Unfortunately, the country in which I live and I'm born, Italy, doesn't have organization about Thelema. Or better, there could be www.otoitalia.it/, but I imagine that are too small for been definided a Thelemite Lodge. So I'm privated of initiatoy paths. There is the freemasonry, www.grandeoriente.it/, but their holy book aren't Liber AL.
However, when I said that I live in Malkuth, but think in Kether, it's not well said. I'm not justifin' that I'm not young (it is because this year I will reach 18), but that it's like I'm in Kether. I fell strange. I fell without emotions, without mind, but I think when it's necessary. I've read about other religions, Taoism, Buddhism, and now I'm practicin' their theories, but I fell strange. It's hard to me to explain.