratitude and compassion are useful attitudes. Or what it means to see, name and pledge a thing to the Will of the HGA - I presume that means something more than the ritual laid out in Abramelin.
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Thank you, I appreciate this.
@he atlas itch said
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I don’t think it’s too productive to question the “whys” of the HGA but I would rather learn the “hows” for dealing with ordeals. I subscribe to the Buddhist view that suffering arises from ignorance and therefore part of "adeptship" must entail skillfulness - learning how to deal with ordeals that arise.For example, one thing I’ve pondered is whether, if I am attracting an unusual amount of bad luck and misfortune, the universe is telling me my task to absorb the poisons of others and transmute it into beneficial energy as in the practice of tonglen:
Or whether gratitude and compassion are useful attitudes. Or what it means to see, name and pledge a thing to the Will of the HGA - I presume that means something more than the ritual laid out in Abramelin."
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"What did the Native Americans do to have such bad karma they get wiped out by white settlers? Did the Jews have bad karma to be put in concentration camps? Did innocent people deserve to be burned as witches? Were all their HGAs trying to teach them something? Sorry, I don't buy that."
With the Native American's, their is a good old propheci, called the "Hopi" prophecies. It clearly states that the Natives knew what was coming before hand. On a second note, the myth of the "Star child" that offered to teach magick and wisdom the the Natives, and those who refused would have war, yadayada ect... But I dont think any actually took up the offer, hence white people moved in.
The Jews, there are a few mytho accounts of them "dissobaying" god. Which I "personally" beleive had something to do with their cultural bad luck. I mean the Jews were gifted, from the beginning, and the turning over to dogmatic Monotheism was just the start of "Cultural Bad Decisions". I think the race has been enslaved like 3 times or so. But in both cases I think I'm inclined to think of a Cultural karma, so to speak, that drags with certain groups of people, expecially if the "herd-mind" still exists in that particular culture, which would probly be the vehicle of such karma.The witches, bright thinkers and tinkers. I think they should have wiped out the christians before the got there, but that wasnt the case, what that did do is it gave alot of Celtic influence. Ya sure the christians wanted to silence who spake, but where did the old european influences for the old days come from? Catholisism adopted alot of pagan ideas to assimilate, but also what they didnt know is that it left a link, connection back to the ancient religions. So that ordeal gave rise to the Celtic Shivlery influence where we got all the beautifull midevial mythos, and the works of the renasance. Although I have read somewhere that christianity in terms of science set the world back by 2000 years.
But just as "we" have "personal" Karma, I think their is a probly a "group mind" karma, or racial/cultural whatever. A forest has to be burnt so new life and grow and flourish, so it wont turn into some dark dank dead looking forest.
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@he atlas itch said
"As I understand it, germs were responsible for wiping out the Native American Indians. Their immunity systems had not built up the necessary resistance. European settlers exploited this fact by giving them blankets deliberately infected with smallpox."
Don't believe it. This is all Leftist propaganda at best. Actually it is a giant pack of lies.
There was no 'genocide' against the Native Americans. No reasonable evidence of this can be backed up by real history. On the other hand we do have actual historical evidence to show that Native American tribes were in a constant state of war with each other. They were 'warrior' societies after all.
When the white man came and many tribes were decimated by smallpox it was not the white man that came along and 'exterminated' the weakened tribe... it was the tribe's traditional tribal enemies that swooped in and finished them off. Some grizzled old officer's comment of "the only good injun is a dead injun" is the only so called "evidence" presented as justification of this genocide theory.
The story of the contaminated blankets is total hogwash. They were gifts of clean blankets made to the chief of a neighboring tribe as genuine peace offerings. The comment that they were taken from the Fort hospital was construed as a conscious attempt at germ warfare. But the absurdity of this is lost on the self-loathing Leftists who push this tripe. At that point in history Pasteur was barely presenting his germ theory of disease in Paris and most doctors in Europe and certainly America were clueless about it. Doubtless, the soldiers on the frontier had no idea of such a possibility.
All across America today there are MILLIONS of Native Americans living on their own land speaking their Native language and following their traditional customs (minus the constant warfare). DOZENS of tribes. In fact it is estimated that their population numbers today are roughly equivalent to what they were when Columbus landed here in 1492.
P.S. I think the ordeals of the HGA are not planned by the HGA but one's destined trials and ordeals from the moment of birth are arranged by the HGA (when given sufficient attention) in the psyche to actually provide eternal gain in the form of Higher Consciousness and Spiritual Growth. Life sucks and then you die. But for the True Initiate there is at least the possibility of Purpose.