Since joining the forum, I have felt a growing need to map out my thinking on this topic. I did a search, and viola, there was a thread! . I did read the other posts, and they only deepened my need to say something a bit truer to how I feel and conceive the problem: what does it mean to accept the law of Thelema? So I’m just going to add some thoughts onto the end. I am assuming the thread was started because other peeps were needing to hash out a similar catechism of faith.
There is a style of rhetoric that folks sometimes fall into when debating the core, or essence, of an ideological position. This style pretends to be scholarly, it relies on subtle interpretations of minor words in a larger context, it appeals to the authority of published books and opinions by originating personalities, it invokes logical argument, and educated conclusions to make a point, or rather a bludgeon.
This style of debate causes me intense spiritual discomfort. When this happens I usually feel for the pack of smokes in my shirt pocket. I the nudge the person I am sitting next to, show them the pack of cigs, and mouth as quietly as possible the words “I will be right back.” Then I quietly make my way out of the row of seats and up the aisle until I am in the open air where I can breath.
The most striking element in this behavior is the fact that I don’t smoke.
I am left contemplating one of two possible explanations for my discomfort. Either my philosophical world and my thoughts about phiolosophy are so incestuous that I will do anything in order to avoid getting on that merry-go-round—please don’t make me think those thoughts ‘again;’ or, try as I might, I just can’t find any mental hand and footholds that make me feel as though I am dealing with anything real—in other words, I don’t see the need for being philosophically armed to the teeth, when the reasons for my convictions should be part of the actual life I live from moment to moment.
I accept the Book of the Law, and the Law of Thelema, but for me this acceptance comes in this form:
Anyone who has managed to get to where they are at any moment in their lives has only been able to do that because of the principles of Thelema. It doesn’t matter if they use the word, or not. It doesn’t matter if they have never heard of Aleister Crowley, or if they have outlandish ideas about who he was and what he stood for.
People who claim the Book of the Law is Holy Writ, but who do not have the spiritual, and life experiences to back up that claim are just farting out of a place higher than their b**t hole, to quote the French. This includes me.
I assume, because it is the best assumption I can muster at this point in the journey that has allowed me to get to where I am now, that when I finally achieve gnosis, the truth of Thelema will be self-evident. If I never achieve it, I may continue to attempt to accept it for what it is, but I will have no real basis for insisting or proving the argument (though, the whole conceit that providing reasons for accepting Thelema is all about making an argument is specious, imho).
Should I access the truth via a direct transmission from my angel—we can call it that—the truth of that experience will define Thelema as much as confirm it. In other words, while I do not expect my angel to greet me with the words “do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the law,” I nevertheless expect the angel to greet me with words, or to impress on me an experience, appropriate to explain the truth of my life and key to the mysteries of the universe. This understanding, even if it should take the form of “don’t follow Crowley, reject the book of the law, do something else with your life” is by my definition, the essence of Thelema—do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the law.
Thanks for indulging me.
love and will